So. Lately I have been having those nightmares again. Every night I dream about the morning my brother died. Getting the call racing form my sisters house to mine then to the ER, walking down the hall and seeng someone, and they said he is gone... I remember yelling out and falling to my knees crying, it wasnt possible, no not him. Then comes when we have to go intot he little side room, to view him, the boulder in my stomach, feeling like. I just cant leave him here...How do I just walk away. Then I wake up crying...and this happens almost EVERY damn night.1
I still dont know how I did it.I still dont know how Im living. Not a day, Not an hour doesnt go by where he isnt on my mind. Everything I do I think...Craig would like this, or...What would Craig think or do? 2
Some people say, go to counceling, but why? I dont see how talking to someone can make my dreams go away. Im still going to think about him, Im still going to miss him and he will still be gone...so I have no clue what to do. Just deal with it I guess.
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*hugs you* Sorry to hear about your brother.
About the nightmares, yeah. counseling doesn't help at all, but before you go to bed every night, just relax your mind, and do breathing exercises.
I know it sounds extremely stupid, it did for me too, but after a little while it works, it did for my nightmares.
I hope it works, and I wish you the best.
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