Earthlover0915• Show poetry

My name is mare bear and i love dark, meaningful poetry. But i love to read pretty much anything
my fav songs are:
Janie's Got a Gun by Aerosmith
Twisted Ballerina by Jayne Sachs Band
Wiskey Lullaby By Brad Paisley ft. Allison Kruass
Sissy's Song by Alabama
Only Hope
Cheater, Cheater by Joey and Rory
How Strong
Like Suicide by Seether
Long Black Train by Josh Turner
Concret Angel and Anyway by Martina McBride
Alyssa Lies
The Way She Feels by Between the Trees
Another Brick in The Wall by PF
Don't Trust Me by 3OH!3
And many many more that i love


Looking real hard for love

I love this poem
http://allpoetry.com/poem/5481031


*This Beautiful girl with a borken smile. Nobody knows why she crys, or even why she has those scars upon her wrist*

*I focus on the pain...because it's the only thing that's REAL*

*The funny thing is, no one ever knows how much anybody else iss hurting. We could be standing next to someone who is completly broken and we wouldn't even know it.*

*F.I.N.E. is another way of saying
Fucked up
Insecure
Neurotic and
Emotional and i'm Fine
Just Fine*

*I tend to compare my life to Books i read.*

*Sometimes it just hits me out of nowhere. This overwhelming sadness suddenly rushes over me, and i get frustrated and upset...it's like i feel hopeless...i start wishing for things I know im not strong enough to change....It's like i've become numb to the world.*

*I sit alone and cry.*

*Have you ever been ALONE in a crowded room?*

*She sits in a corner
Singing herself to sleep
Wrapped around in promises
No one seems to KEEP*

*Dead in her mind and cold to the bone. She opens her eyes and saw that she was alone*

*& I'm barely hanging on*

*I want to die, and i want to kill myself....But i can't
Does that make sense?*

*Studies show that intellegent girls are more depressed. Because they know that the world can lie. I don't think for a bit the sit around and think everything's alright....They know there's:
Sides, Shadows, Shapes, a Devil, an Angel; no in between
She speaks in third person..so she forget she's me*

*Don't leave me here alone..because i can't trust me!*

*Just cause I'm not crying, doesn't mean I'm ok."*

*I want to be remmebered as the girl who always smiles even when her heart is broken. And the one who could always brighten up your day...even if she couldn't brighten her own.*

*A Pill to drain the Shame
A purge to stop the Gain
A Cut to break the Vein
A Smoke to ease the Crave
A drink to win the Game
An addictions an addiction because it always hurts the same....*

Don't be afriad to tell someone you love them....If you do, they might break your heart...but if you don't, you might break theirs.*

*I hold my boobs when i run. Do YOU?*

*Shhh.....House is on*

*I ay have a bad mouth....But i can do great things with it.*

*I'm a good ole country girl*

*Country girls lik long, hard rides.....on horses.*

*I want to...make a difference....be a cancer survivor.....be left alone...give more then i take....be Oprah...feel needed...have something to believe in...forgive....forget...be respected...get along with my parents....find a cure!!!!!!!*

*sleep is overrated
we stay awake and cry*

*if this is love, than kill me now
and save me from my life*

My fav poem not on here
*It is fun to watch the young.
So happy. So damn clueless.
And you know, that someday soon...
She will be crying,
As the razorblade, slowly cutting away the flesh, painfully bleeding heartache away.
And as he is drinking,
Looking at those pills that can take away his life, as fast as it was given to him.
Yeah.. enjoy your life now, little ones, soon you will know the deep dark secrets of the world
FROGGY*

*ALL I NEED IS SOME1 I CAN TELL ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING TO AND NOT BE JUDGED AND NOT BE TOLD IT'S ALL MY FAULT EVEN WHEN IT IS...I WANT MY GRANDMA....BUT SHE'S SITTING WITH MY GRANDPA AND GOD(IF THERE IS ONE) WATCHING ME AND LEADING ME(HOPEFULLY) TO A BETTER LIFE WHERE I WILL FIND LOVE AND EXCEPTENCE....SO FAR I'VE ONLY FOUND HURT AND I'M ABOUT TO GIVE UP....I WANT HER!
IS IT TOO MUCH OFR ME TO ASK FOR SOMSEONE WHO WILL HOLD ME IN THEIR ARMS AND NEVER WANT TO LET GO AND TO LOVE ME AS MUCH AS I LOVE THEM...TO KISS ME GENTLY WHEN I WANT IT AND KISS ME WITH SUCH PASSION I ALMOST CAN'T TAKE IT OTHER TIME....I WANT SOMEONE TO BE WITH ME ALWAYS IN MY HEART AND I KNOW I'M ALWAYS IN THEIRS*

* I am outspoken, opinionated, and determinated. I want what i want and there is nothing wrong with that!! So try to stomp on me, try to douse my inner flame, try to swuash every ounce of beauty i hold within me....you WON'T succeeed!!!! And if that makes me a Bitch, Then so be it!!!I embeace the title and am proud to bear it!!!!!!!*

*I feel stuck and no one seems to think anythings missing. No one cares, No one listens. Im screaming words you fake hearing
My eyes burn as i bury how im feeling
Im tired of being afraid of everything and everyone!*

*Real MEN dont RAPE!!*

*I'm the kind of girl who walks into chairs and apologizes.*

*I've built a wall not to block anyone out, but to see who loves me enough to climb over it.*

*I am who I AM and YOUR approval ISN'T needed.*

*Do you think it hurts to die?
It hurts so much more to stay alove!*



General:
( x) Smoked a cigarette
( x) Drank so much you threw up
(x) Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
( ) Been arrested
( ) Gone on a blind date
( ) Skipped school
() Seen someone die
( ) Been to Canada
( ) Been to Florida
( ) Been to Mexico
(x) Been on a plane
(x) Been lost
() Been on the opposite side of the country
( ) Gone to Washington , DC
() Swam in the ocean
(x) Felt like dying....
(x) Cried yourself to sleep
(x) Played cops and robbers
(x) Recently colored with crayons
(x) Sang karaoke badly
(x) Paid for a meal with only coins
(x) Done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(x) Made prank phone calls
() Laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
( ) Laughed until liquid came out of the other end

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() Caught a snowflake on your tongue.
(x) Danced in the rain
(x) Written a letter to Santa Claus
( ) Been kissed under the mistletoe
( ) Watched the sun rise with someone you care about
(x) Blown bubbles
( ) Made a bonfire on the beach
() Crashed a party
(x) Gone roller-skating
(x) Ice-skating

Relationships:
() I've had someone cheat on me.
( ) I've gone on a blind date.
( ) I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
(x) I miss someone right now.
( ) have a fear of commitment.
(x) I have a fear of abandonment.
(x ) I've cheated in a relationship.
( x) I've been the cheatee ( if that means that you were the person some cheated on their gf/bf with )
( ) I've gotten divorced
(x) I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
(x) I've told someone I loved them
(x) I've kept something from a past relationship.


Sexuality:
(x) I've had a crush on someone of the same sex
(x ) I've had a crush on a teacher.
(x) I am a cuddler.
( ) I love to flirt.
( ) I've been kissed in the rain.
() I've hugged a stranger.
( ) have kissed a stranger.


Honesty/Crime:
( ) I am a terrible liar.
(x) I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't
(x) I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
(x) I've snuck out of my house.
(x) I have lied to my parents about where I am.
(x) I am keeping a secret from the world
(x) I've cheated while playing a game.
(x) I've cheated on a test.
() I've run a red light.
() I've been suspended from school.
(x) I've witnessed a crime.
(x) I've been in a fist fight.
() I've been arrested.


Drugs/Alcohol:
(x) I've consumed alcohol.
() I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
() I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
(x) I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
() I can't swallow pills.
(x) I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
(x) I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
(x) I shut others out when I'm depressed.
(x) I take anti-depressants.
( x) I'm anorexic or bulimic.
(x) I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
( ) I'm addicted to adrenaline
(x) I've hurt myself on purpose
( x) I'm addicted to self harm
(x ) I've woken up crying.
(x) I've cried myself to sleep.


Death and Suicide:
(x ) I'm afraid of dying.
(x) I hate funerals.
() I've seen someone die.
(x) Someone I know has attempted suicide.
() Someone close to me has committed suicide.
(x) I've attempted suicide.


Random:
() I can sing well.
(x ) I open up to others easily.
(x) I watch the news (occasionally).
() I don't kill bugs.
() I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
(x) I curse regularly.
(x) I sing in the shower.
( ) I am a morning person.
( ) I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
() I'm a snob about grammar.
( ) I am a sports fanatic.
( x) I twirl my hair
( ) have "x"s in my screen name
(x) I love being neat *Sometimes*
(x) I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
(x) I bake well.
( ) My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue
(x) I would wear pajamas to school.
( ) I like Martha Stewart.
(x) I know how to shoot a gun.
( ) I am in love with love.
(x ) I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
(x) I laugh at my own jokes.
( ) I eat fast food weekly
(x) I believe in ghosts/spirits.
( ) I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
(x ) I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
(x) I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
(x) I am really ticklish.(depending on where)
( ) I love white chocolate
(x) I bite my nails
(x) I play video games (sometimes)
(x) I'm good at remembering faces.
() I'm good at remembering names.
( ) I'm good at remembering dates.
(xx ) I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
() I have tried to join a circus and failed

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"love is a razor that leaves your soul to bleed"

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