March 5th 2009 {{6:20 pm}}
I ran to the bathroom in time
to throw up dinner.
But when did I hit the floor?
Shaking uncontrollably
Mucous pouring out of my nose
but I don't have the will to reach up.
Crying uncontrollably
Tears burning my face and all I can do
is scream "God, why does this always happen?"
Between my desperate gasps for air.
This didn't just break my heart
it collapsed my lungs as well.1
March 7th 2009 {{7:36 am}}
I wish that you would call to say I miss you.
I'm not a bad person
everything wasn't awful
We're good together
And I need you to stay2
March 8th 2009 {{12:34 pm}}
I place a pillow over my face and hug it like I used to hug him.
I hope it smothers me until my broken heart stops beating
and I'll disappear without a trace.
Who would then be at my funeral?
The little boy who cusses me everyday and takes advantage of my kindness?
The girl who just uses me for my computer and my apartment?
The man who hates me?
The girl who used to help me slowly kill myself by filling my body with poisons?3
March 8th 2009 {{3:08}}
I sit here knees in my chest
Nasty cigarette between my fingers
I peek through the bars of my patio balcony
and I wonder how much it would hurt
If I fell into those shrubs head first... three stories down.4
March 8th 2009 {{5 something}}
My heart got ripped out when you walked away
thrown up and shot out the air
while the shooter had a smile on his face
as I lay here slowly dying
half-hearted and lonely.
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