Did you ever have a day when you just could not stop crying? Today was one of those days for me. 1
Yesterday I went to the doctor and he told me that I had one of the worst bladder infections he had ever seen. I didn't even know what was wrong- I just knew I didn't feel right. 2
We woke up this morning and the heat was already so bad it felt like an assault. The computer got so hot that it shut itself off. We turned on the swamp cooler, but it wasn't cooling things down very well, so Todd went on the roof and found out the pump wasn't working, and we did not have the money to get another one. 3
Things are going better with Todd. He went swimming with the kids and me today. It is only the second time in 20 years he has gone swimming with me, and the first time he has gone swimming with the kids. We were the only ones at the pool. We had fun, but for some reason I started thinking about how I would like to go visit some friends, or have some friends over for a bbq, and I got really sad because we can't afford to do either. Then Todd started talking about how much his back and feet hurt, and he said that he never imagined that at 42 years old he would have so many health problems. That just made me start bawling. Then I got home and I could not stop crying. My son asked me to make him some pudding and I told him I needed the milk to make dinner tomorrow night, and then I started crying because I could not afford more milk to make pudding for my kid. 4
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I know the feeling. I've been there. (am there) I just keep chanting to myself 'it could be worse. it could get worse. it could be worse', to try and snap myself out of it. So your definitely preaching to the choir there. I wish you better~
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So true. Just when I think that things could not get worse, the bottom falls out and I find out how wrong I was... LOL
I suppose I should be grateful for what we do have.
Thank you for reading... ;f
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I hate knowing you are going through so much and i do understand about the the weepy day. i just wished i could cry. i'm just so angry most of the time. i want to be able to go far away sometimes. i just hate people sometimes and as of lately my daughter most of the time. she has a great job, goes to school, shops for items not needed but thinks the world revolves around her. this makes her think she can treat others like her personal slaves. lately i just want to slap her silly.she can afford to buy milk but she leaves that up to me because she is too busy buying what she wants and needs. so cry if you must and then pray, me, i'm just so scared that the anger will reach a detrimental breaking point.
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I have had periods of time when I have been filled with anger too. I don't know which is worse.
I have known people like your daughter. One day the universe will teach her the lesson that it does not revolve around her.
Todd got an advance on his pay so that we could get the pump for our cooler and the groceries that we needed, so things are a little better now.
I really appreciate your reading, and I will hold you in my prayers, dear one.
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Oh, have I had days like this... Not exactly like yours, but the crying that won't end. I feel for you hun. Hang in there and keep on writing.
Blessings and hugs!
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Thank you for reading and for your supportive words. I am feeling better today.
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When you're stressed to the max like you are, it's gotta come out some way. I've had days where I've cried a lot.
Just reading this makes my heart break for you.
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Thanks for reading and for understanding.
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