I haven't written much poetry lately because that just isn't something I can do nowadays. I've just been drained by school, my brains have been slurped out by chemistry. Honors chemistry, in particular.
It isn't that I lack inspiration, I just haven't been able to find the right words to describe how I feel these days. Not poetically anyway.
I'm in the middle of an emotional dilemma. I like two boys and it is driving me bonkers, especially since I won't get either of them, this is merely a fact haha. I've tried to be optimistic throughout the years, but I'm not getting any younger. I'm sixteen years old and I've never been kissed, never had a boyfriend, never even had a boy like me back in elementary school or anything. And it isn't like my sister who has an excuse by going to an all girls school. I just don't seem to be able to be liked romantically. I'm forever the friend. That's all.
But these two guys effect me in two completely different ways, which creates the mass confusion as to which one of them I actually like or would possibly want to be with over the other.
One of them makes me feel like I can fly. He just excites every cell in my body and I want to jump out of my skin and away from any sort of containment. He's crazy and loud and so funny. I just live off his energy like a drug and I'm completely addicted....
except for the part that likes the other guy.
He, he just makes me feel like me and that it is totally okay. It is very relaxed and calm and flowing. Everything just seems right. It is easy going and just. Just is a good word for it. He makes me so comfortable.
I can't choose. I know there is no reason why I really have to, but for some reason I feel like I must make a decision. And I know nothing will actually come from this, but I just don't know how I feel. Do I love one of them? Which one do I love?
What is love?
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i was jst going thru ur posts n realized i read this one earlier.
i never knew u replied to my comment! lol cz it dint appear on my homepage. . . -
I'm replying to you, for some reason it wouldn't let me actually reply...weird.
Thank you for the nice comment!!
Haha well, that's nice (or not nice? haha) to know that I'm not the only one. But my school is big, there's five hundred something kids in my class alone. Sooo...at least you have an excuse
Oh, thanks! Haha yeah, that's part of the reason I really like that particular guy, he just inspires me with the way he makes me feel. It's weird how that happens sometimes, though, when something sort of poetic like that comes out of something that wasn't intended to be like that.
Yeahhh I really like him, too!!! Arghhhh haha I just don't know!
I'll definitely keep you posted 
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omg, i luved this entry; enjoyd it very much.
dude, dont worry.. i hv never had a bf or nything of that sort either.. and i'm almost sixteen too! ur so lucky u atleast hav guys u like! lol at our school, we hv like no one! i mean, our highschool consists of only like 50 people! n like half of them r freshmen. so yea. i'm in a worse situation. lol.
i'm sure u'll find a guy soon
omg, i cant even describe how much i loved these lines:
"One of them makes me feel like I can fly. He just excites every cell in my body and I want to jump out of my skin and away from any sort of containment. He's crazy and loud and so funny. I just live off his energy like a drug and I'm completely addicted...." it's sweeeet. simply beautiful.
if i were u, i think (atleast frm wt i've read here) i'd go for the easygoing guy. whoever makes u feel comfortable u knw.
but lemme know ur decision wen u come to make one! and u can totally talk to me about this, i'm interested!
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