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My life is contrast
That speeding car that goes too fast
My writing tells the truth I mean
Where all confessions now are seen
My loneliness is temporary
Smiling faces momentary
Short lived hopes
Are once again
How I'll cope
Paper & pen
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*Emotion*
A mental state that arises spontaneously rather than through conscious effort and is often accompanied by physiological changes; a feeling: the emotions of joy, sorrow, reverence, hate, and love.
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I'm 18 years old.  Only been a member on here since about the end of January or something.
I've been writing for as long as I can rememeber, but I'd recently got into writing music (inspired by Dashboard of course)
I listen to their music and all I wanted to do is write such beautiful lyrics. Chris Carraba is just my idol...Musically, poetically...He's just everything I aspire to be like.

Anyways, further more, 'bout me...I live in crappy Scotland, with the rain and the rain and the rain...no wonder I get depressed! Weather can do that to you!...
Scotland sucks, but it could be worse I guess...
I go through stages of depression.  I mask it well with a fake, happy disguise.  
Not too bad right now...Considering so much bad is happening in my life at the moment...I haven't cut in about 2 or so months!!  

BANDS I LOVE
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Dashboard Confessional, Jimmy Eat World, Finch, Thrice, Rufio, Red Hot Chili Peppers, Hey Mercedes, Hot Rod Circuit, Funeral For A Friend, Taking Back Sunday, The Early November. The Used, Hoobastank, NoFx, Off By One, Something Corporate, 3 Doors Down, Foo Fighters, Hidden In Plain View, Incubus, No Use For A Name, Less Than Jake, Reel Big Fish, Jet, Snow Patrol, Franz Fedinand, Catch 22, Lifehouse, Counting Crows, From Autumn To Ashes, Coheen And Cambria, Glassjaw, Me First And The Gimme Gimmes, Nine Days, Guttermouth, Homegrown, Lit, Lost Prophets, Nine Inch Nails (sometimes!), Punchline, Sister Hazel, Smile Empty Soul, The Juliana Theory, Yellowcard, Teenage Fanclub, The Movielife, Tonic, Autopilot Off, The Strokes, All American Rejects, Brand New, The Darkness, Story Of The Year, American Hi-Fi, Goo Goo Dolls, Green Day Simple Plan, Sugarcult, Further Seems Forever, Senses Fail, Static Lullaby, Matchbook Romance, Slick Shoes, New Found Glory, The Ataris, MxPx, The Starting Line, Allister, Killing Heidi, Blink 182, Jeff Buckley, Norah Jones, Aimme Mann, Ben Harper, John Mayer, James Taylor, Joseph Arthur (LOVE HONEY AND THE MOON!)

TV SHOWS I LOVE:
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Not so into TV as I am into music....
The O.C (I LOVE THE O.C!!!!!!!!!), Friends (altho it finishes in a couple weeks), Spongebob Squarepants (seriously, it's funny!!), Angry Beaver (not coz I actually like it, just coz I think it's funny that ANYONE would name a kids show that!)...shows that consume my boring days are Crossing Over With John Edwards (so entertaining!) and Jenny Jones ('I ain't the Babies daddy...I don't even look like him, yo' - gotta love it!)...Thats about it really!

FAVOURITE PORN TITLES:
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'Saturday Night Beaver' 'Playmates Of The Apes', 'The Whores Whiperers'...Sorry, but Porn titles are the funniest thing!

FAVOURITE THINGS:
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The colour red, Hot pink, stripy socks, cheese, bread, Diet Coke, peach ice-tea, Tea with 2 sugars, sneezing, the sun, the snow, mittens, my bed, sleeping in my bed, vodka and orange, alcoholic apple shots, cocktails - esp. vodka, blue Curequo and red bull!, Chris Carraba, music - emo mostly, punk, acoustic etc, The O.C, Seth from The O.C, the guy in Donnie Darko, nose bleeds, finding money in your pockets when you have none, finishing work, pizza hut, The beach, inflatable things, £2 coins, usless imformation (Do you know there are 1000 species of bat!! ) playing my guitar, trying to sing WHILE I play my guitar, being alone, being with people, having a crush on someone...not having crush on someone, falling over when your drunk, driving, mess, writing shit on paper, dancing to people in the passenger seat of a car, singing Bon Jovi at people out the window in the passenger seat of a car, Michael J. Fox, nightclubs where you can get lost and it's acceptable, being so hammered you can't remember how you got home, being in the huff, taking photographs, bad jokes, dreaming, chick flick movies (Crossroads, Sweet Home Alabama etc) Kevin Smith films (Mallrats, Clerks, Jay And Silent Bob, Dogma, - not a fan of Chasing Amy tho), Bill and Ted, my dog, going crazy, getting a tan, dancing when drunk, laughing at people, my 'puter....etc etc etc.


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*...lets start out by starting over...what did I expect? You're no good at lying and I'm no good at comebacks...MATCHBOOK ROMANCE - LOVERS AND LIARS

*...I'm so tired of playing with this bow and arrow...Gonna give my hide away...Leave it to the other girls to play!...PORTISHEAD - GLORYBOX

*...Goodness knows I saw it coming, or atleast I claim I did...But the truth is I'm lost for words...SNOW PATROL - CHOCOLATE

*...with my uncovered eyes, loose from lenses...Absorbing light..You're hand is wrapped in mine...Sunset for the last time...EMERY - THE NOTE FROM WHICH THE CHORD IS BUILT

'...watch your mouth, hold your tongue...Coz your running out of breathe...running out of time before every countless word that you utter...Renders you utterly useless...THE JULIANA THEORY - IF I TOLD YOU THIS WAS KILLING ME, WOULD YOU STOP?

'Please just don't play with my, my paper heart will bleed...this wait for destiny won't do...ALL AMERICAN REJECTS - PAPER HEART

'You always said destiny will blow me away...well nothings gonna blow me away!...SOMETHING CORPORATE - CAVANAGE PARK

'...seemed like the bottom was all I had until now...I'd give you life if you'd give me yours somehope...FURTHER SEEMS FOREVER - NEW YEARS PROJECT (Pre-Dashboard Confessional days when Carraba still riped those FSF songs to shit! They fucking rocked then!)

'...summer days have gone too soon, you shoot the moon and you miss completely...now your left to face the blue...an empty room once smelled sweetly...' NORAH JONES - SHOOT THE MOON



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    i'm NoT cRa$y CAu$e I TaKe ThE RIgHt PiLl$ eVeRy dAY - Jimmy Eat World
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*Q*U*O*T*E*S**
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~creativity is the key to sanity...        

~don't fear the future, it's hard enough living with the past haunting you....

~smile 'cause today may be the last time someone will see you happy...  

~I'm not prejudice...I hate everyone equally...



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           CoNtRaRy To ThE MaTtEr...wHo yOu ArE YoU aRe Not - Alien Ant Farm
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             Listen to me as my heart stops beating
             Watch the *stars*
             The sky in the evening
             The most perfect obsession
             Let me see this through your eyes
             Help me come to realise
             Let me lose this deperation
             I'm trapped in meaningless translation
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Jeff Buckley - Grace
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There's the moon asking to stay
Long enough for the clouds to fly me away
Well it's my time coming, I'm not afraid to die

My fading voice sings of love, but she cries to the clicking of time,
Oh, time. Wait in the fire...
And she weeps on my arm
Walking to the bright lights in sorrow
Oh drink a bit of wine we both might go tomorrow
Oh my love...
And the rain is falling and I believe my time has come
It reminds me of the pain I might leave behind... Wait in the fire
And I feel them drown my name
So easy to know and forget with this kiss
I'm not afraid to go but it goes so slow...


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       fRoM bEhInD tHe $cReEn It CaN LoOk $o PeRfEct...BuT It'$ nOt - Aimee Mann
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