Emmanuel balderas• Show poetry

I was born on July first 1989 in the sleepy often monotonous town of Eagle Pass, Texas. I tasted my first beer at the age of twelve and my first cigarrete at fourteen ( I coughed for an eternity).And I started learning from everything that only a child observes. There was never a glory that sent me to another world of ectasy, a couple of pains that I dealt with and survived. Early on there were scraped knees, bullies, spilt juice, now love lost, s.a.t's and college searching. Along the way my best friend found a girlfriend (I took a backseat without rebelling) they had problems constantly and I wrote exclusively to correct them, he employed me, and I didnt mind. There I fell in love with the spanish verse and experimentation brought me love for english as well. And now You have this paragraph from a faceless person you will never meet, only read.


two years later

I see no need to erase what I wrote it is but a chapter in this life. maybe i couldve erased it all and wrote something better or maybe worse. but why destroy that photograph? with that settled i am now in college hopefully to transfer and live out my dreams. I hardly look at the world as a child does, i kept smoking and then quit the habit, met new people and lost old friends. Ive gone with the merciless rule of time that dictates we grow older, wether sad or joyous with someone or alone. With all time's adventures i feel dulled, this life is rigid and cold it has become only work and school, no room for friends, for adventure, no room for poetry. in about a year i have posted only one column it is my mind that is too occupied. for that i apologize to those that have me on their favorite poet list. i feel i owe alot, i owe for not posting for not finding my muse, for having eight poems both in spanish and english in my notebook but not finished. They are the horrible by products of a mind gone monotone. But there they stay of love and hate, of hope and despair, those unfinished poems tease at their creator, and i only sit at my desk wondering where that majesty went.