Dancer-maya• Show poetry

hello there. im maya. im not the happiest person in the world, and if you have a problem with that, well then eff you.

im the kind of person who tries to act like what people say to me doesnt matter and i dont really give a crap about other people's opinion of me, but in reality, its all i care about. i take everything personal and i have a tendency to believe every negative thing anyone says and not really take to heart the positive things people say. this is mainly because when i was younger, i was called alot of names and it killed my self esteem. plus, the only people who say positive things about me are my friends.. and they wouldnt tell the truth, just to spare my feelings.

im an expert on acting happy when all i want to do is die. which is about every second of every day. but i put on a mask and have a fake act to keep other people happy. ive noticed that noone really likes me if im not acting happy. so i do, because i hate being alone.

im a pretty shy person until i get to know someone. i wish i could break out of my shell and be more talkative and be able to make new friends and just meet random people. but it's hard for me because i have low self-esteem and im always thinking that people wouldnt like me and there is no point to talk to anyone. and i hate that. im such a messed up kid.

anyways.. i like most music if it isnt country or techno. techno sort of scares me because it reminds me of ecstacy and stuff. but then again, i do make really weird inferances. im a pretty random person.

i LOVE to dance. ive been dancing for 12 years and it's pretty much my life. if im not dancing i just dont know what to do with myself. im not sure what other talents i might have since i have devoted 12 years to dance and only dance. i do like art though, i just never have time for it because of dance taking up all my time. i auditioned for and made senior company in the dance arts theatre performing company. we do annual productions of the nutcracker and a spring ballet. last summer ((2004)) we went to hawaii to be in the international dance festival. that was so much fun ^_^

ok well, if you've read this far, then congratulations. im not that interesting, and if i was reading this i woulda stopped somewhere in the first paragraph. but then again, i do get distracted easily.

well, my friends on here are...
*RoughRider* -- my big sister and one of the people who can keep me alive. im sorry i gave you all those scares though, and im sorry for worrying you so much, but thank you for not giving up on me yet. i love you!
*pitapoet* -- one of my friends from nc. read her stuff!
*Inu* -- great writer.. keeps it real
*dynamitedancer* -- one of my dancer friends. diana girl, i love you so much! you and your ganksta style! haha keep it real in b-town!

and well, thats about it. thank you for reading. congratulations. you get a cookie.