I just went on a ten mile bike ride and I feel pretty good physically right now because of that. i drank an entire 32 ounce bottle of diet peach iced tea during the course of my bike ride too. I burned 375 calories which makes it all even better.1
Right now I am really hot and sweaty and smelly and will be taking a shower very shortly and changing my clothes as my shirt is soaked through. 2
The whole reason I went for the bike ride was to buy embroidery thread from the art store, but the art store turned out to have closed, still I don't care because I ended up gettting exercise and burning a bunch of evil calories. Sometimes in my head I view calories as these evil mutant blobs that all try to stick together and take over my beautiful bones. I have to fight off those evil blobs by exercising and then I will remain pure, happy, and skinny.3
I had a psychiatrist appointment today and she lowered my dose of Abilify. I have to have more blood work tomorrow and then I have an appointment with my kidney doctor. Oh joy. Hopefully the kidney doctor won't want to put me on any more medications becasuse god knows I'm on enough meds as it is. I have to take a rainbow of pills four times a day. That's not supposed to happen to teenagers. There are the pills for the depression, the pills for the mania, the pills for the voices I hear in my head and the visions and paranoia, there are the pills for my acid reflux, the pills for my stomach spasms, the pills for my anemia, the pills for my blood sugar, the pills to prevent side effects from all the other pills it's crazy.4
Oh well, one less pill of Abilify now so that's good. I've been doing pretty good lately according to everyone around me and I agree.
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