Earth bound misfit• Show poetry

i am a bitt of a clown. i like the spotlight! I can be antisocial and angry. Other times i wallow in ecstasy! I am a freak hippie geek! I love deeply! weep freely! i am bi-polar! I am me! That is all I should hope to be! Not all that wander are lost! Dont know who said this!I don't suffer from insanity,I enjoy every minute of it!ME!
I am partial to heavy metal and classic rock. Bands like The Grateful Dead,hoobastank,Nirvana,STP,Jefferson airplane,!3th floor elevators,Slayer,Megadeth,sex pistols,ramones,meshuggah, Richard hell,twisted sister,Patti smyth,Seether,etc. I am also into rap: snoop dogg,dr. dre,NWA,Nelly, 2 live crew,Eazy E,ICP,Twizted, eminem,D12,cypress hill,house of pain,public enemy,ice t,ice cube,mc 900 ft jesus,ect. I luv Beck! That song "loser" is like my theme song
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Have you ever

General:
(x) Smoked a cigarette
(x) Drank so much you threw up
(X) Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
(x) Been arrested
() Gone on a blind date
(x) Skipped school
() Seen someone die
(x) Been to Canada
(x) Been to Florida
(x) Been to Mexico
(x) Been on a plane
(X) Been lost
(x) Been on the opposite side of the country
(x) Gone to Washington , DC
(x) Swam in the ocean
(X) Felt like dying....
(X) Cried yourself to sleep
(X) Played cops and robbers
(X) Recently colored with crayons
(x) Sang karaoke badly
(x) Paid for a meal with only coins
(X) Done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(X) Made prank phone calls
(x) Laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(x) Laughed until liquid came out of the other end
(X) Caught a snowflake on your tongue.
(X) Danced in the rain
(X) Written a letter to Santa Claus
(x) Been kissed under the mistletoe
(x) Watched the sun rise with someone you care about
(X) Blown bubbles
(x) Made a bonfire on the beach
(x) Crashed a party
(X) Gone roller-skating
() Ice-skating
() plays more than three sports a year.

Relationships:
() I've had someone cheat on me.
() I've gone on a blind date.
(X) I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
(X) I miss someone right now.
(x) have a fear of commitment.
(X) I have a fear of abandonment.
() I've cheated in a relationship.
(x) I've been the cheatee ( if that means that you were the person someone cheated on their gf/bf with )
() I've gotten divorced
(X) I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
(X) I've told someone I loved them
(x) I've kept something from a past relationship.


Sexuality:
() I've had a crush on someone of the same sex
(x) I've had a crush on a teacher.
(X) I am a cuddler.
(X) I love to flirt.
(X) I've been kissed in the rain. (kinda counts)
(X) I've hugged a stranger.
(x) have kissed a stranger.
(X) straight.
() bisexual/ lesbian/ gay.

Honesty/Crime:
(X) I am a terrible liar.
(X) I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't
(X) I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
(x) I've snuck out of my house.
(X) I have lied to my parents about where I am.
(X) I am keeping a secret from the world
(X) I've cheated while playing a game.
(x) I've cheated on a test.
(x) I've run a red light.
(x) I've been suspended from school.
(x) I've witnessed a crime.
(x) I've been in a fist fight.
(x) I've been arrested.


Drugs/Alcohol:
(X) I've consumed alcohol.
(x) I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
(X) I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
(X) I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
() I can't swallow pills.
(X) I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
(X) I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
(X) I shut others out when I'm depressed.
(x) I take anti-depressants.
() I'm anorexic or bulimic.
(X) I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
() I'm addicted to adrenaline
(X) I've hurt myself on purpose
(x) I'm addicted to self harm
(x) I've woken up crying.
(X) I've cried myself to sleep.


Death and Suicide:
(X) I'm afraid of dying.
(X) I hate funerals.
() I've seen someone die.
(x) Someone I know has attempted suicide.
() Someone close to me has committed suicide.
(X) I've ATTEMPTED suicide.


Random:
( I can sing well.
(x) I open up to others easily.
(x) I watch the news (occasionally).
() I don't kill bugs.
() I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
(X) I curse regularly.(depending on where I am)
(X) I sing in the shower.
(x) I am a morning person.
() I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
( I'm a snob about grammar.*SOMETIMES*
() I am a sports fanatic.
() I twirl my hair
() have "x"s in my screen name
() I love being neat *Sometimes*
() I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
() I bake well.
() My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue
( I would wear pajamas to school.
() I like Martha Stewart.
(X) I know how to shoot a gun.
(X) I am in love with love.
(x) I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
(X) I laugh at my own jokes.
() I eat fast food weekly
() I believe in ghosts/spirits.
(x) I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
(X) I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
() I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
(X) I am really ticklish.(depending on where)
(x) I love white chocolate
() I bite my nails
(x) I play video games (sometimes)
(X) I'm good at remembering faces.
() I'm good at remembering names.
() I'm good at remembering dates.
(X) I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
() I have tried to join a circus and failed
() Go to Church or youth group.

You know you live in 2008 when...

1.) You accidentaly enter your password on a microwave.
2.) You haven't played solitare with real cards for years.
3.) The reason for not staying in touch with your friends is they dont have a screenname or myspace.
4.) You'd rather look all over the house for the remote instead of just pushing the buttons on the TV.
6.) Your boss doesn't even have the ability to do your job.
7.) As you read this list you keep nodding and smiling.
8.) As you read this list you think about sending it to all your friends.
9.) And you were too busy to notice number 5.
10.) You scrolled back up to see if there was a number 5.
11.) Now you are laughing at yourself stupidly.
12.) Put this in your profile if you fell for that, and you know you did


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Don't Label Me
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I'm Not A Soup Can

Artist: Beck
Album: Mellow Gold
Title: Loser

In the time of chimpanzees I was a monkey
butane in my veins and I'm out to cut the junkie
with the plastic eyeballs, spray-paint the vegetables
dog food stalls with the beefcake pantyhose
kill the headlights and put it in neutral
stock car flamin' with a loser and the cruise control
baby's in Reno with the vitamin D
got a couple of couches, sleep on the love-seat
someone came in sayin' I'm insane to complain
about a shotgun wedding and a stain on my shirt
don't believe everything that you breathe
you get a parking violation and a maggot on your sleeve
so shave your face with some mace in the dark
savin' all your food stamps and burnin' down the trailer park
Yo. Cut it.
Soy un perdedor
I'm a loser baby, so why don't you kill me?
Soy un perdedor
I'm a loser baby, so why don't you kill me?
Forces of evil on a bozo nightmare
ban all the music with a phony gas chamber
'cuz one's got a weasel and the other's got a flag
one's on the pole, shove the other in a bag
with the rerun shows and the cocaine nose-job
the daytime crap of the folksinger slob
he hung himself with a guitar string
a slab of turkey-neck and it's hangin' from a pigeon wing
you can't write if you can't relate
trade the cash for the beef for the body for the hate
and my time is a piece of wax fallin' on a termite
that's chokin' on the splinters
Soy un perdedor
I'm a loser baby, so why don't you kill me?
(get crazy with the cheese whiz)
Soy un perdedor
I'm a loser baby, so why don't you kill me?
(drive-by body-pierce)
(yo bring it on down)
soooooooyy....
(I'm a driver, I'm a winner; things are gonna change I can feel it)
Soy un perdedor
I'm a loser baby, so why don't you kill me?
(I can't believe you)
Soy un perdedor
I'm a loser baby, so why don't you kill me?
Soy un perdedor
I'm a loser baby, so why don't you kill me?
(Schprechen sie Deutches, baby)
Soy un perdedor
I'm a loser baby, so why don't you kill me?
(Know what I'm sayin'?)

One of my fave songs! My theme-song,lol!



Artist: Eazy E
Album: Eazy-Duz-It
Title: Boyz-N-The-Hood (Remix)

[Dr. Dre]
Hey yo, remember that shit Eazy did a while back
Motherfuckers said it wasn't gonna work (word)
That crazy shit, yeah the stupid shit
Hey yo Eazy! (Yo!)
Hey man why don't you come off the piano for a minute
and bust this crazy shit
[Eazy-E]
Woke up quick at about noon
Just thought that I had to be in Compton soon
I gotta get drunk before the day begin
Before my mother starts bitchin bout my friends
About to go and damn near went blind
Young niggaz at the pad throwin up gang signs
Ran in the house and grabbed my clip
With the Mac-10 on the side of my hip
Bailed outside and pointed my weapon
Just as I thought, the fools kept steppin
Jumped in the fo' hit the juice on my ride
I got front back and side to side
Then I let the Alpine play
Bumpin new shit by NWA
It was "Gangsta Gangsta" at the top of the list
Then I played my own shit, it went somethin like this:
Cruisin down the street in my six-fo'
Jockin the bitches, slappin the hoes
Went to the park to get the scoop
Knuckleheads out there cold shootin some hoops
A car pulls up, who can it be?
A fresh El Camino rolled, Kilo G
He rolls down his window and he started to say
It's all about makin that GTA
*chorus*
Cuz the boyz n tha hood are always hard
You come talkin that trash we'll pull your card
Knowin nothin in life but to be legit
Don't quote me boy, cuz I ain't sayin shit
[Eazy-E]
Down on B's in the place to give me the pace
He said my man JB is on freebase
The boy JB was a friend of mine
Til I caught him in my car tryin to steal my Alpine
Chased him up the street to call a truce
The silly motherfucker pull out a deuce-deuce
Little did he know I had a loaded 12 gauge
One sucker dead, LA Times first page
*chorus*
[Eazy-E]
Bored as hell and I wanna get ill
So I went to a spot where my homeboys chill
The fellows out there, makin that dollar
I pulled up in my 6-4 Impala
They greet me with a 40 and I start drinkin
And from the 8-ball my breath start stinkin
Love to get my girl, to rock that body
Before I left I hit the Bacardi
Went to her house to get her out of the pad
Dumb hoe says something stupid that made me mad
She said somethin that I couldn't believe
So I grabbed the stupid bitch by her nappy ass weave
She started talkin shit, wouldn't you know?
Reached back like a pimp and slapped the hoe
Her father jumped out and he started to shout
So I threw a right-cross and knocked his whole ass out
*chorus*
[Eazy-E]
I'm rollin hard now I'm under control
Then wrapped the six-fo' round the telephone poll
I looked at my car and I said, "Oh brother
I throw it in the gutter and go buy another"
Walkin home and I see the G ride
Now Ket is drivin Kilo on the side
As they busted a U, they got pulled over
An undercover cop in a dark green Nova
Ket got beaten for resistin arrest
He socked the pig in the head for rippin his Guess
Now G is cut for doin the crime
For defence on the boy, he'll do some time
*chorus*
[Eazy-E]
I went to get them out but there was no bail
The fellaz start to riot in the county jail
Two days later in municiple court
Kilo G on trial straight cold cut a fork
Distruption of a court, said the judge
On a six year sentence my man didn't budge
Bailer came over to turn him in
Kilo G looked up and gave a grin
He yelled out "FIRE!", then came Suzi
The bitch came in with a sub-machine Uzi
Police shot the bitch but didn't hurt her
Both up state for attempted murder
*chorus*

another fave!

Artist: 4 Non Blondes
Album: Bigger, Better, Faster, More
Title: What's Up

Twenty-five years and my life is still
Trying to get up that great big hill of hope
For a destination
And I realized quickly when I knew I should
That the world was made up of this brotherhood of man
For whatever that means
And so I cry sometimes
When I'm lying in bed
Just to get it all out
What's in my head
And I am feeling a little peculiar
And so I wake in the morning
And I step outside
And I take a deep breath and I get real high
And I scream at the top of my lungs
What's going on?
And I say, hey hey hey hey
I said hey, what's going on?
ooh, ooh ooh
and I try, oh my god do I try
I try all the time, in this institution
And I pray, oh my god do I pray
I pray every single day
For a revolution
And so I cry sometimes
When I'm lying in bed
Just to get it all out
What's in my head
And I am feeling a little peculiar
And so I wake in the morning
And I step outside
And I take a deep breath and I get real high
And I scream at the top of my lungs
What's going on?
And I say, hey hey hey hey
I said hey, what's going on?
Twenty-five years and my life is still
Trying to get up that great big hill of hope
For a destination
Love this song! So positive!

Artist: Megadeth
Album: Capital Punishment
Title: In My Darkest Hour

In my hour of need
Ha, no you're not there
And though i reached out for you
Wouldn't lend a hand.

Through the darkest hour
Grace did not shine on me
It feels so cold, very cold
No one cares for me.

Did you ever think i get lonely
Did you ever think that i needed love
Did you ever think to stop thinking
You're the only one that i'm thinking of.

You'll never know how hard i tried
To find my space and satisfy you too.

Things will be better when i'm dead and gone
Don't try to understand, knowing you i'm probably wrong.

But oh how i lived my life for you
Still you'd turn away
Now as i die for you
My flesh still crawls as i breathe your name
All these years i thought i was wrong
Now i know it was you
Raise you head, raise your face your eyes
Tell me who you think you are, who?

I walk, i walk alone
Into the promised land.

There's a better place for me
But it's far, far away
Everlasting life for me
In a perfect world
But i gotta die first,
Please god send me on my way.

Time has a way of taking time
Loneliness is not only felt be fools
Alone i call to ease the pain
Yearning to be held by you, alone so alone, i'm lost
Consumed by the pain
The pain, the pain, the pain.

Won't you hold me again
You just laughed, ha ha, bitch
My whole life is work built on the past
But the time has come when all things shall pass
This good thing passed away.

Artist: Suicidal Tendencies
Album: Controlled by Hatred / Feel Like Shit... Deja Vu
Title: How Will I Laugh Tomorrow

Here I stand watch my word come crumbling down
I cry for help but no one's around
Silently screaming I bang my head against the wall
It seems like no one cares at all

Always an emotion, but how can I explain-how can I explain
Kind of like the scent of a rose with words I can't explain
The same with my pain
Caught up in emotion-goes over my head-goes over my head
Sometimes I got to think to myself is this life or death
Am I living or am I dead

The clock keeps ticking but nothing else seems to change
Problems never solved-just rearranged
And when I think about all the times that I've had
So few good-so many bad
I search for personality and look for things I cannot see

Love and peace flash through my mind-pain and hate are all I find
Find no hope in nothing new-never had a dream come true
Lies and hate and agony-through my eyes that's all I see

If I'm gonna cry-will you wipe away my tears?
If I'm gonna die-Lord please take away my fear
Before I drown in sorrow-Last thing that I'll say
How will I laugh tomorrow-if I can't smile today

Today today-when I can't even smile today
Today today-when I can't even smile today
How will I laugh tomorrow-when I can't even smile today
How will I laugh tomorrow-when I can't even smile today

Artist: Hawthorne Heights
Album: The Silence in Black and White
Title: Niki FM

Let‘s go down now,
into the darkness,
of your thoughts.
Hurry up now we‘re waiting for,
us to fall
(fall to pieces now)
I fall to pieces now,
a broken mirror in your life.

The silence in black and white,
falling forward as she walks toward the light.
I KNOW
I‘m outside of your window,
with my radio.

I sleep with one eye open so,
I can see you breathing.
(i sleep with one eye open)
I follow
your chest home,
until I
I can see you I can hear you
breathe in,
exhale

Silence in black and white.
I KNOW,
I‘m outside of your window,
with my radio.
I KNOW,
I‘m outside of your window,
with my radio.

I‘m outside of your window,
with my radio.
I‘m outside of your window,
with my radio.
I‘m outside of your window,
with my radio.

I‘m outside of your window,
with my radio.

You are the only station,
You play the song I know
You are the song I know.

Artist: Seether
Album: Disclaimer
Title: Broken

I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph; I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

‘Cause I’m broken when I’m open
And I don’t feel like I am strong enough
‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel light when you’re gone away

The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There’s so much left to learn, and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

‘Cause I’m broken when I’m open
And I don’t feel like I am strong enough
‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away

‘Cause I’m broken when I’m open
And I don’t feel like I am strong enough
‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel light when you’re gone away



Artist: Nirvana
Album: Nirvana US
Title: Dumb

I'm not like them
But I can pretend
The sun is gone
But I have a light
The day is done
But I'm having fun
I think I'm dumb
Or maybe just happy

Think I'm just happy (x3)

My heart is broke
But I have some glue
Help me inhale
And mend it with you
We'll float around
And hang out on clouds
Then we'll come down
And have a hangover

Have a hangover (x3)

Skin the sun
Fall asleep
Wish away
The soul is cheap
Lesson learned
Wish me luck
Soothe the burn
Wake me up

I'm not like them
But I can pretend
The sun is gone
But I have a light
My day is done
But I'm having fun
I think I'm dumb
Maybe just happy

Think I'm just happy (x3)

I think I'm dumb (x12)

Artist: Nirvana
Album: Nirvana US
Title: Heart-Shaped Box

She eyes me like a pisces when I am weak
I've been locked inside your Heart-Shaped box for weeks
I've been drawn into your magnet tar pit trap
I wish I could eat your cancer when you turn back (Alt: ... when you turn black)

Hey! Wait!
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
Hey! Wait! (Alt: Hate! Haight!)
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
Hey! Wait!
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
Your advice

Meat-eating orchids forgive no one just yet
Cut myself on angel's hair and baby's breath
Broken hymen of your highness I'm left black
Throw down your umbilical noose so I can climb right back

Hey! Wait!
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
Hey! Wait!
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
Hey! Wait!
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
Your advice

She eyes me like a pisces when I am weak
I've been locked inside your Heart-Shaped box for weeks
I've been drawn into your magnet tar pit trap
I wish I could eat your cancer when you turn back (Alt: ... when you turn black)

Hey! Wait!
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
Hey! Wait!
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
Hey! Wait!
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice

Your advice (x3)

Artist: Nirvana
Album: From The Muddy Banks Of The Wishkah
Title: Smells Like Teen Spirit

Load up on guns and bring your friends
It's fun to lose and to pretend
She's over bored and self assured
Oh no, I know a dirty word

Hello, hello, hello, how low?

I'm worse at what I do best
And for this gift I feel blessed
Our little group has always been
And always will until the end

Hello, hello, hello, how low?

And I forget just why I taste
Oh yeah, I guess it makes me smile
I found it hard, it was hard to find
Oh well, whatever, nevermind

hello, hello, hello, how low?

With the lights out it's less dangerous
Here we are now, entertain us
I feel stupid and contagious
Here we are now, entertain us
A mulatto
An albino
A mosquito
My Libido
Yay, a denial

some of the songs that inspired my work!

Artist: Evanescence
Album: Bring Me To Life
Title: Bring Me To Life

How can you see into my eyes like open doors
leading you down into my core
where I’ve become so numb without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
until you find it there and lead it back home

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

now that I know what I’m without
you can't just leave me
breathe into me and make me real
bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

frozen inside without your touch without your love darling only you are the life among the dead

all this time I can't believe I couldn't see
kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
I’ve been sleeping a thousand years it seems
got to open my eyes to everything
without a thought without a voice without a soul
don't let me die here
there must be something more
bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

(Bring me to life)
I’ve been living a lie, there’s nothing inside
(Bring me to life)

song that reminds me of jamie!

Marilyn Manson
Album: Marilyn Manson Gift Set
Title: The Reflecting God

Your world is an ashtray
We burn and coil like cigarettes
The more you cry your ashes turn to mud
It's the nature of the leeches, the virgin's
Feeling cheated
You've only spent a second of your life
My world is unaffected, there is an exit here
I say it is and then it's true,
There is a dream inside a dream,
I'm wide awake the more i sleep
You'll understand when i'm dead
I went to god just to see, and i was looking at me
Saw heaven and hell were lies
When i'm god everybody dies
Scar/can you feel my power?
Shoot here and the world gets smaller
Scar/scar/can you feel my power?
One shot and the world gets smaller
Let's jump upon the sharp swords
And cut away our smiles
Without the threat of death
There's no reason to live at all
My world is unaffected, there is an exit here
I say it is and then it's true,
There is a dream inside a dream,
I'm wide awake the more i sleep
You'll understand when i'm dead
(bridge)

(chorus)

"each thing i show you is a piece of my death"
Shoot shoot shoot motherfucker
No salvation, no forgiveness
"this is beyond your experience"
Forgiveness...