This poem I wrote recently pretty much sums up how I feel about life:
I Don't Know Why
There is a reason for everything,
even if we only see it 20/20 hindsight.
I'm a religious person, frankly, and
I believe that God has us here for
a purpose, whatever it may be.
Now, finding our purpose, that's
another thing - I can't tell you why
I'm alive today because I don't really
know; I could die in my sleep tonight.
I daren't say I want to die,
Or cast away the gift of life in a trice.
It's just that, since I was 13, I dreamt
of being a missionary, a nun, and from
the ages of 17-23 I was a Carmelite nun.
But I'm not now; I'm 27 this month.
I honestly thought growing up that my
reason for being alive was to share God
and the joy of knowing and loving Him with
everyone, in an especially dedicated way,
and for a time, as a nun, it was;
But God had other plans for me:
I was the fire that Jesus wanted to release
on the world to cleanse it, and He started
with that convent I was in...and so I've
been told I did a great deal of good,
Even if I was greatly traumatized by the
process, many rotten apples were removed
from the tree...but now I'm back at home
with my parents, no job in this economy,
no more religious vocation, though I truly had one.
I've sort of lost track of my purpose, you see;
I don't know what God wants of me, and in the
meantime I keep myself busy by housekeeping
and pet-sitting for my parents, and sister who's
married and lives an hour and a half away.
I don't know why...
I don't know why...
I don't know why I'm alive, why I'm not dead, why whatever,
because He hasn't told me, or I just haven't been listening.
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Help me set some goals, create a reachable dream for myself, my future - I'm looking for down-to-earth ideas...help me out here! Read my page, some poems, IM my favs for ideas or just pray...pray as I have been that God will show what He wants of me...and write it all down.
-Please, no bashing God, myself & my beliefs, or other poets.
-No erotica, sex, porn, adult is called for; not everyone's mind is in the gutter.
-Every entrant will get commented on, but there are only two prizes, so put your very best into this!
-Any form of poetry - free verse, blank verse, rhyme, D.P., etc. is allowed.
-This contest will remain open as long as it takes to find a winner!
I Don't Know Why
There is a reason for everything,
even if we only see it 20/20 hindsight.
I'm a religious person, frankly, and
I believe that God has us here for
a purpose, whatever it may be.
Now, finding our purpose, that's
another thing - I can't tell you why
I'm alive today because I don't really
know; I could die in my sleep tonight.
I daren't say I want to die,
Or cast away the gift of life in a trice.
It's just that, since I was 13, I dreamt
of being a missionary, a nun, and from
the ages of 17-23 I was a Carmelite nun.
But I'm not now; I'm 27 this month.
I honestly thought growing up that my
reason for being alive was to share God
and the joy of knowing and loving Him with
everyone, in an especially dedicated way,
and for a time, as a nun, it was;
But God had other plans for me:
I was the fire that Jesus wanted to release
on the world to cleanse it, and He started
with that convent I was in...and so I've
been told I did a great deal of good,
Even if I was greatly traumatized by the
process, many rotten apples were removed
from the tree...but now I'm back at home
with my parents, no job in this economy,
no more religious vocation, though I truly had one.
I've sort of lost track of my purpose, you see;
I don't know what God wants of me, and in the
meantime I keep myself busy by housekeeping
and pet-sitting for my parents, and sister who's
married and lives an hour and a half away.
I don't know why...
I don't know why...
I don't know why I'm alive, why I'm not dead, why whatever,
because He hasn't told me, or I just haven't been listening.
---------------------------------------------------
Help me set some goals, create a reachable dream for myself, my future - I'm looking for down-to-earth ideas...help me out here! Read my page, some poems, IM my favs for ideas or just pray...pray as I have been that God will show what He wants of me...and write it all down.
-Please, no bashing God, myself & my beliefs, or other poets.
-No erotica, sex, porn, adult is called for; not everyone's mind is in the gutter.
-Every entrant will get commented on, but there are only two prizes, so put your very best into this!
-Any form of poetry - free verse, blank verse, rhyme, D.P., etc. is allowed.
-This contest will remain open as long as it takes to find a winner!
Contest is Over
- Contest was judged on March 24
- Rewards: Gold: 700, Silver: 300, Bronze: 75
- Final notes: Thank you all for enteringl; all the poems were very moving and touching. Thank you very much again, and if I had enough points and the AP system permitted, I'd give you all HMs at least!
Contest Winners
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What would you have me do dear friend? Wear rings and things and buttons and bows• Commented on by judge. Prewrite
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mysterious life-giving scheme ...by waydownuponjoy 32 lines, 3 comments, on Feb 3 7:06 AM 2007. In Contest, Inspirational, Message, Life• Commented on by judge. Prewrite -
Sitting here holding my tears of sadness - although I try to smileby Think2wice 102 lines, 3 comments, on Mar 17 7:55 PM 2008• Commented on by judge. Prewrite
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I used to be a drunkard
And I was a sluggardby Jburrus 21 lines, 2 comments, on Feb 26 7:53 AM• Commented on by judge. Prewrite
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I've lost so much more than my purpose. How do we get it back?
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