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Hi Ya'll!

I am a country girl at heart. I like to hunt, fish, ride 4-wheelers, horses, etc.

I am not really the best writer, but it is how I work through things that I don't understand or things that I am having a hard time with.  For a long time, I didn't share anything I wrote with anyone.  No one that I know personally knows that I write.  But, eventually, I realized that I needed someone to read my stuff and give me some feedback and sometimes advice. That resulted in the search that produced this AWESOME website!

I am a mom of a 3 year old boy, almost divorced (a few more weeks), and just trying to get my life back on track.

My worst "Pet Peeve" is Bad grammar and spelling. Why do people not proof read? If someone is focusing on errors, they cannot give their full attention to the writing --so bad spelling and grammar take away from your writing!
PROOF READ!

I used to be a cutter, though I am not any more.  Three of my poems are about that, so if you don't like that sort of thing, avoid reading "can't get there fast enough", "I cut myself", and "being strong enough." That last one there though, is about overcoming it, and I am really proud of it, one of my favorites, so maybe don't pass that one up.

Regardless of what you may believe, I did not do this for attention.  The only person who knew about this is one of my boyfriends from when I was 16 and it was REALLY bad. He only knew because we got pretty close and he got curious about all the scars and cuts I had been so careful to hide, he figured it out on his own.  I recently got back in touch with him and that was one thing he was scared to ask me about, but he said he had to know.  Apparently, he had been worrying for 8 years.  After this conversation, I got that urge again, but thought of his worrying and didn't want to have lied to him when I told him I was ok and not doing it anymore.  He will never know what that meant to me.  The strength he has given me.

I don't usually write with very strong imagery or use a lot of metaphors, because I am the type of person that is always going to say straight out what she is thinking.  Some people don't like this type of poetry, so if that's you, you probably won't like mine.  Hey, I do my best with what I can!

Sometimes I can be a dingbat and not really understand what poetry with strong imagery and lots of metaphors are about, though I do try.  Please try to bear with me if I ask you questions, I just want to understand.  If it bothers you to have to explain, just tell me to shut it.  I am a big girl, I can take it!

Don't be afraid to leave angry comments on my poems, I can handle it, and everyone has an opinion and the right to express theirs, just don't expect me to be all flowers and sunshine toward your poems.

Some of my favorite quotes:

On the back of a horse I felt whole, complete, connected, to that vital place in the center of me... And the chaos within me found balance. Tami Hoag

If you can't beat 'em, arrange to have them beaten

Pain is just weakness leaving the body

Childhood is what you spend the rest of your life trying to get over.

I love lyrics and music, but I don't possess a musical bone in my body...

The following are some of my favorite songs:

Keep Away; Godsmack

Barbed wire and Roses; Pinmonkey

To the moon and back; Savage Garden

It's been awhile; Staind

Outside; Staind

Epiphany; Staind

Fade; Staind

Gunpowder and Lead; Miranda Lambert

Unwell; Matchbox 20

And some lyrics that seem to fit me so well:

So take me as I am
This may mean you'll have to be a stronger man
Bitch; Meredith Brooks

I hurt myself today
to see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
the only thing that's real
and you could have it all
my empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
Hurt; Johnny Cash

But everything I can't remember as fucked up as it may seem
I know it's me I cannot blame this on my father
he did the best he could for me
It's been awhile; Staind

And the list goes on and on...

If I skipped over anything you want to know, just ask!