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Theirs not alot to me but people say i
am very complicated and yet i dont
care you either get me or you dont




some things about me:
my eyes change colors with the seasons
i am in rotc
i am 14 but turning 15 in june
my real name is Tamela Darling but everyone
calls me Tammy
i am bisexual don't judge me because of that please
i am really bored right now
and i have a stupid retarted family that is
never their for me
they only make me guilty for things that
i have done
when i am really pissed off i blow up on
everyone even if they did nothing
and
when i am sad i talk to no one not even
my best friends because they never understand
(and i walk away from everyone to be alone)
oh and i am a freshmen at washington high school
also i am disletsic (i think thats how you spell it )
any ways message me!~




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~*~*~ Who Are You? ~*~*~

Name: Tamela Darling
Nickname: Tammy, Darling, Beautiful(my girl can only call me that)
Zodiac Sign: gemini
Rising Sign: I kinda don't know
Birth Year: 1994
Birthplace: longview, WA
Hometown: parkland, WA
Are you the eldest, middle, youngest or only child?: youngest
Heritage: American,swedish,and i little irish

~*~* What Do You Look Like? ~*~*~
Hair Color: Auburn, chocolate brown, or golden brown
Eye Color: it changes but right now its blue
Skin tone: white with a little tan
Face Shape: i have no idea
Height: 5'4
Weight: 115 lbs.
Shoe size: 7-8

~*~*~What Do You Like? ~*~*~
Colors: Black, blue& Red
Scents: rose, lilly, seawater,
TV Channels: i don't watch tv much
PC Games: " "
Snack Foods: Chocolate, and anything good
Beverages: pop,and anything good
Alcohol Beverages: ...i cant answer this sorry
Game Consoles: x-box and playstation2
Concerts: I haven't gone to any yet.
Conversation Topics: whatever pops into my head
Magazines: none
Flowers: Roses,and thos things people call weeds
Radio Stations: ummm it depends
Jewelry: Necklaces, Ring,
Restaurants: um..
Websites: Allpoetry, Myspace,yahoo
CDs: not sure
Vacation spots: I want to go to australia, hawaii, new zealand, and ireland, and paris
TV commercials: the flip blackberry comercial is hecka funny!!! I used to have that problem!




(x) Smoked a cigarette*but not no more i swear to god*
(x) Drank so much you threw up
(x) Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
() Been arrested
() Gone on a blind date
() Skipped school
(x) Seen someone die
(x) Been to Canada
(x) Been to Florida
() Been to Mexico
(x) Been on a plane
(x Been lost
(x) Been on the opposite side of the country
() Gone to Washington , DC
(x) Swam in the ocean
(x) Felt like dying....
(x) Cried yourself to sleep
(x Played cops and robbers
(x) Recently colored with crayons*its fun to act like a little kid sometimes*
(x) Sang karaoke badly
(x) paid for a meal with only coins
(x) Done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(x) Made prank phone calls
(x)Laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
() Laughed until liquid came out of the other end
(x) Caught a snowflake on your tongue.
(x) Danced in the rain
(x) Written a letter to Santa Claus
(x) Been kissed under the mistletoe
(x) Watched the sun rise with someone you care about
(x) Blown bubbles
(x) Made a bonfire on the beach
() Crashed a party
(x) Gone roller-skating
(x) Ice-skating
() started a mosh pit
(x) own a knife
() ran away for more then a day
() get in a fight and lost
(x) get in a fight a won
(x) get a new girlfriend/boyfriend
(x) get dumped
(x) get smaked then dumped
() smack some one then dump em
(x) go to court
() go to jail
() get picked up by the cops
() tell a cop to :go to hell, go *bunny* him /her self ect...
() own a gun
(x) love some one
(x) hate some one
(x) love and hate some one ..what?
(x) think some one loves you
(x) think some ones hates you
() is gay
() is lez
(x) is bi
() is gay but no ones knows
() is lez but know one knows
(x) is bi but know one knows
() isnt any of them
(x) has had sex
() has had sex with more then one person
() regrets it
() is a virgin
() is beat by mom or dad
(x) works out
() has a tattue
() is goth
() is emo
(x) is something
() is an alien
(x) is "idk"
() has ever been in boot camp
() ever been to juvy
(x) loves life
(x) hates life(well parts of it anyway)
(x) wants to die
(x) wants to live
() wants to die but not kill them self
(x) wants to kill them self
(x) has cut
() likes to cut
() loves to cut
() *bunny*in loves to cut
(x) thinks cutting is wrong
() thinks cutting helps
() is a drama king/queen
(x) dosnt care what pepol think
() cares what pepol think
(x) has more then 1 friend
(x) has a best friend
() is a goody goody
() is a bad *bunny*
(x)is not sure if they are a bad *bunny*
(x) has gone out with a girl/boy for over a month
(x) beleves in one gf one bf relation ships
(x) has some one to talk to
(x) think your smart
() think your dumb
() think ur cool
() think your lame
(x)think you are a total dork
(x) I've had someone cheat on me.
() I've gone on a blind date.
(x) I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
(x) I miss someone right now.
() have a fear of commitment.
() I have a fear of abandonment.
() I've cheated in a relationship.
() I've been the cheatee ( if that means that you were the person some cheated on their gf/bf with )
() I've gotten divorced
(x) I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
(x) I've told someone I loved them
(x) I've kept something from a past relationship.
(x) I've had a crush on someone of the same sex
() I've had a crush on a teacher.
(x) I am a cuddler.
(x) I love to flirt.
(x) I've been kissed in the rain.
(x) I've hugged a stranger.
() have kissed a stranger.
(x) I am a terrible liar.
() I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't
(x) I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
(x) I've snuck out of my house.
(x) I have lied to my parents about where I am.
(x) I am keeping a secret from the world
(x) I've cheated while playing a game.
() I've cheated on a test.
(x) I've run a red light.
(x) I've been suspended from school.
(x) I've witnessed a crime.
(x) I've been in a fist fight.
() I've been arrested.
(x) I've consumed alcohol.
() I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
(x) I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
() I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
() I can't swallow pills.
() I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
() I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
(x) I shut others out when I'm depressed.
() I take anti-depressants.
() I'm anorexic or bulimic.
(x) I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
(x) I'm addicted to adrenaline
(x) I've hurt myself on purpose
() I'm addicted to self harm
(x) I've woken up crying.
(x) I've cried myself to sleep.
() I'm afraid of dying.
(x) I hate funerals.
(x) I've seen someone die.
(x) Someone I know has attempted suicide.
(x) Someone close to me has committed suicide.
() I've attempted suicide.
() I can sing well.
() I open up to others easily.
() I watch the news.
() I don't kill bugs.
(x) I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
(x) I curse regularly.
() I sing in the shower.
(x) I am a morning person.
(x) I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
() I don't have a cell phone
() I'm a snob about grammar.
(x) I'm awful about the typos
() I am a sports fanatic.
(x) I twirl my hair
() have "x"s in my screen name
() I love being neat
() I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
() I bake well.
(x) My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue
(x) my favorite color is either black, violet, gray, or dark green
(x) I would wear pajamas to school.
() I like Martha Stewart.
(x) I know how to shoot a gun.
(X) I am in love with love.
() I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
(x) I laugh at my own jokes.
() I eat fast food weekly
(x) I believe in ghosts/spirits.
() I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
(x) I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
(x) I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
(x) I am really ticklish.(depending on where)
() I love white chocolate
(x) I bite my nails
(x) I play video games (sometimes)
(x) I've eaten a live bug
(x) I'm good at remembering faces.
(x) I'm good at remembering names.
() I'm good at remembering dates.
(x) I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
() I have tried to join a circus and failed
(x) liked this thingy?
() disliked this thingy




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~Not all scars show, not all wounds heal you can't always see
The pain someone feels.
~ She says she doesn't care, but her eyes tell a different story



~ Behind my smile is a hurting heart. Behind my laugh, I'm falling apart.

~Look closely at me and you will see, the girl I am...isn't me.

~I wake up and think dreams are real. I sleep so I don't have to feel.





~Cause *bunny* up takes practice, and I feel I'm well rehearsed.

~ I didn't want to admit it. It was easier to lie. Hide the hurt and emptiness to smile instead of cry.

Every girl dreams that one day she will find a boy that does these things for her. even the smallest action can have the BIGGEST impact in someones life.


• leave her cute text notes.
• kiss her in front of your friends.
• trust her over everyone else.
• tell her she looks beautiful.
• look into her eyes when you talk to her.
• let her mess with your hair.
• touch her hair.
• just walk around with her.
• forgive her for her mistakes.
• look at her like she`s the only girl you see.
• hold her hand when you`re around your friends.
• when she starts swearing at you, tell her you love her.
• let her fall asleep in your arms.
• get her mad, then kiss her.
• tease her and let her tease you back.
• stay up all night with her when she`s sick.
• watch her favorite movie with her.
• kiss her forehead.
• write her letters.
• when she`s sad, hang out with her.
• let her know she`s important.
• let her take all the photos she wants of you.
• kiss her in the pouring rain.
• when you fall in love with her, tell her,and when you tell her, love her like you`ve never loved someone before.




Drugs/Alcohol

[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[x] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[x] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[x] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[_] I can't swallow pills.
[_] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[_] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[_] I take anti-depressants.
[_] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[x] I'm addicted to adrenaline
[x] I've hurt myself on purpose
[_] I'm addicted to self harm
[x] I've woken up crying.
[x] I've cried myself to sleep.






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♀ + ♀ = ♥
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CHILD ABUSE IS WRONG-WE NEED TO CHANGE THE WORLD!

My name is Sarah I am but three,
My eyes are swollen I cannot see,
I must be stupid I must be bad,
What else could have made my daddy so mad?
I wish I were better I wish I weren't ugly,
Then maybe my mommy would still want to hug me.
I can't speak at all I can't do a wrong,
Or else I'm locked up all the day long.
When I awake I'm all alone
The house is dark my folks aren't home.
When my mommy does come I'll try and be nice
So maybe I'll get just one whipping tonight.
Don't make a sound! I just heard a car.
My daddy is back from Charlie's Bar.
I hear him curse my name he calls
I press myself against the wall.
I try and hide from his evil eyes
I'm so afraid now I'm starting to cry.
He finds me weeping he shouts ugly words,
He says it's my fault that he suffers at work.
He slaps me and hits me and yells at me more
I finally get free and I run for the door.
He's already locked it and I start to bawl,
He takes me and throws me against the hard wall.
I fall to the floor with my bones nearly broken,
And my daddy continues with more bad words spoken.
"I'm sorry!", I scream but its now much too late
His face has been twisted into unimaginable hate.
The hurt and the pain again and again
Oh please God, have mercy! Oh please let it end!
He finally stops and heads for the door,
While I lay there motionless sprawled on the floor.
My name is Sarah And I am but three,
Tonight my daddy murdered me.






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Put This On Your Page If you Were Abused Or Are Against Any Form Of It!


to protect myself from colors:
step on black,live forever in a shack
step on green, never be clean,
step on blue, work will never be through,
step on yellow, hear the word bellow.
step on red soon be dead.



Life and Random quiz

what is your ambition?: To make through life without dying until the last second. confused arent you?

Have you dealed anything serious in your life?: A few things. My dad dieing…yea lets just say a few things

Have you lied?: yea

whats your favorite animals?: white tigers and elephants lol .

Whats your favorite number?: 12 if you put them together then you an R

Have you ever been in love with your best friend?: well yea I am in love with all of them lol.

Have you ever wanted to run away?: Yeah...

Has anyone labeled you?: Yeah...Goth....emo.....freak....gay

What's your favorite color?: Black, red, blue

Do you like yourself?: well yea I have no choice

What is your favorite season?: winter and summer

Have you ever cut yourself?: yup not afraid to say it

Do you own a cellphone?: I sure do….i hate it

What kind of car do you want?: a bug lol.

What country would you rather be in?:I don’t know

How many brothers or sisters do you currently have?: 2 both boys they both suck

What's one thing you regret in your life?: being me…. over all that’s what it comes down to








TO EVERY GIRL
To every girl that is SCARED to put her heart out there again, because she has been HURT too many times.
To every girl that dresses cute, not skanky.
To every girl who wants to be called beautiful, not hot.
To every girl that thinks they are fat and wants him to
say I don't care just to show how much she means to him.
To every girl that will spend her whole day looking for the perfect present for you.
To every girl that would die to have a decent boyfriend.
To every girl who would just once like to be treated like a princess.
To every girl who wants to sleep with a guy without actually having sex.
To every girl that just wants to hold hands.
To every girl that kisses him with meaning.
TO EVERY GIRL WHO JUST WISHES HE CARED MORE.
To every girl who just once, wants a guy to give their jacket up when she is cold.
To every girl who just wants him to call.
To every girl who lies awake at night thinking about him.
To every girl that just wants to cuddle.
TO EVERY GIRL WHO SHOWS HOW MUCH SHE CARES BUT GETS NOTHING BACK.
To every girl that ever thought "Maybe this one could be the one."
To every girl that laughs at stupid stuff when she actually doesn't think it is funny.
To every girl who's looking for that one and only and having a rough time on the way.
To every girl that doesn't want a guy who just plays with her emotions but actually cares about how she feels.
TO EVERY GIRL WHO WANTS WORDS BACKED UP WITH ACTIONS.
TO EVERY girl that FELL for ALL the LIES ONLY TO FIND THEMSELVES ALONE in the END.
To every girl that gave her heart away to have it shoved back in her face.
To every girl that has faith that "tomorrow will be a better day." And it will be.
Post This^^^^^^^ On Your Page If You ARE the "Girl"



I'm sorry

Im sorry if I don't meet your standards
I'm sorry if I'm not a *bunny*
I'm sorry if my boobs aren't big enough to "satisfy" your needs.
I'm sorry if I'm not skinny enough for you to see my ribs
I'm sorry if I'm not pretty enough to be "your girl".
I'm sorry if I'm not tanned enough for you
I'm sorry if I'm not a playboy model so I can't act like a porn star for you.
I'm sorry if I'm weird
I'm sorry that I write about you every day
I'm sorry if I don't have a dream body that turns you on.
I'm sorry if I’m not tall enough.
I'm sorry if I don't have sex with you on the first date.
I'm sorry if I'm annoying
I'm sorry if my hair is not long enough.
I'm sorry that I’m different from those other girls
I'm sorry I won't hang all over you, and be a complete tramp to make you happy.
I'm sorry that I actually care about you
and actually call to see how you're doing.

But most of all...

I'm sorry that most guys can't accept a girl for who they really are.
If you're a girl and you agree with this letter, repost as "I'm sorry".
If you're one of the FEW GUYS with enough balls to repost and you would never make your girl feel this way, repost as "I love you just the way you are


Do you put candy canes on your Christmas tree? Yes.
Have you ever written/drawn/painted random stuff on your bedroom wall? Yes I do it a lot actually its kinda weird but it looks cool
What do you currently hear? my mom.
Do you get snow where you live? Sometimes
What's your favorite flavor of Doritos? Nacho cheese it good
Do you prefer to listen to songs with meaningful lyrics? Yea
What's one language you wish you could speak? French.
When was the last time you went swimming? On Saturday at PLU
What's your favorite movie genre? Tragedy, action
Who was the last person to hold your hand? I don’t know
Do you have any clothing with animal print on it? Yup, a dress with a zebra print.
Do you like bagels? Eat 1 everyday!
Do you ever worry about what the world will be like when you have kids? Nope the world will be fine
When was the last time you climbed a tree? The other day
Has anything eventful happened today? Nope nothing ever
Have you ever seen a hippo in person? At the zoo.
What's the relationship between you and the last person you talked to? Family.
What was the last compliment you received? “I love your eyes”
What was the last thing that made you mad/upset? My mom
What's something you do too much? Think
Do you currently have any bruises? Yea I have a lot of them
Do you have a hard time remembering stuff? Sometimes
Do you like the band A Skylit Drive? Never heard of them!
Are you any good at HTML? Yup
What's stopping you from going after what you want? Myself I think
When you were younger, what was your dream job? I don't remember.
How often do you have nightmares? Almost never.
Have you ever had a re-occuring dream/nightmare? Yea
When was the last time you did something you knew was wrong? Today
Do you ever sleep with a stuffed animal? Nope.
What was the last thing you downloaded on your computer? I am not sure
Do you have a digital camera? Nope I have a camcorder though
Honestly, are you spoiled? Sometimes.
Do you ever cry just to get your way? no
Who's someone you want to see right now? I am not sure maybe my friends
Have you ever been to any professional sports games? Yea
What's the most boring sport to watch? Baseball and football. Oh and golf
Do you like lip rings on the opposite sex? Depends on the person.
What color are your eyes? Blue but they change
Do you have good or bad vision? They are getting better but I have glasses soon to be contacts
Are you a vegetarian? Nope
Have you ever been stung by anything? Nope
Do you snort when you laugh? Not usually.
Is there anyone's laugh that makes you laugh when you hear it? yea .
Have you ever parked in a handicapped spot when you weren't supposed to? Yea lol
What was the last thing you watched on the television? Family guy
Have you ever had someone threaten you? Yea a few times
When was the last time you received flowers from someone? I am not sure actually
Is there something you want to say to someone, but don't have the nerve? Yea
If you suddenly went deaf, what would be your most missed sound? Music and the voices of all my friends
What's your favorite kind of ice cream? All
If the computer you are on right now crashed, would you be losing a lot? A ton.
Did the last guy/girl you kissed have any piercings? Ears only
What exactly did you drink the last time you were intoxicated? ….
Do you actually love your parents?i sometimes love my mom but I hate her boyfriend I don’t even know what she sees in him .
Have you ever had a school picture turn out absolutely dreadful? Almost every year lol
Have you ever lost any friends over something small and stupid? Yea
Are you more prone to being the social butterfly, or the wallflower? Depends on my mood. Answer changes everyday.
Do you prefer group projects, or would you prefer to work alone? Alone.
Who was the last person to get on your nerves? What was s/he doing? My mom she was telling me what to do
Have you ever had to make yourself a birthday cake because no one else did? Yea
Would you rather go to a Katy Perry or Taylor Swift concert? Katy Perry! I kissed a girl, and I liked it!
Have you ever thrown up from working out? No.
What pattern do the sheets on your bed have? They are just black
Are your days full and fast-paced? Depends on the day.
What languages can you count to ten or higher in? English that’s pretty much it
Where did you get the underwear you are wearing right now? Victoria Secret, lol
Is it hard for you to let something go that you know isn't right for you? Sometimes
Are you good with painting nails with your left hand? No not really
Do you feel uncomfortable sharing drinks with other people? Nope
Do you call any of your friends by their last name? yea like people in rotc I call them by their last name all the time
How long does it take you to get out of bed in the morning? Anywhere from 10 seconds to 10 minutes, depending on the day.
Have you gone through a lot emotionally, or has life been easy thus far? Been through a lot.
How old were your parents when you were born? Mom,30 something. Dad not sure my mom doesn’t tell me anything about him its like she is trying to keep him from me
Have either of your grandparents ever told you a sexual joke? My grandparents hate me they wont even talk to me because my mom is my mom I hate that
Do you spend more time outside or inside? Inside.
Would you rather give up the computer or the TV? TV, because I can watch all the TV shows online, lol
Do you own any fake designer purses? Nope I don’t have any
Doesn't it scare you that middle schoolers are getting into sex and drugs? Not really I guess its their life
Does it bother you when you text somebody and they take forever to respond? Not really.
How old were you when you got your drivers' license (if you have it)? I'm only 14 soon to be 15 in june!
Have you ever gotten a sunburn so bad it hurt to move? Nope
Do you get jealous if your boyfriend/crush hugs another girl? Depends on the girl.
Have you ever gotten lost in a department store? When I was little.
When was the last time you went out to eat? Where did you go? Yesterday, I forgot sorry
Who was your last e-mail from? My friend.
Have you ever watched a whole hour long infomercial? No.
What are your plans for tonight? Homework, and sleeping.
Look to your left and down, what do you see? my carpet .
Could you go for a nap right about now? No, I don't really take naps. No matter how tired I am.
Do you ever watch the food network channel? Nope
Have you taken a shower today? Yup, lol
Are you in a relationship? If so, who are they and do you love them? Nope single Do you like cheese? No not really
What did you do yesterday? Nothing really
What's the weather like today? Sunny, but kinda cold.
Are you any good at cooking? Depends on what I'm cooking. I'm good at cereal, frozen pizzas, cookies.
What is your favorite kind of meat to put on your sandwich? Turkey.
Have you ever been in a competition? Yup, lots.
Do you like onion? Depends on what kind. I like the ones on patty melts.
How about mushrooms? Depends what kind of mushrooms. i like them on pizza,
What is the best thing about your cell phone? Texting I guess and I can listen to the radio on it
Do you tend to cave into peer pressure? Almost never.
Do you think it's attractive for a man to wear eyeliner? No not really

EITHER OR QUESTIONS
Spicy or Bland? Definitely spicy.
Diet Soda or Regular Soda? Regular .
Smoothie or Milk Shake? Smoothie.
Sweet or Sour? Sweet and Sour. Especially if I'm talking about sweet and sour chicken! lol, !
Clean or Dirty? Clean.
Slow or Busy? Busy.
Big or Small? I don’t care
Shower or Bath? Shower
Cold or Hot? Both.
Short or Tall? Average.

MORE QUESTIONS
What did you have for dinner last night? Chinese food
Do you pray often? Not as much as I should
Name three things you've done today: Computer, school, chewed gum.
Would your friends say you are a understanding person? Depends on the day.
Are you close to either one of your parents? Nope
Do you know anyone who snores when they sleep? yea .
Are your lips currently dry? Just a little.
Are your nails long or short? Short
Have you ever gotten food poisoning? Yea 
Would you say that you are emotionally strong? Depends when
What messenger services do you use? Yahoo!
What is your favorite pair of shoes? converse .
Are you listening to music currently? Yup, always!