God I hate my life. I have never before said this, because I have been able to deal sometimes but this is just pathetic...I cannot live with myself. My life is falling apart at the seams, and it gets harder and harder to go on...what have I done to myself? My unhealthy addictions are getting to me...this is not who I used to be. I cannot keep crawling around...I cannot do this anymore. So who is there to help me? A select few...A select few.1
Honest to god I have some sort of demented reason for being so Goddamn depressed. I was fucking abused right? I can cry right? I can let go right? WRONG WRONG WRONG!!!2
I am so fucking tired of using my abuse and Rape as an excuse. I have fucking flashbacks and nightmares, so fucking what??? I have no real problems. I am not loved, I am worthless, so leave me the fuck alone! You know you hurt me you dumb sonofa Bitch!! FUCK YOU.
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damn !
girl your not using them as an exscuse not so what not just that babe you have to cope with it and dont push it away the quicker you deal with it the quicker it will go away. and im here for you all you have to do is email me k x -
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I am here for you. Anytime, anyday, if you need someone I'm here. I'm a good listener. I know we're not that close but I just want you to know someone does love you! me! (non-lez way) lol
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