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confession #2; you wanted [more].



I refuse to let you make me feel like this again
so here’s your chance to leave every open-ended emotion behind;
it’s all about what’s now, not what happened then
so you won’t see me on my knees begging you to make up your mind.
You’ve swallowed shame and coughed up blame and you still won’t let it be
I've put my heart on the line countless times for you
and surrendered to toss you the key.

Just because you said you were sorry doesn’t mean that I’m okay;
and it doesn’t mean that you’re going to get your way,
Didn’t you once say you were undividedly in love with her?
& if I’m the reason why you’re suddenly so unsure
then just let me go
& leave it alone.

You choke on an explanation while I pour my heart out to you
& all you can spit out are empty apologies;
in complete confidence I let things follow through
but I'm only speaking in solitude.
I'm told left and right that I deserve more than this
that you're not worth the wait
&I should move along and do the right thing;
but I'm so wound up inside your mind
and I'm beginning to find that I'm reaching for something that was never there.

Just because we've put our differences aside and set everything straight
doesn't mean that I'll be around when you decide to take a stab at fate
Didn't you once tell me that if you weren't committed to her
you'd take me as yours, and that was for sure;
please just let me go
& leave it alone;
don't tell me you care
because this isn't fair.

The credible emotion has already began to fade
you might as well scribble out every indecisive promise you've made
it scares me to death that you think about me as much as I think about you
and it tears at my heartstrings knowing there's not a single thing that I can do.

So while you choke on an explanation while I pour my heart out to you
am I supposed to inhale your empty apologies[?]


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edit: i haven't written rhyme in ages;
this is only how i feel in syllables and midnight penning
i was hurt, and figured this wasn't good enough to put as a poem
so it's here for you to read, and for the world to see♥
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  • kirsten.
    June 18
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    I didn't realize it even rhymed till the very end where you pointed it out. [it's that good]
    =]


  • thegirlsafaultline.
    January 2
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    Great write.
    The entire thing all points back to the main idea and it's never off track.
    I lovee this.
    And once again; I can really relate.


  • Kiss the girl--x
    January 2
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    this is beautiful.
    more than good enough to be a poem.
    better than anything i can write.

    i'm sorry that you're hurting love.
    you don't deserve it, you deserve to smile

    &love.
    ♥

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