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I said something to a friend that I wish I could take back because it was said in anger. I need to be absolved. That friend is not here at AP so, don't go looking for who I may have hurt. Help me out here.
Your prompt: "absolve"
"one is absolved of blame or responsibility but is acquitted of a charge, usually a crime"
I have committed no crime, but I am to blame for hurting someone with venomous words. Someone that I care for deeply. Help me to forgive myself. I hope they can forgive me but at this point it is more important that I forgive myself.
You have until Midnight.
No more than 10 lines
Only 20 poets
Please don't reserve a space unless you plan to come back with an entry
All the usual rules apply
No StiCKy CaPs
No profanity
No Chat Lingo
I can't think of much more
I need your help!
I feel like crap!
Contest is Over
- Contest was judged on November 28, 2007
- Rewards: Gold: 750, Silver: 500, Bronze: 250, Honorable mention: 8 people
- Final notes:
I would like to personally thank EVERYONE for their time. I also want to say Thank you for caring. Your words have helped me come from under this cloud I have been weighted down by. So much has happened in my life in the past few months. Joys and sorrows like a roller coaster. This most present event has had me depressed, blue, one mood swing after the other. All of you have helped bring me out of my stupor and I am ever grateful.
The greatest beauty in this contest for me is knowing that you too know. The first three winners in this challenge spoke to my heart with great clarity. I had to give honorable mention to those who did not place in the top three because you just as easily could have. It took me sometime to figure who should get what place but in my heart I knew everyone should have a place.
I extend a thousand Thank Yous to you all .
GOLD - "What we cannot take back, but will move past"
SILVER - "letting go"
BRONZE - "Humanity"
The HONORABLE MENTIONS are in no particular order. YOU ALL did equally well. Thank you ever so much for the love that pours from each poem.
Always ♥
Renee
Contest Winners
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Realization is a beginning,
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by ms-cuddles 13 lines, 4 comments, on Nov 27 7:42 PM 2007. In Pain, Thoughts, Life
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Our sharp tongued wordsby katzmeow13 9 lines, 1 comment, on Nov 27 9:57 PM 2007. In Personal, Love, Thoughts, Sad, Pain, Hope, My own style, Lost in thought, My life Honorable mention
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Not gonna enter the contest, but for you, I'll say something here, ok?
Something I've learned in the last couple years, is that while maybe those who hurt us can't take the words away, they can acknowledge the hurt.
In my life, that is so much more important than the words being retracted. Acknowledgement is absolution, it takes responsibility, it doesn't make excuses.
It says ... I am.
and if someone who hurt you looks at you and tells you they KNOW they hurt you, they know what they did, and they wish they could take it back, but they know that they can't ...
that is so powerful, renee.
so are you, and you acknowledge beautifully.
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Thank you!
I sent them an email with an apology. I have no excuse for the venom I spit out. I felt hurt and wanted to hurt back. I said some horrible things that I wish now I had not said. I feel like a ton of shit! I can't take the words back, they are in print. Very visible! I simply hope they forgive but greater than that, I am finding it hard to forgive myself because I could have cleaved my tongue and didn't. I'm always saying; "Much Love" and didn't show it this time.
Thanks again. Your words are as good, if not better than a poem my sister/friend.
Renee
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the fact that you know will be enough, I have a feeling about that.
as to forgiving yourself...what advice would you give someone else?
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My advice: Suffer a little then let it go.
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lol, stubborn
suffer until the contest is over
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She will stop once I am finished regardless if I do complete an entry or not. This I know for a fact for I know she would do the same for me and thus I can only do in return for my mom what I know she would do for me
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Not fair! You know what it's about!
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Damn right I do and I have already had this discussion with you. Guess we go one more round about it then?
I will do what I do best Mom and I don't mean write poetry.
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I ain't answering my phone.
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No need to answer mom. I will end this here tonight in this contest. You will know my piece without a doubt, but know it WILL end here
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Ohhhhh Don't I know it!
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Love you Mom!
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I love YOU more!
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That is good to know
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LOL Indeed, very stubborn!
K! Until the contest is done.
I can't take too many more self-beatings. LOL
Love YOU ♥
Renee
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you too
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My own worse enemy. ~Sigh~ The killing thing is, I measure my hurt to be less than theirs. When I hurt too.
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of course you do, you're a mom, a sister, ... a woman
it's part of who we are. some strange instinct we are born with. my housemate and i classify it martyrdom, but i think it may actually be more than that.
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I stood up for myself but I didn't have to be so nasty. I hate it when I allow people to bring out the worst in me. It's my own personal issue, I know that. I'm too cool around the edges, LOL and I allowed my vunerability to show. I don't like it when I do that.
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lol
*hands you a vulnerability mask*
Just make sure it's somewhre I can find it when I need to hide my own
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Thought you saw I was already wearing one.
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Girlie, you are one of the most caring touching souls I have come to know....we all make mistakes....and am sure your intentions are good....I too have been hurtful at times with my reaactionary big mouth....I am a work in progress...here are zzz for you to help you with all that bruising you are getting from beating yourself up...I love you!!
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Thanks Julie
Whenever I need encouragement I can count on my friends to help me out.
I have many faults and yes I too am a work in progress. It's just that when I step out of myself (not that I am perfect, far from it...) I really don't like it. I meant what I said when I said it for sure but looking back makes me think I could have been a bit more like a lady instead of a freaking sailor.
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Bless your heart Sweetie. Just go to your friend and tell her how you feel. A real friend will understand, we all cross lines in anger. The fact that it is bothering you so much says a lot about your character. Write her a poem
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I think I'll just let it lie for a while. I hurt them bad, but they hurt me too. Maybe time will heal the wounds. ~Sigh~ It's draining me and I do have to let it go. I have so much to do. Ive been through enough pain from family deaths, and illnesses that I can't take on much more. I do hope the friendship can outweigh this particular pain.
Thank you sweet woman. The comments are such a help. I know the poetry is going to make me spill over with tears. I am about there now.
I love YOU ♥
Renee
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Well, I love you too. Now you made me all mushy.
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Please don't cry!
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Please don't hurt...
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that's exactly why I need to be absolved.
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Hope you get some great entries.
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Yours would be GREAT!
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Give me ten Hail Mary's... There. You're absolved.
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A lesser friend wouldn't have cared for the words that were said...and definately wouldn't have reflected so harshly as you have done to yourself. Renee, sometimes things are said that hurt, but as we know that we go through these things to grow. All I can say is if these things HAD to be said, then now is the time for you to show an increase of love toward her. For we love the person, not the crime. Look how much forgiveness we get on a daily basis from our Heavenly Father!
Did you know, that if you can't forgive yourself, then you are saying "Jesus, I know you sacrificed yourself for me, but I can handle this one alone..." Puts things into better perspective hey?
I'm not preaching...I'm just saying that yes, you have caused pain, but you have shown remose, have sought forgiveness, so forgive yourself. Forget it. Heavenly Father has. As for your friend...that will come in time.
HUGS!!! I don't know how many times I have been in this situation myself. My mouth takes over and WHAM I'm back in the jail of regret. Guh!
Love you!!! Hope this helps!
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I will not thank you for this award but rather thank you for finally seeing the truth and awarding YOURSELF the forgivemess you owe to yourself.
'To err is human; to forgive is divine.' - I do not remember who spoke these words but they are filled with more truth than anyone could possibly imagine.
It's always easier to forgive another than to forgive yourself so I say Congrats to you for allowing yourself to forgive you!
Love you Mom
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Awwwww Grandma
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I am not up to writing anything about forgiveness right now. I am dealing with my own forgiveness issues right now. I have told someone I don't know if I can ever forgive them for what they did. I know I have to - but that anger and self rightousness - it is hard to get past. I hope you can get some comfort and support in the poems written here.
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Dear Sister,
I too hope that you can find it in your heart to forgive. The weight of the world lies in forgiveness. It's even harder to let go when we know we are just in our dealings. More so than when we are unjust! I will keep you close to my heart and in my prayers. Resentment sits in our minds and pays no room and board, yet it dwells there until it festers, and leaves the person holding it with a lifetime of unresolved issues. Let it go! You'll be all the better for it, the bigger person. The words I just wrote to you I am trying desperately to take to heart myself.
Love You Muchly ♥
Renee
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Oh I know. I do not want the resentment to settle in here and take up residence. But right now I have got so much to deal with. I have had to write that person off and tell them not to contact me. I did not want to do it, but I can not take their drama anymore, and I can not take what they do to the people in their life, me included. I am not sure that what I have to do is forgive as much as let go. I do not hate them - I am frustrated with them, and it angers me the mess they have created in the past two weeks, and then just walked away and left it for someone else to deal with, and left others totally high and dry because of broken promises. But I will deal with it, pray about it and eventually be able to put it behind me and let it go. It will take time.
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