Well, I'm back...kind of. I was scared to visit the site and I'm not sure why. I was in IP (for my eating disorder and anxiety, bipolar...the list goes on) for 9 weeks, but have not logged in for almost 3 months since then. I feel like I have no inspiration...just nothing, nothing.
I want something to add to my blog, but I can't find words. Natural flowing Stream of Conscious, slant rhyme with a beat and a dash of dirty pretty would be PERFECT. This is NOt a letter to HIM, it's me talking...but actually YOU, haha.
My relationship with my boyfriend was such a dead end is so many ways. I finally got fed up(reasonably!) and severed it. There was just nothing left...I FELT. I did some stupid, drama queen, spiteful things. He...very uncharacteristically...hasn't contacted me since.
***HE IS A 'GOOD GUY'...just going nowhere, deadweight. DOESN'T UNDERSTAND, DOESN'T CARE TO. DOESN't MOVE ON/GROW UP, DOESN'T CARE TO... SO I DROPPED HIM but am GRIEVING and the PHANTASM of past quixotic TIMES....EVERYWHERE****
I CANNOT STAND THE MEMORIES!!!!! ...I want to erase them....
I've lost 20 lbs. since I left the hospital.
My friends have all turned their backs on me or STABBED mine while it was turned. The blood feels so hot as it runs down my back.
I've made horrible choices, lied, disregarded all that is healthy, proactive, and progressive for my future.
I feel just CARVED OUT. Empty...nothing, just nothing.
Just want whatever inspires you. Pre-writes are fine...but if they are all a bunch of random ones that don't reACH TO ME, I'll axe that option. Just give me stuff. Please.
I want something to add to my blog, but I can't find words. Natural flowing Stream of Conscious, slant rhyme with a beat and a dash of dirty pretty would be PERFECT. This is NOt a letter to HIM, it's me talking...but actually YOU, haha.
My relationship with my boyfriend was such a dead end is so many ways. I finally got fed up(reasonably!) and severed it. There was just nothing left...I FELT. I did some stupid, drama queen, spiteful things. He...very uncharacteristically...hasn't contacted me since.
***HE IS A 'GOOD GUY'...just going nowhere, deadweight. DOESN'T UNDERSTAND, DOESN'T CARE TO. DOESN't MOVE ON/GROW UP, DOESN'T CARE TO... SO I DROPPED HIM but am GRIEVING and the PHANTASM of past quixotic TIMES....EVERYWHERE****
I CANNOT STAND THE MEMORIES!!!!! ...I want to erase them....
I've lost 20 lbs. since I left the hospital.
My friends have all turned their backs on me or STABBED mine while it was turned. The blood feels so hot as it runs down my back.
I've made horrible choices, lied, disregarded all that is healthy, proactive, and progressive for my future.
I feel just CARVED OUT. Empty...nothing, just nothing.
Just want whatever inspires you. Pre-writes are fine...but if they are all a bunch of random ones that don't reACH TO ME, I'll axe that option. Just give me stuff. Please.
Contest is Over
- Contest was judged on June 8, 2008
- Rewards: Gold: 400, Silver: 100, Bronze: 50, Honorable mention: 2 people
- Final notes: Congrats to all
Contest Winners
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Those words spoken so freely
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Silver trophy winner
Honorable mention
Entries [13]
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Pain smells like old blood Pain throbs like a flashing floodby mindpoet 20 lines, 2 comments, on Apr 20 5:29 AM 2008• Viewed by judge.
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It was the Valentines Ball
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Bathe me in holy waterby Lady Nightshade 38 lines, 10 comments, on Mar 28 5:16 PM 2008. In Lyrics, Dark, Contemporary, Love, Pain, Thoughts• Viewed by judge. Prewrite
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How has thee fallen?
drowning the world...by Audric Beaumont 90 lines, 15 comments, on Oct 6 4:30 PM 2007• Viewed by judge. Prewrite
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Extended...
I have extended the contest until Sunday, and have re-allowed for pre-writes. However, I AM SAD that I did not get any original entries after disallowing them. Well, just bring your best, I may add more points and/or bonus points for winning pieces that are original. They don't have to be long, technically profound, etc. Just GIVE ME RAW!
BTW, we broke up.
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