Happilymiserable• Show poetry

A few years ago, I had to take a step back and seriously do some sould searching. I was amazed at what I found, and I feel it imperative to share it with others. I've always believed that if those who decided to engage in my life knew the "real" me, they would surely opt to leave. I know now that although my head leaves little room for self-gratification, I am not my behavior. In my reflection, I realized that I can't be so worried about what everyone else thinks of me, and I can't think that my happiness depends on someone else. I have to just trust myself...trust that if I take care of myself on the inside, follow my instincts, and let myself evolve naturally, my potential for happiness will be so much greater.
It is only through these years of writing that I've come into my own. I didn't know this side of MeLissa ever existed, and while there are more dark poems than blissful, they're all real and intense journeys I've had and in order for me to remain somewhat sane, the release I found in writing had to be sought.
I take pride in all my works, even the ones that are embarrassing or shameful. I can say that it's made me who I am, and character is a nutrient we all need to live.
I hope you'll take the time to live through me and not only understand my poetry, but sincerely feel that very moment.