Late March/Early April 2009

The following is a journal entry scribbled on paper late one night a few months ago.
Thought i should upload it as it proved to be highly emotive and helped me get my ideas out 1

Still, a blistering deprivation of love haunts my grieving soul. Light is breathed into me through Demi today, she has shown care, kindness & attention which far exceeds that of any female before her. Despite definite attraction, the shallow fear embraces me once more, fear of what? I long to know. The answer to this hopefully answers all my problems. I could not infact name these problems, yet their haunting hostility and restriction has irrefutably held me captive for all my time of solitude. Maybe meeting up with Demi would answer all equations itself.
My true struggle: Demi fixes all of my problems, or fixing all of my problems bring Demi.
Bonsoir.