Cutmytearsaway• Show poetry

First thing I want to clear up:
I'm not a completely depressed, lost soul kind of person. I'm a swimming-twice-a-week-two-hours-of-dance-a-night-does-her-homework-in-the-car kind of person.
My room is painted white, to match eac of my ever changing obsessions.
I cry more than smile, but I also only allow someone to see my cry once a week, so as not to tip anyone off to my part time depressionness. I don't mean that as an , insult to people who are deeply depressed, just that I have a pretty normal life, its just that I don't deal with the problems I have well.
Okay, a somewhat normal life.
Other people have crazier ones, but I really don't think I'd be able to deal with more than this, you know?
Here's the story, if you're interested.

When I was three, my parents divorced. My mom left to Cali, my dad took me to my grandparents house in a 37 000 person tourist town in Ontario.
After a year, my mom moved to said tourist town to be with me, and I switched houses between my grandparents to my moms every few days.
My dad met a girl named Lorelei.
My mom met a guy named Kent.
When I was 7, my dad married Lor.
6 years later, I have two brothers, two sisters, and one on the way.
The first was exciting, the second, was pretty cool, the third made me think "Okay, you can stop now," and the fourth wasn't a surprise, or anything special.
Not that I don't love them all, it's just that they were all born in a two year period.
And it's SUCH a coincidence that the first two were born-ten days apart, thankyouverymuch- less than a month before I was of babysitting age.
I was not impressed.


Now that you know my *edited* life story, here's some stuff on me.
My favourite movies are The Notebook, Ferris Bueller's Day Off, and Dirty Dancing. My favourite books are Audrey, Wait! by Robin Benway; 13 Reasons Why by Jay Asher, which is MY FAVOURITE BOOK IN THE HISTORY OF THE WORLD!!!!; A Great and Terrible Beauty by Libba Bray; and The Host by Stephanie Meyer.
TV shows I like right now are Friends, Two and a Half Men, and the Vampire Diaries.
Relationship status: It's so freaking complicated it's crazy. And I have to ask the guy in the situation(Hi!) if he's okay withme telling the world about it, even if they don't know who we are. I think he'll be okay with it.
Brief outline of coplications: Girl(me) has best friend. Best friend starts going out with guy girl is friend with and likes, which best friend knows. During on and off relationship, girl starts walking down the road to depression and turns to boy, who keeps secrets more than friend(sorry Si, but your friends can be persuasive ). While girl is grounded, girl and boy's relationship kind of grows, with love becoming involved.
Girl begins to depend on and need boy(I now, big mistake, but when you're wihout any teens in Hawaii, except for clingy Hawaiian boyfriend-who got broken up with so girl could not feel guilty abouttalking to boy- you need certain people). And he is just a little bit awesome. And kind of perfect, even though he refuses to see that.
Okay, so before I start talking about how amazing he is, I'll just stop, and write about that more later, since he's obsessed with what poems are about him*rolls eyes*


Okay, so there's some info on me, hope you're not bored out of your mind