Emii.kiilled.Diin0• Show poetry

I am Emily. I am 16 years of age.I am angry. I am happy. I am depressed. I am lonely. I am OCD. I am taking pills. I am hyper. I am crazy. I am embarrassing. I am morbid. I am hilarious. I am amazing. I am horrible. I am jealous. I am forgiving. I am weird. I am an individual. I am a poet. I am accepting. I am Bi-Polar. I am bubbly. I am Caucasian.I am beautiful. I am ugly. I am fearful. I am brave. I am nervous. I am a young woman. I am wearing eyeliner. I am plain. I am depression. I am mischievous. I am mysterious. I am in high-school. I am a guitar player. I am creative. I am smart. I am dumb. I am in love with spongebob. I am listening to My Chemical Romance. I am delicate. I am surrounded. I am alone. i am simply me! hope we'll be fweends..


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THIS IS FOR THOSE WHO CRIED DURING GHOST OF YOU.

FOR THOSE WHO FELT EMPOWERED BY FAMOUS LAST WORDS.

FOR THOSE WHO FELT THEY COULD RELATE TO IM NOT OKAY.

FOR THOSE WHO WANT TO START A RIOT BECAUSE OF TEENAGERS.

THIS IS FOR THOSE WHO AREN'T AFRAID TO KEEP ON LIVIN'.

FOR THOSE WHO AREN'T AFRAID TO WALK THIS WORLD ALONE.

THIS IS FOR MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE.

LETS CRASH THE CEMETARY GATES WITH OUR HEADS HELD HIGH AND MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE IN OUR HEARTS!!!!!! SPREAD THE WORD!!!
*JULY 23RD NATIONAL MCR DAY*


"A shot to kill the pain

A pill to drain the shame

A purge to stop the gain

A cut to break the vein

A smoke to ease the crave

A drink to win the game

An addiction's an addiction

BECAUSE IT ALWAYS HURTS THE SAME"


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~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~F ucked up~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~I nsecure~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~N eurotic~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~E motional~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~See im just F.I.N.E.~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

1. Spell your name without E,R,S,H,K,I,M,L,C,A,Y,N:
I cant spell my name without those letters

2. Are you single?
yep

3. What is your favorite number?
13

4. What is your favorite color?
puuuurple!

5. Least favorite color?
pink

6. What are you listening to?
Dissapear by Bullet For My Valentine

7. Are you happy with your life right now?
no

8. Are you involved with anyone?
nope 0_o

9. What is your favorite subject in school/college?
art
10. Do you shop at Abercrombie?
nope

11. Do you have money?
mhmmmms

14. Are you gay?
noep

15. Where do you wish you were right now
in someones arms

16. What should you be doing right now?
getting off the computer

THE CANS:
Can you blow a bubble? with gum? mmhmm
Can you touch your toes? yeP! :]
Can you wiggle your ears? YUP!
Can you touch your tongue to your nose? no =]

THE DIDs:
Did you ever want to be a doctor? no
Did you ever want to be a fire fighter? no
Did you ever want to be a teacher? nope!
Did you ever break the law? yuppah. :]

THE DOs:
Do you like roller coasters?duh!
Do you own a bike? mhmms
Do you play the lotto? if my mommy buys me a ticket yess
Do you like football? no,i dont understand it
Do you have a shopping addiction? nope

THE DOES:
Does your family have family picnics? not really
Does your wallet have any pics in it? no

THE LASTS:
Last person you hung out with? Lexi!
Last car ride? Mommys
Last text message from? Nicky
Last baby you held? cousin
Last baby you've seen? im not sure..

LAST THING?
What was the last thing you bought? slippers!
What was the last thing you had to drink? pepsii!
What was the last thing you watched? spongie bob!
What was the last thing you read? the pact by jodie picoult
What was the last thing you hand wrote? sunshine in weird deformed letters lmao

THE WHOS:
Who last talked to you on the phone ? Justin
Who was the last person you took a picture of? haha errhm meeh!
Who do you miss right now? Brandon
Who last messaged you on facebook? dont haf..

CURRENTLY:
What color shirt are you wearing? black..with jack and sally
Have any tattoos? nope
Have you any piercings? raawr, nawt telling!
Straight hair or curly? both
Where are you? my computer room

HAVE YOU EVER:
Accomplished a life goal? mhmmmm
Sang in front of a crowd? gah as iif

FIVE THINGS YOU WILL FIND IN YOUR ROOM:
1. bed
2. tv
3. guitar
4. balloons
5. a caaaar pillow!:]

TWO RELATIONSHIP QUESTIONS:
1. Want a relationship? nope
2. Want to get married? later in life :]

FOUR THINGS ON YOUR MIND:
1. Brandon!!
2. Friday!
3. summer
4. painting my room

The way to win your heart?
being really sweet to me

When was the last time you really laughed?
the other day..i was really hyper..

Do you drink milk straight from the carton?
ew!!!!

Who knows a big secret about you?
It's not really a big secret but its the biggest one I have. like 2 of my friends and my bf

How long is your hair?
down to my chest

When was the last time you sang out loud?
44 minutes ago

What did you have for breakfast?
chocolate..:]

Is your birthday on a holiday?
nooo

What instant messaging service do you use?
im

Are you signed on it right now and if so, who are you talking to?
yes..to richard

Can you cook?
yup!

Did you have a nap today?
nope

What do you wear more, jeans or sweats?
jeans

When is your birthday?
January 31st

Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
the mall. daahh

Do you have any regrets?
yeah

Do you use an alarm clock?
no

What's the first thing you notice of the opposite sex?
hair

What color are your favorite shoes?
black..cuz their slippers

Are you a social or antisocial person?
kind of both

Have the cops ever come to your house?
yes

Do you have a tan?
nope

Ever had braces?
yup

Are you afraid of the dark?
if im alone

What's your favorite commercial at the moment?
I HATE COMMERCIALS

Do you always wear your seat belt?
no

Who was the last person to disappoint you?
im not sure..

How is life going for you right now?
Wonderful

Do you like American Idol?
A little.


Have you ever fallen asleep with the last person you kissed?
nooooo

What were you doing at 12am last night?
sleeping

Do you believe everything happens for a reason?
no

Does it bother you when someone lies to you?
yes

Your best friend likes the same person you do, you say?
im not sure whatd id say..

Are you someone's best friend?
a lot of peoples best friend lol

Have you ever given up on someone but then went back to them?
yeah .___.

Did you wake up in the middle of the night last night?
i think so

What's the relationship with the last person you texted?
nicky? my best fwendi everr! he rocks!

Will your next kiss be a mistake?
i dont know..

Where do you see yourself in 5 years?
in uni...

Do you think people talk about you?
I've seen them talk about me >.<

Do you miss how things used to be?
when i was 5 lmao

Are you happier now or three months ago?
three moths ago..

Are you texting anyone?
nope

Would you ever get a tattoo?
yep!

What was the first thing you thought of this morning?
spongebob

How many hours of sleep did you get last night?
8 and a half, i think

Have you ever had someone sing to you?
yes, hehee

What's something you really want right now, be honest:
brandon

What do you prefer; AIM or Phone or Texting?
Phone.

Do you have any plans for the weekend?
mhmmm

Have you ever kissed someone under fireworks?
noooo

Are you anything like you were at this point last year?
i dont think so

Last person you talked to last night before bed?
peter..

How's the last person you kissed?
i dont know..

If this year consisted of only one season what would it be?
winter..

Do you always care what you look like?
whats the point?

Do you like someone right this second?
I love someone right this second

Do you know anyone who has gotten an abortion?
.__________. ..i think

Do you currently have feelings for anybody?
no..

How many people have you liked this year?
1..

Is there any chance you're pregnant?
nope

Do you think someone is thinking about you?
probably

Is there anybody you wish you could be spending time with right now?
yeah..

Who is the last male you talked to through a text?
nicky..

Are you waiting for something?
to be done with this quiz,yes.

Do you laugh a lot?
yes lol << I just laughed!
and I laughed at typing that ^^^ >:]

How was your Valentines day?
I dont remember.

Are you mean?
sometimes.

Would the last person you kissed be mad if they saw you kissing someone else?
i dont know..

First person you talked to today?
my mommy

Have you learned any lessons in life?
yes.

Last time you drove?
A loooong time ago

When is the last time you saw number one on your top friends?
yesterday

Ever kissed anyone with the name starting with a B?
no..

Has anyone disappointed you recently?
yeah...

Are you a morning person or a night?
night

Whats your zodiac sign?
Aquarius..=]


Gerard Way quotations :

"... So people keep asking me what this badge is for... this badge makes me the sheriff, the sheriff of Emo town, so get your straight irons and eyeliner ready!"

"*bunny*...*bunny*...oh...I thought...I thought I was gonna go blind."
(putting his hand in his pants during a show in Noblesville, Indiana

"We're gonna *bunny* y'all so bad that you can't walk. WE'RE GONNA *bunny* YOU SO BAD THAT YOU WON'T BE ABLE TO *bunny* WALK!!"
(Max Pavillion, Singapore)

"So I'm doing my stretches; stretchin' my arms, stretchin' my legs, and this dude walks past and is like, 'Hey, look, everybody! It's David Cassidy!' Do you guys have any idea David Cassidy is? Well, let me tell you something... besides the fact we both have fabulous, fabulous hair there's a big difference between me and David Cassidy... I SUCK WAY MORE DICK THAN THAT GUY!"

"I have a therapist, we hang out, talk about Lord of the Rings... that's what happens actually..."

"Circa Survive have one up on My Chemical Romance- they can grow beards! I would love to grow one. I'd be very grateful if someone gave me their beard."
(Adelaide Entertainment Centre, Adelaide - 3rd December 2007)

(While pretending to cry) "Aww *bunny* it!"
(Adelaide Entertainment Centre, Adelaide - 3rd December 2007)

"I... don't.. know.. why.. I'm.. crying.."
(Pretending to cry during 'Mama' - Rod Laver Arena, Melbourne 1st December 2007)

"You're all my treasures! You're all my sparkling diamonds and my red, red rubies and I wanna polish you up and put you in the pocket of my tight little jeans... and take you home!"
(Before 'You Know What They Do To Guys Like Us In Prison', 21/11/07, Metro Arena, Newcastle)

"Is it only in Scotland that you can get these?!"
(holding up an inflatable sheep - Aberdeen, Scotland 12/11/07. AECC)

"Oh man, look at that! You tied it up in a ball so that it could get to me and everything! Now thats initiative! But you know what...I could probably get arrested just for holding this..."

(After a fan threw a balled-up bra on-stage, Glasgow, Scotland 27/3/07. SECC)

"I didn't get much time to get my feet wet so I ended up diving right into the deep end so to speak...and there was a hot minute where I felt like I was just trying to stay afloat. Luckily my editor threw me a life preserver pretty quickly--and, yes, I realize I just used maybe one too many swimming-pool metaphors, but that's the best way to describe the situation."

(Interview about beginning his comic book, The Umbrella Academy, with DarkHorse)

"Aww *bunny*, they say Detroit is one of the toughest cities in the world, but today, Detroit, the girls have been tougher than the boys. And I know that I'm pretty, but I ain't that *bunny* pretty. Boys, let me hear what you got. One more time, boys let me hear what the *bunny* you got! Alright, you a bunch of animals. Now It's time we start acting like animals. Boys, this song is just for you. But I want you to do one thing for me, I want you to take, your *bunny* shirts off, just the boys! Get your shirts off, and swing it over your *bunny* head! I don't care if you a size 32, or a size 48, or a size 64! Holy *bunny*. Look at all those shirts. Look all-- pull out, pull out with that bull*bunny* cameras. Pull out! Look at all them *bunny* shirts! I think we about to turn this mother*bunny* around. Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah!"
(Detroit, MI 8/22/07. Projekt Revolution Tour, also brodcasted on MySpace.com)

"I wore my skull makeup today. But did no one else get the memo? I said, DID YOU NOT GET THE *bunny* MEMO?!"
(Toronto 8/21/07. Projekt Revolution @ Molson Amphitheater.)

"I feel very intimate with you guys. It's like we're taking a *bunny* bath together."
(Jones Beach, NY 8/15/07. Projekt Revolution @ Nikon Amphitheater)

"We are My Chemical Romance! We're a band from New Jersey, and usually, we shoot mother*bunny*s like you! But tonight...you get nothing but love from us. And Texas...has a lot...more...guns."
(San Antonio, Texas 8-03-07. Projeckt Revolution @ the Verizon Wireless Amphitheater.)

"The bike! I thought the bicycle was for me. Is-Is it not for me? Because if it's not for me...I DON'T WANT IT!" (San Bernardino 7-28-07. Projekt Revolution @ the Hyundai Pavilion.)

"(Singing) Everybody tie your shoe, I don't care about you. Everybody tie your shoe, clap clap! (Speaking) On three, cause I wanna get my shoes tied now, so I'm gonna tie my *bunny* shoes!...wait...okay, (Singing) Everybody tie your shoes, clap clap. Everybody tie your shoes, clap clap. (Speaking) That's possibly the *bunny* stupidest thing I've ever done up here."
(Birmingham, UK - 22 March 07)

"What is that? Is that a boa? I sure do love boas, ya know just saying."
(Radio One Show at Koko - 02 April 07)

"The Black Parade has to go home soon, so you're gonna be stuck with My Chemical Romance. I'm sorry. That singer has a despicable mouth, he dresses funny, and he can't sing!"
(Ft. Lauderdale, FL- 22 April 07)

"Everyone back the *bunny* up! I am not that pretty!"
(trying to get the crowd to stop pushing forwards, Houston, TX - April 14, 2007)

"That's what happens when you're all borderline psychotic and therein lies the beauty of this band - our duality. There's a duality to each band member too. There's a desire to have this constant conflict. If we write a write a song and it turns out really poppy, we have to make the lyrics really *bunny*ed up. There's psychosis to everything we do for sure. One day we're probably gonna write this number one pop tune that will be about a massacre!"

"When I was writing it, I was remembering how hard it was to be a 16-year-old in high school. I always wanted to be an artist, so I was this loner kid who just got drunk all the time. I only had one real friend. There was a girl I really liked, and she ended up taking really sleazy photographs with her boyfriend, and that really crushed me, I was just swimming in this pit of despair, jealousy and alcoholism."

"If for one minute you think you're better than a sixteen year old girl in a Green Day t-shirt, you are sorely mistaken. Remember the first time you went to a show and saw your favorite band. You wore their shirt, and sang every word. You didn't know anything about scene politics, haircuts, or what was cool. All you knew was that this music made you feel different from anyone you shared a locker with. Someone finally understood you. This is what music is about."

"Surrounding myself with fans makes me feel like I'm not going through it alone."

"There was a moment in my life when I really wanted to kill myself. And there was one other moment when I was close to that. But even in my most jaded times, I had some hope."

"When we first started out I had a really big issue and a lot of my loved ones had a really big issue with the fact that I was totally in pain up there and there was a time when I tried to hurt myself off stage, but I got over that. Like, you should never want to hurt yourself. You should love yourself. Sometimes you have to kind of die inside in order to rise from your own ashes and believe in yourself and love yourself and become a new person and I think that that is going to be a lot of what the next record is about, not to plug it or anything. Like, it's going to talk about dying and coming back to become what you totally want to become. We are all becoming what we want to become."

"When you're touring and the minute you tell someone that you're from Jersey it's the equivalent of telling them you just got out of jail."

"It takes me a while to tell stories. I think it's because I was drunk for three years."

"For me, [being onstage] is me being everything I always wanted to be. It erases everything I hate about myself. Nothing can hurt me. I feel completely invincible. I feel like everyone else on that stage is invincible and we're capable of anything. There's no stopping us."

"Uh, actually, we like to kidnap them in a van, and tie them up, and leave them somewhere dangerous. SURPRISE!" (When asked what kinds of surprises the band likes to do for their fans on fuse TV.)

"We have always had a desire to be a theatrical band, even when we were playing basements. Ya know, we were the most theatrical band in a basement you probably would ever see."

"If you're gonna buy me a present, don't spend more than twenty five bucks, you'll get a blowjob anyway." (KROQ, rambling after performing 'Prison')

"We're not a festival band, playing during the day was something we had to get over, I was like...uhh, this sun stuff kind of sucks."

"I'd enjoy it if a guy grabbed my *bunny*. I guess it all depends on how he grabbed it, too."

"It's insanely gleeful...This record is like running around a field of flowers with a butcher knife."

"*bunny* yeah, I’m going to get some comfortable pants! Why stop there? Maybe a nice cable-knit sweater. Maybe I’ll buy a house for my thirtieth birthday next year. I’m gonna get a Dodge Stratus. I’m gonna go to Blockbuster. I’m gonna get whatever shower curtain I want. Because I deserve it."

"None. I think we should send a country some cupcakes. You think some cupcakes would cheer up North Korea? Kill ’em with deliciousness." (when what the next country the US would save should be)

"I really hate physical violence, but there’s this one where this kid is talking *bunny* forever to this other kid, and the dude gets into this weird jujitsu pose and just knocks him out with one punch." (when asked what the funniest YouTube video of 2006 was)

"What I like about The Sims is that I don't have a normal life at all, so I play this game where these people have these really boring, mundane lives. It's fun. My Sims family is called the Cholly family. I don't know why I picked that name; it's kind of random. The teenage daughter is my favorite, because I just had her go through this Goth phase. She's really kind of nerdy and she just became a concert violinist, which is pretty huge for the family. And she got into private school. But she started wearing black lipstick and she dyed her hair purple. It's pretty huge."

"People don't know if i'm gay, straight or an alien from outer space.. its funny"

"The only place I'm really scared of was the Tenderline. I walked out of the bus in my makeup and costume and some dude on the other side of the street in front of a crackhouse yelled 'Better stay on that side of the road mother*bunny*, I'll knock you out!'"

"I'm sick of seeing my face. But I'm allowed to be sick of seeing my face, 'cause it's my *bunny*in' face. Know what I'm sayin'?"

"This *bunny* is easy peasy pumpkin peasy... pumpkin pie mother*bunny*!"

"If you ever see *bunny*ty *bunny* rock dudes in *bunny*ty *bunny* rock bands asking you to show them your tits for a backstage pass, I want you to spit right in their *bunny* face and yell *bunny* YOU!!"

"It's that women's cut.... they always fall down." (commenting after his pants fell down during a performance on Warped Tour)

"It's for the hamster that I'm gonna buy! This is so perfect!" (after opening a hamster wheel at Christmas)

"What happened was, I went right off the side walk and into the bushes, and I was all like WOAHHHH! And I killed like so many plants..."

Gerard: "I like Starbucks. I know people are going to hate me for saying it-"
Frank: "No, you can't-"
Gerard: "-but...it's so damn good!"

Cameraman: "Let's have a day in the life of Gerard."
Gerard: "'Going to get coffee! Going to get coffee!' That's all it would be."

"The song was called 'I Don't Want To Grow Up' and the lyrics are like...'I don't wanna grow up [high pitched voice] I don't wanna grow up'...'Not a penny will I pinch, I will never wear a mustache' -- no, sorry, 'I will never grow a mustache or a fraction of an inch'. And it's just this song..."
Frank: "It sounds kinda like a Descendents song."
Gerard: "Yeah, it kinda does! And...she made me this outfit...it was like, green tights. Everything I had built, I had destroyed. You know, I'd always wanted to skate in my old school, so of course it's a great idea to play *bunny*in' Peter Pan in your first year at a new school." (Talking about his grandmother making him a costume for his lead role in Peter Pan)

Frank: "You really have to love someone to...smell them at their worst."
Gerard: "Yeah...I get pretty gross, too."

"So many people are gonna treat you like you're a kid. So, you might as well act like one and throw your television out of the hotel window."

“Just to know that it's okay to be messed up, ‘cause there’s five dudes that are just as messed as you are.”

"I wake up in the morning and I drink a lot of *bunny* coffee all day and I smoke a lot of *bunny* cigarettes and it sucks."

"It's this kickball game, this is the most fun I've had. It was biblical, amazing, and dramatic and I *bunny*ed up a little but I was shh - I was good." [whilst drunk playing kickball during the Warped Tour]

Ray: "Did you kick him in the balls?"
Frank:"Yeah..."
Gerard: "It just hurt but I didn't care but I was wondering, I was wondering what he was doing over there in the first place and I was like, "Woah he's playing over here" and then he kicked me and I was just like..."What did I do?"