Hello all, my name is Maria, and i am latina. I'm very trust worthy, and im shy with new ppl. But if ur my friend u know im LOUD and i won't shut up. lol I give great advice... or so im told... some of my friends call me TOO nice... lol thats annoying....
some of yall r thinking why the name *golden winged angel* well i havent seen to many golden wings... have u? i mean sure there is black, classic white, and even red, but have u seen some golden wings? and angels is cuz PPL say im very angel like. lol thats annoying to.... soo thats my name.
Anime i like watching anime. i think is because i really didnt watch too much cartoons when i was younger. so i do it now. i like inuyasha, wolf rain, full metal alchemist, naruto, zach bell, and so much more.
my poems... idk what to say about them. i hope they speak for themselves. i just write to express myself. i dont want to impress anyone. they r what they r. ummm..... i guess thats all for the moment.
here is a cool site that u can find out a bit more of me
www.myspace.com/koolchica55
www.hi5.com/friend/profile/displayProfile.do?userid=41445858
feel free to check it out
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My favorite poem
Please Hear What I'm Not Saying
By: Charles C. Finn
Don't be fooled by me.
Don't be fooled by the face I wear
for I wear a mask, a thousand masks,
masks that I'm afraid to take off,
and none of them is me.
Pretending is an art that's second nature with me,
but don't be fooled,
for God's sake don't be fooled.
I give you the impression that I'm secure,
that all is sunny and unruffled with me, within as well
as without,
that confidence is my name and coolness my game,
that the water's calm and I'm in command
and that I need no one,
but don't believe me.
My surface may seem smooth but my surface is my mask,
ever-varying and ever-concealing.
Beneath lies no complacence.
Beneath lies confusion, and fear, and aloneness.
But I hide this. I don't want anybody to know it.
I panic at the thought of my weakness exposed.
That's why I frantically create a mask to hide behind,
a nonchalant sophisticated facade,
to help me pretend,
to shield me from the glance that knows.
But such a glance is precisely my salvation, my only hope,
and I know it.
That is, if it's followed by acceptance,
if it's followed by love.
It's the only thing that can liberate me from myself,
from my own self-built prison walls,
from the barriers I so painstakingly erect.
It's the only thing that will assure me
of what I can't assure myself,
that I'm really worth something.
But I don't tell you this. I don't dare to, I'm afraid to.
I'm afraid your glance will not be followed by acceptance,
will not be followed by love.
I'm afraid you'll think less of me,
that you'll laugh, and your laugh would kill me.
I'm afraid that deep-down I'm nothing
and that you will see this and reject me.
So I play my game, my desperate pretending game,
with a facade of assurance without
and a trembling child within.
So begins the glittering but empty parade of masks,
and my life becomes a front.
I tell you everything that's really nothing,
and nothing of what's everything,
of what's crying within me.
So when I'm going through my routine
do not be fooled by what I'm saying.
Please listen carefully and try to hear what I'm not
saying,what I'd like to be able to say,
what for survival I need to say,
but what I can't say.
I don't like hiding.
I don't like playing superficial phony games.
I want to stop playing them.
I want to be genuine and spontaneous and me
but you've got to help me.
You've got to hold out your hand
even when that's the last thing I seem to want.
Only you can wipe away from my eyes
the blank stare of the breathing dead.
Only you can call me into aliveness.
Each time you're kind, and gentle, and encouraging,
each time you try to understand because you really care,
my heart begins to grow wings--
very small wings,
very feeble wings,
but wings!
With your power to touch me into feeling
you can breathe life into me.
I want you to know that.
I want you to know how important you are to me,
how you can be a creator--an honest-to-God creator--
of the person that is me
if you choose to.
You alone can break down the wall behind which I tremble,
you alone can remove my mask,
you alone can release me from my shadow-world of panic,
from my lonely prison,
if you choose to.
Please choose to.
Do not pass me by.
It will not be easy for you.
A long conviction of worthlessness builds strong walls.
The nearer you approach to me
the blinder I may strike back.
It's irrational, but despite what the books say about man
often I am irrational.
I fight against the very thing I cry out for.
But I am told that love is stronger than strong walls
and in this lies my hope.
Please try to beat down those walls
with firm hands but with gentle hands
for a child is very sensitive.
Who am I, you may wonder?
I am someone you know very well.
For I am every man you meet
and I am every woman you meet.
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some of yall r thinking why the name *golden winged angel* well i havent seen to many golden wings... have u? i mean sure there is black, classic white, and even red, but have u seen some golden wings? and angels is cuz PPL say im very angel like. lol thats annoying to.... soo thats my name.
Anime i like watching anime. i think is because i really didnt watch too much cartoons when i was younger. so i do it now. i like inuyasha, wolf rain, full metal alchemist, naruto, zach bell, and so much more.
my poems... idk what to say about them. i hope they speak for themselves. i just write to express myself. i dont want to impress anyone. they r what they r. ummm..... i guess thats all for the moment.
here is a cool site that u can find out a bit more of me
www.myspace.com/koolchica55
www.hi5.com/friend/profile/displayProfile.do?userid=41445858
feel free to check it out
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My favorite poem
Please Hear What I'm Not Saying
By: Charles C. Finn
Don't be fooled by me.
Don't be fooled by the face I wear
for I wear a mask, a thousand masks,
masks that I'm afraid to take off,
and none of them is me.
Pretending is an art that's second nature with me,
but don't be fooled,
for God's sake don't be fooled.
I give you the impression that I'm secure,
that all is sunny and unruffled with me, within as well
as without,
that confidence is my name and coolness my game,
that the water's calm and I'm in command
and that I need no one,
but don't believe me.
My surface may seem smooth but my surface is my mask,
ever-varying and ever-concealing.
Beneath lies no complacence.
Beneath lies confusion, and fear, and aloneness.
But I hide this. I don't want anybody to know it.
I panic at the thought of my weakness exposed.
That's why I frantically create a mask to hide behind,
a nonchalant sophisticated facade,
to help me pretend,
to shield me from the glance that knows.
But such a glance is precisely my salvation, my only hope,
and I know it.
That is, if it's followed by acceptance,
if it's followed by love.
It's the only thing that can liberate me from myself,
from my own self-built prison walls,
from the barriers I so painstakingly erect.
It's the only thing that will assure me
of what I can't assure myself,
that I'm really worth something.
But I don't tell you this. I don't dare to, I'm afraid to.
I'm afraid your glance will not be followed by acceptance,
will not be followed by love.
I'm afraid you'll think less of me,
that you'll laugh, and your laugh would kill me.
I'm afraid that deep-down I'm nothing
and that you will see this and reject me.
So I play my game, my desperate pretending game,
with a facade of assurance without
and a trembling child within.
So begins the glittering but empty parade of masks,
and my life becomes a front.
I tell you everything that's really nothing,
and nothing of what's everything,
of what's crying within me.
So when I'm going through my routine
do not be fooled by what I'm saying.
Please listen carefully and try to hear what I'm not
saying,what I'd like to be able to say,
what for survival I need to say,
but what I can't say.
I don't like hiding.
I don't like playing superficial phony games.
I want to stop playing them.
I want to be genuine and spontaneous and me
but you've got to help me.
You've got to hold out your hand
even when that's the last thing I seem to want.
Only you can wipe away from my eyes
the blank stare of the breathing dead.
Only you can call me into aliveness.
Each time you're kind, and gentle, and encouraging,
each time you try to understand because you really care,
my heart begins to grow wings--
very small wings,
very feeble wings,
but wings!
With your power to touch me into feeling
you can breathe life into me.
I want you to know that.
I want you to know how important you are to me,
how you can be a creator--an honest-to-God creator--
of the person that is me
if you choose to.
You alone can break down the wall behind which I tremble,
you alone can remove my mask,
you alone can release me from my shadow-world of panic,
from my lonely prison,
if you choose to.
Please choose to.
Do not pass me by.
It will not be easy for you.
A long conviction of worthlessness builds strong walls.
The nearer you approach to me
the blinder I may strike back.
It's irrational, but despite what the books say about man
often I am irrational.
I fight against the very thing I cry out for.
But I am told that love is stronger than strong walls
and in this lies my hope.
Please try to beat down those walls
with firm hands but with gentle hands
for a child is very sensitive.
Who am I, you may wonder?
I am someone you know very well.
For I am every man you meet
and I am every woman you meet.
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- Last seen on Aug 31 7:40 PM. Member since December 14, 2005.
- I'm a amethyst understanding poet for 24 comments.
- My mood is , and quote is Life is like a Rose, Both Delicate and Sweet.
- I am a 16 year old person (United States)
- When I'm not writing, I'm a Student.
- Visit my homepage at profiles.yahoo.com/koolchica55
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She has been through a lot.
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Father you cross my mind at least once every day.
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Sitting in a class full of people, listening to multiple conversations.
Have you ever done that just listened to the world around you.21 lines, 1 comment, September 23, 2006. In Other
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Haha, your so lucky.
I want the third one so bad but, no one has it around here.
I live in country.
Dullsville, Hehe.
Very much so.
You'll just have to wait and she if she finds him
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I know, omg vampire kisses is the best book EVER.
I've already read the second one and it is wonderful too.
The third one is out but, our book selections suck so it's hard to get your hands on.
The second one makes you want to read the third one soooooo bad. -
XwasteOFpaintX on July 30, 2006Hey,
what's up?
I see you like anime, I do too. my friend is obsessed with inuyasha n' stuff, so I kinda have to. lol no, anime is awesome.
so yeah.... write back sometime!
-waste -
vampire lust on June 12, 2006i didn't mean to be mean you can talk to me you don't bother me at all you can send me a message when ever you want and i love your background it is awsome lol. are they crows or ravens? i love crows lol. well got to go hope to hear from you soon ~vampire lust~ p.s. what did you think of my page?
