What Happened

its like once a month you don't care what happens to us. So you go do whatever you want..... no matter the cost.... and you pick up the pieces later when it is convienant for you. I need someone that feels more emotions. You sometimes act like the coldest person I have ever met in my life. Like I never even knew you at all. Four years and I am sad to say..... sometimes I feel like I have no idea what you are like and what and how you are capable of acting. I need someone that cares how I feel... cares about us even if we are fighting..... you still need to care about your partner no matter how mad you are at them...... And before you go lose trust give time for me to build it up.... atleast....... give it a rest before you go lose everything we have worked for for the last month to make things better between us. You always say never again and a month or two later...., it happens..... you say ill never let you go again and here we are in the same position because you were not willing to talk to me...... even though our relationship was on the line... who are you and what have you done with the person that means the world to me and that I love with everything I have. what have you done with the person i would die for... because this person who you have been lately i scream i hate you when i am alone... i scream how bad i hate you for what you have done to me and to our family and to the person i used to or atleast thought i knew..... what have you done with the father my child had and the husband that was so caring and so loving and so.... full of hope and life.... cause the person i have been staring at lately is full of hatred and full of...... nothing but coldness.... nothing but...... hopelessness...... what happened to the man that would love me so tenderly... cause now your love if that is what you would even call it is so rough so violent that it hurts when i am around you.... it hurts to look at you and wonder if you have been lying... or what your hiding and what happened to the man that knew for sure that he wanted to be with me the rest of his life cause this new person is pushing me away with all his strength