How could danny ask me to stay in florida to watch the dogs when I want to be at the funeral. I think that there are so many other people that have known him for a short period to time that can sacrifice something so important. Thirteen years of my life and the last three weeks he was alive I was here. All I want to do is to be at the funeral and decide if I am gonna stay in Wisconsin. Thats all I want, just for once not to care bout all the others that have not known him for that long to take my place and let me be there. He was like a father to me especially when I lost my own father. I don't want to see a video of it I want to be there to say good-bye. I deserve that much, ME. Putting so much into it and I get told to stay here and dog sit. Fuck it then why did I care to put so much into it. I should just take the first bus back and walk away. I care about dad but come on, I want to be there, I have just as much place as the kids. This is so not right. I don't know what to say about it, I just want to be there thats all I know.
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