OMFG...i cant take this...Patrick turned out to be a freak, Jake turned out to be like a bro to me...Amadi turned out to be a selfcentered jerk who moved on to greener pastures...Nick...idk what happened there, it just wasnt right with him...1
ALL THIS GUYS IN MY LIFE...I THOUGHT I LOVED THEM...OH I WAS SOO WRONG.2
Jake-got engaged to him, but didnt want him touching me in "that way". he freaked and was like his dad(his dad is evil, well was evil, dead now) and that just scared me...i loved him, i didnt love him, i loved him...and it ended. 3
Nick-thought i fell in love with him...he was perfect. great body, great personality, and amazing...in "that way". so gentle, and never rough...always kind to me, always there...sorta could handle my life, always tried to...i was too much...he kept trying...but it ended.4
Amadi-2 people from different worlds kinda thing going on...he was great..and i thought i loved him...his parents control him...chooses who he dates...I AM SO NOT EVER GONNA BE ON THAT LIST...he was dating a girl...but me first(secretly, so does it count?) i told him to go..and he did...no fight...at all. he said he would always love me, and never leave me...yet it ended.5
Patrick-omg...perfect, wonderful, kind...A COMPLETE FAKE...he acted his way into my life, he was the perfect gentleman...even saved my life a few times....he said...no he promised...he would never hurt me, and i dont mean break up, i mean physical...he hit me...a lot(didnt always tell Gwen when it happened, thought i did something wrong) i loved him...and he threatened to kill me...im happy it ended.6
i give up on love, no more for me, no fucking more....on the topic of boys and dating, i throw in the towel...i just give up on them
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You can say that now, but like I said yesterday, please don't turn into a cat lady little sister, that would be awkward. Besides, you never know what may happen when you are least expecting it. Jaimy might be mister right, you know, we are young, just date for the sake of dating and don't let things get to serious to fast.
Love you.
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