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Rejection: Line 1.

Testing, Testing.
Can any of you fucking hear me now?1

I feel like i'm wearing cement shoes.
Getting myself up and out of bed, and going anywhere
feels useless.
And void of any good.2

I couldn't possibly care less what happens to me anymore.
My heart only beats, to commence life.
I feel like every possible chance i'll ever have at happiness has been ripped from me. Torn from my hands, and broken away at the seams.3

I'd rather die than continue living the way I do.
And Evan seems so..uncaring. So totally unfeeling that it hurts. That I can feel it in the tips of my fingers and the soles of my feet. Like little needles, that itch and burn, and that I can't get rid of.4

I feel like no matter what I do, it's wrong in his eyes. That i'm some stupid little girl, and I know he could do better. And I know he knows it too. I know that no matter what I do, I could always do better.5

I hate who i've become. The exact person I never thought I could be. The person I vowed I would never see in myself.6

Well fuck.
Can anybody hear me now?!

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  • TwiztidMaggot
    June 21
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    I can hear yew! lol.I feel the same way... I hate it. If you need to talk I'm here to listen.


  • XxForeverFaithfulxX
    June 20
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    I hear yah, Savi! Sometimes I feel the same way..If you ever need me, I'm here.

    ~Kayla


    • SaviDropKick.Oi.
      June 20
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      No. You don't feel the SAME way. You may feel similar though. I know you're there.
      I don't need anyone anymore.
      But thanks sweetheart.


  • Internal.Infection
    June 20
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    Awwwe. Savi. That's so sad. Maybe if Evan can't accept you for you, and if he only searches for your imperfections and criticizes you for them, then maybe HE isn't good enough for YOU. You deserve someone who won't play with your heart. And you can't give up on life. You just have to keep your chin up. Things will get better. Believe me. If you ever want to talk, you can just send me a PM or text me. I loverz you! I hate seeing my friends feeling depressed and like they're worthless. Search for hope. And if there's none there, pretend that there is. Or just weave your hopes once again. Life goes on and things will turn in your favor soon enough.
    -Kaity-


    • SaviDropKick.Oi.
      June 20
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      Evan is the most amazing person i've ever met.
      Ever.
      He doesn't do that.
      But he's acting strangely. And it worries me.
      Plus, I can't get ahold of him.


  • Mister Mattia
    June 20
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    Fuck Sav.

    I can hear you.


    I hear you loud and clear with this one...I feel like that too...

    • SaviDropKick.Oi.
      June 20
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      Thanks.
      No one else seems to.


      • Mister Mattia
        June 20
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        I hate when people go, "If you ever want to talk" Bitch. If I needed to talk, I would.

        No offense to anyone :S

        And yeah. I don't know why I wake up anymore. Kayla probably isn't getting on soon anyway.


        • SaviDropKick.Oi.
          June 20
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          I know. I hate it too.
          I wake up for hope i'll have a text, or call from him.
          Maybe he'll answer the phone, or a text.
          I never do. And he never does.


          • Mister Mattia
            June 20
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            Kayla told me I was acting strangely too.
            It's because of the month and I'm depressed and she gets upset.

            She can't text or phone because she's grounded. And her computer isn't working. She's on a whole other continent >.<

            • SaviDropKick.Oi.
              June 20
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              I'm sorry.
              I won't text or call anyone atm.
              They don't interestme.


              • Mister Mattia
                June 20
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                Nobody interests me except Kayla.

                Other than that - I don't want anyone. But people are stupid and persistent and I tolerate them with very low levels of it.

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