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Torn between two worlds

Hello contestants, I'm new to AP and this is my first contest, so lets see how this goes. First, let me give you a little background to the prompt. I just moved to Fairbanks, Alaska from Glendale, Arizona. My mom who I haven't seen, or heard from, in about seven years found me on myspace and got in touch. At the time, I was kicked out of my father's house(by my grandmother, who is a b****) while he was out of town. Well, my mother bought me a plane ticket to Alaska and I really want to stay here because things are going so well and my brother just went to jail. We're not very rich, in fact we're pretty poor, so as you can imagine I want to be here to help my mom. So, I've been in touch with my father since all of this has taken place and I really believe that he wouldn't have kicked me out if he'd have been in town(btw he has a history of kicking me out) and he's telling me that he feels like he's going to die. He broke his back a few years ago so I can imagine that he probably will die within the next few years. I don't know what to do! I'm f-ing torn. I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I never see my father again. I'm crying as I write this. I NEED your poems. please help

-Poems I like-

I want to feel the emotion in your words. I don't want you to tell me how your feeling.

No limit on length, I don't believe there ever should be, that's not how poems work.

Tell me about a time you went through something similar.. give me advice on what I'm going through.. after reading this what do you feel..
Make the poem yours! what you read is merely a topic!

I'm not against profanity, I don't see how words can be "bad" who deemed them that way anyway

Thank you to all who enter and good luck!! I look forward to reading everyones poem.

Contest is Over

  • Contest was judged on March 27
  • Rewards: Gold: 400
  • Final notes:
    congrats to everyone

Contest Winners

  1. found, defined, erased
    by lowercase prelude 110 lines, 30 comments, on Feb 5 9:59 PM. In Contest, Life, Love, Pain, Prose
    Gold trophy winner
    • Viewed by judge. Prewrite [remove]
  2. Obscure
    by Pyrozia 24 lines, 2 comments, on Feb 24 3:24 PM
    Silver trophy winner
    • Viewed by judge. Prewrite [remove]
  3. Disjointed
    Too close to now, yesterday just fades
    churned and spun by recollection.
    by SuicideTree 23 lines, 3 comments, on Feb 23 6:36 PM
    Bronze trophy winner
    • Viewed by judge. Prewrite [remove]
  4. What Can Remain?
    How much pain can one soul bear?
    When grief after grief
    Batters the shoreline of life.
    by WhisperingMystic 83 lines, 9 comments, on Jan 3 6:14 PM. In Personal, Life, Sad, Pain, Nature, Lost in thought, Sadness, Depression, Depressed
    • Viewed by judge. Prewrite [remove]

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  • trekkergirl
    February 13
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    sorry I don't know you our your family... however, I do feel that I need to say this... so don't take it the wrong way... is your father using his past broken back issues to get you back that just isn't the way to do it... I mean, he wants you back because he loves you... not because of what you do for him. As for dying because of his injuries in a few years... well I may get hit by a car tomorrow and not live the years that I have yet to live because of that. We are all dying from the moment that we are conceived. You have your own life to live... do what is best for you. Your parents sound like they want you because you are willing to take care of them... and while that is a good thing to do.. I take care of my mom... don't let them run you to the ground.


  • LoveDeprived
    February 13
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    wow and i thought the bad events that has happened to my life is possibly the worst that someone could ever had but reading this just purely omg... well i can't say much, not to push you to something or anything just that im really sorry for the things that has happened to you, hope everything in the future will be fine for you, just remember this "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger" ... just uhm endure everything i guess and most importantly learn from it... too bad i cant write seems like my muse is out of town.. just uhm stick in their.. its how we handle our pain that defines us and our existence...

  • SuicideTree
    February 25
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    Just wanted to say...I entered the contest because the last verse in the poem I wrote really reminds me of your situation (twas a prewrite). You can't please everyone. In the end you will have to deal with the aftermath or 'wreckage" of whatever you choose, and this is your life. You only get one of them. I hope you will be able to make the choice that is best for YOU. Best of luck.


  • RunningFromReality
    February 26
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    I will deffidently think about entering your contest. I've been through plenty of situations (maybe not as extreme as yours is) but they are worth writing poetry about. I feel for you and hope everything works for the best for you and your family. I pray God blesses you in many ways.

    Sincerely, Nekofelix

  • Caletti
    February 26
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    Wonderful Choice

    When darkness is all around you,
    And you've got no place to go,

    Look towards the little and happy choices,
    And answer things you know

    Once you've got the gist,
    Carry along on your own

    But now that it's never changing
    You've finally got a place to call home

    Listen to yourself, If blocking out others in the process is necessary, so be it.

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