Depressedviolin• Show poetry

I m Summer. I am currently 17..8 months till I'm 18.. I ve been through alot of heart ache, grief,pain, and abuse. I learned so much from everything I have been through.I came to God. I am new person. IF all this wouldn't have happened I could have never came to God.I will stil be living a Sinners life. My poetry is inspried by my thoughts and GOD.. Though my thoughts aren't always good most aren't but I 'm try to change my way of thinking..I write  dark stuff becuase it make me feel better to have it down on paper.. because i am  totally lost.. in my life  i feel like it is a movie... But i will never to the  stuff i write about in my Dark poems.. I shouldn't even have them but it prevents me from doing stupid thing..

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I was adopted a 6 weeks old... I live with my  adopted parents till recently... I was abused and abandon .. By them.. I was frist abused by my dad. I moved out in Janurary... and I am currently going to court against him..:'(  thats where alot of them emotions come from .. I have been through Trails and termoil..I moved in with my mom after that..My mom is lives an Alternative life style (she gay) I don't agree with her disceesion but thats her life... I only pray that she will she me and see God's plan for her is not this... In may she abandon me and i live on the streets for about a month... Them i moved in with my Best friend and her parents...  A month a go the 3rd of October.. I was kicked out. My case worker came and got me. I currently live in Group home.. which i don't like.. but God but me there for reason..I m just waiting on him to show me why and what i cna do about it...I have change schools three time this year 2005 (not school year).. I barely have any friends.. really no christian friends at school anymore.. I don't go to church anymore becasue i moved and my group home won't let me.. :'( . I have boyfriend.. I love him very much i hope and pray to god that hes the one im suposed to marry.. But i dunno and It has to be his plan...i will not do anything until he tells me.. I am currently living in Florida... But in month or so .. I am moving to Kentucky.. To go in to the Job Corp.. To start my life.. To move away from my family.. I believe God set this up for me .. Becuase i m case work suggested this and She  is also a christian ... I Felt like iwas all alone and GOd showed me that .HE cares He sent christian my way... I plan to be wirtingmore posstive poems from now on.. Because i need posstive attitude and that and GOd are going to get me through life....  and i wirte  onthis site from school so i gtg bell just rang...

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