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How do you deal with....?

I have been cutting for 3 years now....I have over 25 scars on my legs alone...then a few on my arms. I have to admit that I am ashamed of myself- of my scars. Recently they have been bugging me more each time I look at them. Its hard to deal with sometimes and especially when people stare or ask questions. And even though all the marks on my body bother me I still cant seem to stop slicing myself up. Most people dont take this problem seriously or dont take it seriously enough...so I decided to have a contest. Also please read all the rules before entering. You can reserve if you want to

HOW DO YOU DEAL WITH YOUR SCARS?
HOW DO YOU DEAL WITH YOU ADDICTION TO CUTTING?
HOW DO YOU DEAL WITH PEOPLE THAT JUST DONT UNDERSTAND?
these are your questions

***RULES***
1) dirty pretty is allowed! in fact I love dirty pretty along with free verse
2) pre-writes are not allowed
3) please dont use sTiCkY cApS or txt tlk
4) try not to make your poems too long...not that they wont be good just I have a small attention span lol
5) Id prefer if you put your AP name in the authors notes...just so later I can go to your page and learn alil bit about you!
6) NO BASHING OF CUTTERS! YOU WILL IMMEDIATELY BE DQD!
7) If you need inspiration or want to see more on how I feel about this http://allpoetry.com/poem/4767483 this is a link to my most recent poem. Comments will be appreciated and returned

Thankxxxxx xoxo- Christina
HAVE FUN!
((BTW ABOVE IS A PICTURE OF MY LEFT LEG....THE RECENT CUTS/SCARS THAT ARE HEALING))

Contest is Over

  • Contest was judged on December 4, 2008
  • Rewards: Gold: 400, Silver: 300, Bronze: 200, Honorable mention: 5 people
  • Final notes:
    OMG THANK EVERYONE SO MUCH 4 ENTERING! I HAD SUM AMAZING ENTRIES AND SUM THAT JUST BLEW ME AWAY! THE WINNERS ARE TOTALLY DESERVING AND OMG GOLD WENT TO THE MOST DESERVING PERSON. I HOPE YOU ALL CONTINUE TO EITHER CONFRONT OR DEAL WITH YOUR ADDICTIONS. THANKS ONCE AGAIN. GOOD JOB EVERYONE.

    xoxo- christina

Contest Winners

  1. Scars i wont see.....
    by Mrs D 36 lines, 9 comments, on Dec 1 1:21 PM 2008. In Pain, Personal, Sad
    Gold trophy winner
    • Commented on by judge. [remove]
  2. Scars of my past.
    I mark these parts for me to see,
    Not caring if I ruin myself.
    by Sarkastisk 21 lines, 10 comments, on Nov 16 5:38 PM 2008. In Angst, Abuse, Sad, Personal
    Silver trophy winner
    • Commented on by judge. [remove]
  3. 157 reminders
    When I wake up
    There they are
    by annesall235 28 lines, 4 comments, on Dec 1 8:00 PM 2008. In Angst, Pain, Depression, Teen issues
    Bronze trophy winner
    • Commented on by judge. [remove]
  4. My Scars Are My Intimate Friends
    Option 1: How do you deal with your scars? What a brave contest. So many people are cutting their bodies due to other peoples attitudes.
    by RareFlower 18 lines, 7 comments, on Nov 16 5:59 PM 2008. In Emo, Feelings, Free verse, Imagery, Memories, Personal, Sad, Thoughts
    Honorable mention
    • Commented on by judge. [remove]
  5. an almost everyday spree...
    you sit there thinking about your past and present...
    looking at your body
    by lianna27 47 lines, 22 comments, on Nov 16 8:31 PM 2008. In Life, Contest, Sad, Personal, Pain, Other, cutting, emo
    Honorable mention
    • Commented on by judge. [remove]
  6. memory lane not so sweet
    a look back in time
    shows pure simplicity to the mind
    by exithere 28 lines, 3 comments, on Nov 16 5:54 PM 2008
    Honorable mention
    • Commented on by judge. [remove]
  7. Slave To The Knife
    Stolen kitchenware screams undaunted;
    Promises broken and then forgotten.
    by angela. 22 lines, 20 comments, on Dec 1 3:52 PM 2008
    Honorable mention
    • Commented on by judge. [remove]
  8. Cut
    Red crimson tears
    Flowing down my arm
    by LOVELYmurder 34 lines, 12 comments, on Dec 2 8:54 PM 2008. In Other, Personal, Contest
    Honorable mention
    • Commented on by judge. [remove]
  9. Have You..Cuts of the Lie of a Life
    Have you ever woken,
    With your make-up running down your face?
    by ivans princess. 34 lines, 11 comments, on Nov 20 1:33 PM 2008. In Sad, Pain
    • Commented on by judge. [remove]

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  • adios muchachos gold member
    November 16, 2008
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    Dear Christina

    You are not going to know why you cut until you stop,
    I think.
    And I'm betting that by the time you are half way through you are not even going to be interested in the why-fore because you'll be so happy that you stopped.
    I don't know much about cutting. I've cut classes in school, cut corners to hurry, and even cut-a- rug (dance ) once or twice, and yes, even cut my wrist
    when someone broke up with me as a kid.
    It would take the worst pain in the world to make me do something like that. And that thing would be, in my estimation, would be to lose a child. Am I close?
    Just guessing! You guess a lot after 60 years old!LOL

    Good luck with your contest! Oh, and cut cards!
    I don't see your name among all the things that should be cut, do you?
    Put a little love in your heart.... that's what they're there for.

    Wish you luck.....and the MAGIK

    John




    • Lonely Christina
      November 17, 2008
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      lol thanks tht was pretty cute and ya i want to stop i just need encouragement and help sumtimes. u make good points! *hugs*


  • daviscth silver member
    November 16, 2008
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    Sending a and lots of love your way.


  • Immortal Obscurity gold member
    November 16, 2008
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    Hello, Christina

    While not a cutter myself, I've written as one many times, and to be completely honest with you, it was the biggest eye-opener ever... I think I get it now.

    I don't believe that it's wrong at all; it's a survival-method, and there's nothing wrong with wanting to live. I truly believe that, with the right amount of willpower and a supportive group of friends, you CAN throw away the blade for good; sometimes, knowing that you're not alone can make all the difference.

    I'm in the midst of organizing an event at work for self-harm awareness, and you can bet that I'll be manning the front lines in head-to-toe orange I'm no psychologist (yet), but I will be here for you in any way I can.

    Take care of yourself, my dear friend.

    ♥

    • Lonely Christina
      November 17, 2008
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      good thts really good that you understand! omg exactly i wish i had sumone here to just stop me from cutting...i stopped cuttin 4 awhile then i got my cell fone shut off and tht was my support system like when i got upset id call sumone but when i culdnt i started cutting again.

      thanks! i still got my orange bracelets on

      • Immortal Obscurity gold member
        November 17, 2008
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        Sorry to hear that, sweetie... If you ever feel like hurting yourself, PLEASE talk to me

        I'll have to find some orange bracelets myself


  • lianna27
    November 16, 2008
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    o sweetie u know u can talk to me whenever.. but i know when in that kinda mood most of us dont wanna talk..but im still here for u..im srry but ya ur leg looks like mine and my side..i am feeling so ashamed of them and i cant hardly staand to look at them w/o starting to feel upset with myself..
    i loves u lots!!
    ...plz promise me u will try not to go to deep that it will seriously injure u tho....
    -lianna

    • Lonely Christina
      November 17, 2008
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      yea i do kno hun. awwww im sry i wish the scars would just disappear sumtimes..i love you too cutie! and yea i promise..i allready had a scare when i went to deep so im more careful now.


  • DinkyDiver gold member
    November 16, 2008
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    shame pre writes are not allowed i got a few good ens :-( I may come back if I can think of something fresh:-) xx


    • Lonely Christina
      November 17, 2008
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      i mite open 4 prewrites closer to when the contest ends. but ya sumthing fresh would be nice


  • Kitsune Kyuuketsuki
    November 18, 2008
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    the way you talk about your scars sounds as if you're using them as a trophy of sorts.


    • Lonely Christina
      November 18, 2008
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      ya cuz i sorta am.

      • Kitsune Kyuuketsuki
        November 19, 2008
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        it's not supposed to be a trophy.
        you're bragging about them, basically, that's not how you're going to make people pity you.
        I've got at least 1000 on my two arms, and adding the ones from my legs would make it over 5000.
        but who cares?
        i'm past that.
        it's not a trophy, it's a reminder of how stupid i was, it's a reminder of the child i lost, it's a reminder.
        A reminder of things i should have changed when i had the chance, but now it's too late, and i'm not gonna get any better.
        i'm tired of watching children squander things like this.
        *shakes head*

        • Lonely Christina
          November 19, 2008
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          umm sure it is. its my prize from suffering so much and being able to deal with the pain in my own way. fuck you i dont need pity i only want recognition for the people that do cut. oh good 4 u the number of cuts doesnt even matter.

          • Kitsune Kyuuketsuki
            November 19, 2008
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            then re-read your contest.
            "I have over 25 scars on my legs alone...then a few on my arms."
            wah wah wah.
            go swivel, you insolent child.

            • Lonely Christina
              November 19, 2008
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              umm i wasnt fuckn complain u stupid bitch....not my fault u lost a child or have tht many cuts and im sry 4 tht but u dont have to go around judging other ppl or fuckn starting a fight. screw off

            • Dragor
              December 2, 2008
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              How dare you speak to people like that, when you no only too well, how much this hurts inside, keep your unwanted comments to yourself, you insencitive bastard!!!!!, I feel only great courage to each and everyone who is fighting their evil's I have harmed for over 20 years, and my scars are what makes me real.........
              Christina please do not bother argueing , they don't understand and most of all DON'T CARE.........
              Stay true and safe


  • peridotPixi
    November 19, 2008
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    no matter how many cuts you have or the issues you have to deal with everyday you know that I'm here for you and that I will always love you your wifey ~Amy


  • XMISERABLExHAVOCx
    December 1, 2008
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    awwwwwwwww you should allow prewrites... pretty please? i have the perfect prewrite...

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