Well lets start from the very beginning of this messed up and terrible situation. About a month ago I was so convinced to kill myself that to "save" my friends from pain, I cut off all ties in hopes they woundn't ever find out. They live a couple hours away so we were communicating by e-mail and phone. But on the day I planned the deed I forgot the cord to hang myself in the girls bathroom stall at my school. Then on the same day, some messed up chicks, fuck them, found a journal where I harvested my suicidal tendecies. I went to a therapist then a wrestling tournament, wrestling is a cause of my depression but thats another story. Well after that therapy lesson I got alot better, but still think of the "s" word every now and then. But last week by ex-best friend tried to commited suicide and is now in the hospital and I am freakin, fuckin worried. But this got me and my other 2 friends back together. I hope she knows how stupid I was and how much I love her. She better live, she has sooo much in her. I care for her too damn much, too much its scary. I would give my life for her a thousand times over. I started praying again after I quit. My prayers are just for her. So please pray for her too.
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