Emoboo32• Show poetry

I'm emo. Yes, I cut myself. I think me cutting myself is better than me taking my life. I have only one feeling. That feeling is nothing. I know it sounds funny, but it's true. Nothing is my new pain feeling. If you feel nothing, than you might think about death too. Yes I want to kill myself. But no, I won't. Why? Because I will live everyday of my fuckin life and suffer than die and let the ones I love suffer. My love ones don't know I'm suffering, I won't tell them. I can't tell them. So many of my friends that I loved so dearly, killed themselves. Some did it infront of me, others did it while talking on the phone with me, then some did after they told me they were ok and I went to sleep. They lied, but I know now what happened to them. They felt nothing. Nothing is a disease, a curse. It finally got me. I will not pass it on to anyone I love. I will bare with this and suffer. I love all my friends. Oh and I'm happily engaged to my baby Griffin.