Sorry

Sorry I havent been on in a couple months, meh just been busy with graduation and what not. Jus out smokin a cigarette and thought Id stop in. Life is suitably better since my last entry. My fam and i are on the mend. However friends are a different matter. you know the saying: dont make someone a priority in your life when your just an option in theirs? it severely applies to my friends...seems like they ar always my priority but Im just the option. lovely huh? ah well cest la vie...i think thats how you spell it. Plannin a trip to California, freakin excited. Gonna go and see my best friend who ive known over 10 years and go and see the ocean for the first time. Ive always wondered what it would be like to see a horizon of endless blue waves, sounds like beautiful solitude to me. on a random note, does anyone else get that feeling that they are meant to be doing something great with their life, be someone important? and it just doesnt seem to be happening. Instead i spend my days waste deep in a McDonalds dishwasher fixing broken parts and taking orders in a small town with wide streets and narrow minds. jeez sounds like i complain alot, the way i look at it, im not pessimistic just realistic. anywho, thanks for listening. cheers mate, Darkend