That is a picture of me and my sister when putting my sons ashes to sea. The numbers on our shirts were my sons motocross race numbers and we all have them on our cars and lots of shirts.
Hi everyone, it seems as though the trauma is just not ending for me. People that know me know my son died on Sept. 16, 2007 just a little over 9 months ago. Now my brother is dying any day from cancer at the age of only 48. Watching him deteriorate has been very difficult and fast. I'm having horrible visions of finding my son dead and I just can't see my brother dead to. The despair and depression I feel is so unbareable. I'm suffering from confusion and hope, questioning life, death, Heaven, God.
People that know me know I'm a Christian and I've always been strong in my faith until I lost my son. There was a lot of trauma before he died as well for several years.
I'm at my wits end and sometimes feel as though I'm just not going to make it or end up in the Hospital.
So I'm asking for encouragement in my faith in a gentle, loving way. I'm so exhausted helping with my brother Pete everyday and all I can think of is he is going to be with my son and I can't stop grieving over losing my son, just 24 years old.
There is a lot more to my trauma, that I will not go into.
I need hope. I need hope that there will be a break from unending trauma and despair.
Please if you can help me with your brilliant words of wisdom and poetry so I can read them to help get through it would be greatly appreciated.
I have to suit up and show up for life everyday for my other 2 children and my brother and all I want to do is lay in bed, curl in a ball and just cry and I do sometimes, I feel like I'm just going to die from a shattered heart.
Thank you so much always,
Much Love and Appreciation
Kelle Marie
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Hi everyone, it seems as though the trauma is just not ending for me. People that know me know my son died on Sept. 16, 2007 just a little over 9 months ago. Now my brother is dying any day from cancer at the age of only 48. Watching him deteriorate has been very difficult and fast. I'm having horrible visions of finding my son dead and I just can't see my brother dead to. The despair and depression I feel is so unbareable. I'm suffering from confusion and hope, questioning life, death, Heaven, God.
People that know me know I'm a Christian and I've always been strong in my faith until I lost my son. There was a lot of trauma before he died as well for several years.
I'm at my wits end and sometimes feel as though I'm just not going to make it or end up in the Hospital.
So I'm asking for encouragement in my faith in a gentle, loving way. I'm so exhausted helping with my brother Pete everyday and all I can think of is he is going to be with my son and I can't stop grieving over losing my son, just 24 years old.
There is a lot more to my trauma, that I will not go into.
I need hope. I need hope that there will be a break from unending trauma and despair.
Please if you can help me with your brilliant words of wisdom and poetry so I can read them to help get through it would be greatly appreciated.
I have to suit up and show up for life everyday for my other 2 children and my brother and all I want to do is lay in bed, curl in a ball and just cry and I do sometimes, I feel like I'm just going to die from a shattered heart.
Thank you so much always,
Much Love and Appreciation
Kelle Marie
stavykm
Contest is Over
- Contest was judged on June 27, 2008
- Rewards: Gold: 500, Silver: 300, Bronze: 100, Honorable mention: 37 people
- Final notes: I wanted to thank everybody for their love, support and compassion as I have been struggling so much. These poems I hold dear to my heart and will cherish for always. So much love and encouragement in which I will always be able to read and not feel so alone.
I just pray to God to make it through this year and for the joy within me and compassion and love I hold inside will out pour onto all of you when you need it too. For I'm really a giver but have had to reach out so much for help and it is humbling that is for sure.
Masterpiece Gold
Through The Valleys Silver
My Daughter Bronze
Now there were so many poems here that deserved gold for everyones loving hearts are golden and I could feel your hearts outpouring with love and compassion. It's been the hardest to judge a contest when everyone is so beautifully kind and writing with their loving hearts and souls. Please know that you are all winners and that all the poems after the top 5 are in no particular order.
May God bless you richly with the many blessings that come from being who you are.
Thank you again!!
Much Love Always
Kelle Marie
Contest Winners
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I love you as I love my son, Jesus.
You are my daughter in whom I am well pleased.
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Death does not steal our loved one away,
Nor does he forbid us to ever see their smiling faces again.by Spiritual Nature 12 lines, 10 comments, on Jun 21 7:33 AM 2008. In Angst, Contemporary, Contest, Hope, Love, Life, Pain, Personal, Sad, Society
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Lord Jesus lay Your hand upon hear heart as I do in my small way
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Sending love and prayers your way...Hang in there, you will find piece and faith in life once more...
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Thank you so very much for your love and prayers, I so do need them.
Wishing you many blessings,
Much Love
Kelle Marie
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I'll try this weekend to come up with something but today is another long work day so I promise to try...Love you sweetie!!!
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I love you to Toni. You are so loving and have been such a great support to me.
Much Love Always
Kelle Marie
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I truly feel for all that you have been through and are going through. You are being sorely tested, but I will pray that your faith stays strong because sometimes that is all we have to pull us along (even when we would rather curl up in a ball and stay in bed.)
God Bless you!
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You are ever so kind and I appreciate your understanding and support during this very difficult time.
Wishing you many blessings.
Much Love
Kelle Marie
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My prayers are with you dear.
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Oh I so love you and my prayers are with you as well. Thank you for your friendship.
Wishing Many Blessings Always
Much Love
Kelle Marie
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I'll try, my friend. I feel for you. Unfortunately, I'll be away this weekend, so I may not be able to enter unless I can come up with something today or use my cousin's PC. -
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You are so very kind and thoughtful. Thank you for your support and I understand if you can't write a poem for I know you have been very supportive of me and I want to thank you for that.
Wishing You Many Blessings Always
Kelle Marie
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Hey. I am so sorry that you are having to go through all this pain... No one should have to go through this, but every day, someone somewhere is going through something similar... some worse than others... But think of it like this... it is God testing how much you love Him... He is seeing how close you really are to Him... That's how I viewed it when my friend Jacob died... Then my grandpa died, then a week after that, my mom was in the hospital... That was just God testing me... Just hang in there, keep up your head up. You will make it through... even if it seems like you won't or can't... You can and will make it through. I'm nto saying pretend nothing is going on, because that won't help... it'll hit you much harder in the end and yeah... Just stay strong... I'm sure that your son and brother would want you to stay strong... I'm sure your brother is wanting that.
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Oh what an understanding and heart felt comment. Yes it just doesn't make sense sometimes when your overloaded with so much trauma. Thank you very much for your loving support and encouragement. I look forward to the day I am better able to help others.
Wishing you many blessings
Kelle Marie
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Look at all this love hun lifting you up holding you
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Oh so sweet and I can feel your love and hugs with your ongoing support with my life these last several months. I look forward to the day that I can lift up others maybe even you.
Wishing many blessings always
Kelle Marie
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i am so sorry about your loss. i will be praying for you and your family viyanna rosemarie
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Thank you so much for your prayers for my entire family. Yes we are all thrashed and grieving so deep. Thank you for dropping by with your loving encouragement.
Wishing you many blessings always
Kelle Marie
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Oh sis.. I wish I could pen you some spiritual words of comfort.. yet my faith is being sorely tested right now.. but please know that my thoughts and love are with you.. and I'm always here if you ever need!
love you!
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Oh I so love you to Jacks. Thank you for dropping by with your love and support my dear sweet AP sis. I so do understand what you also are going through, so please just know I just love your honesty. Your encouragement has been a blessings all through these last several months.
Wishing You Many Blessings Always
Your sis
Kelle Marie
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can you open for prewrites.. i have something to share with this contest that may help you in a anyway.. Godbless you.. have faith in Him and he will provide you your happiness...
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You are ever so kind. I wish you would send me the link to your poem that you feel would encourage and help me. So many people have already entered without prewrites so I feel it would be wrong for me to now open it up for prewrites. I'd love to read your poem very much. Thank you for your kind words of encouragement.
Wishing You Many Blessings Always
Kelle Marie
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http://allpoetry.com/poem/4352857 you may want to internalize with this poem... i hope it'l lhelp.. and this http://allpoetry.com/poem/4338435
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When Dark Night Knocks
When dark night knocks
Then knocks again
And you find
In time
You’re just too small to hold the door
Against all the weeping pouring in
And covering the floor…
Be still,
Be still,
Sit and weep
And let the flood disrupt your sleep
And let the One who loves you most
Take you to His breast
Where there is rest
And calm at last
And storms and storms of pain can pass
As you rest and weep
And let the flood disrupt your sleep
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Oh I'm just weeping this morning so hard. It is exhausting.
And let the One who loves you most
Take you to His breast
Where there is rest
And calm at last
This is very kind and I can't wait for the rest and calmness from all this weeping. I know he is there but my brother is going to die anytime. Then I miss my son so bad it's only been 9 months and it would have been his birthday next month. I have to go tend to my brother and mother soon so I need to get ready and try to function one more day.
Thank you for your loving compassion
Wishing you many blessings
Much Love
Kelle Marie
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Thank you for the silver. Congratulations to all the winners
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It is so beautiful to see how many people care in our lives and I am so happy your contest results were a great show of support that we all need at times. My best thoughts of recovery for you my dear friend knowing your prayers will be answered. Blessings and prayers, Don
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Thank You My Friend
I appreciate the honorable mention. It did not matter is I won anything. I wanted to bring some comfort to a hurting friend. I hope all these entries might uplift your sorrow just a little. You take careand know how many care about you here.You are in my prayers.
Blessings to you and your family.
Sandy
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CONGRATULATIONS TO ALL THE OTHER WINNERS
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