OK I'm through with love, I really am. It's pissing me off to no end and quite frankly, it's all so fucking fake. OK so my boyfriend called me the other day to tell me the reason he was ignoring me was because he really was depressed and tried to kill himself. Then of course he said that we should not be together [so I guess he's not my boyfriend, oh well] and then he said he still cares about me and wants to be with me one of these days, when he feels better. He has a shoulder that is disjointed and he is gradually losing his sight. I thought, 'sure, what he said is alright and I'm worried about him now'. So I did something I never do the other day - I prayed. I prayed for him like nothing else ever mattered. I was willing to tell everyone the truth, that I love him and I always will. I'd never have done that for anyone else, ever.
Now, one of my good mates and my boyfriend [oops sorry, ex] as well Stu, has told me differently. Where Karl told me, 'I haven't talked to anyone expect family since we last talked two weeks ago' Stu got a phone call from him. Then, since he's been back down his flat he's had Stu over to his house, downloading music. OK it's not that I'm not with him and Stu is, it really isn't. It's the lying, telling me one thing and then the truth being another, that's not fair. While I was worrying my little fucking ass off about him, he was having a nice laugh with Stu. Doesn't he realise what he does to me? Doesn't he realise he's my life and that quite frankly I'd shoot a guy just to keep him happy?
Look I'm hurt, I'm really hurt alright. If you read this all and don't give a fuck, that's fine. Whatever, shut your mouth and don't leave a comment. If you leave a rude comment? - I'll bad mouth you and block you. Simple as. Constructive criticism/ideas of what I should do to make my life better, what to ask him or how to be, I'm more than happy to get. BUT rudeness and, 'why should I give a fuck about your life' wont put you on my good books, I'll assure you and normally it's oh so hard to piss me off, trust me. I don't hurt real bad and ask for advice often, trust me. I don't shout, swear and threaten often. I don't feel the pain I do now often, but I am now. I need you... I need someone...
OK rules::
1. Prewrites? none prewrites? Fine with me.
2. 2 entries [or 1] per poet.
3. Swearing? Go the fuck ahead.
4. Label correctly, kiddos.
5. Have a shit time ;o
Options / Ideas
1. Write about what a guy has done that has hurt you the most in a relationship. Did he cheat on you, lie to you about something, ignore you, or just not tell you how he felt?
2. Get back at someone whos hurt you. Describe and / or do [in your poem] what you'd like to do to them in real life.
3. Write something specifically for my situation. Want more details? Check out recent poetry of mine [don't have to comment] or message me for details.
4. Write about how I shouldn't give up on love. Write me something that should make me feel the love and the hope, or how he may not be evil, horrible and unloving towards me after all [if this option works I'll give you 300 points on the spot, even if your grammar and language sucks].
Points / trophies? Be fucking patient. If you're good, you'll get something. If your shit, you wont. End of. Period.
That's about it.
Do your worst, or best.
I don't care =]
Contest is Over
- Contest was judged on October 2, 2007
- Rewards: Gold: 300
- Final notes: Thanks for the heartfelt (and broken) entries.
Love you all in some way or form.
Good luck with your lost loves and hearts, lets beat lightly together.
Love and hope to see you all around the site!
Contest Winners
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You held me so close, / crumping my fears into nothingness. / You wiped the tears away, / even when it was something my fault. / You pulled• Commented on by judge. Prewrite [remove]
- Error: Unable to find finalist item 3434474, it seems to have been deleted :( [remove]
Gold trophy winner
Silver trophy winner
Entries [13]
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I'll fake a simple smile make it all seem okby Forgot2Breathe 69 lines, 2 comments, on Sep 24 7:43 PM 2007• Commented on by judge. Prewrite
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When I reached out… My hand touched nothing….by JOSHv3 43 lines, 2 comments, on Sep 30 8:18 PM 2007• Commented on by judge.
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So he is a jerk A loser, a liarby crosscountry07 37 lines, 6 comments, on Sep 30 7:55 PM 2007• Commented on by judge.
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you've become but a shadow,
lost in my dreams.
i needed forgivness,by across the universe 16 lines, 5 comments, on Aug 13 8:34 PM 2007• Commented on by judge. Prewrite -
you tell me im beautiful / a joy in your life / you tell me u care / and one day i will be a great wife / you make me feel special / like something soo rare / but / you build me up wit• Commented on by judge. Prewrite
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We have said goodbye many times before,
And yet it was you I continue to adore.by brokenblonde 47 lines, 2 comments, on Sep 10 4:11 PM 2007• Commented on by judge. Prewrite -
In the past I know, your heart has been torn in two• Commented on by judge.
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You shot an arrow right through my heart
and it was love at first sight• Commented on by judge.
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I know how you're feeling. My last relationship was one that I was serious about. I'd have done anything for her, too bad she said the same things and didn't mean it. From all the evidence she's left, it also seems she not only lied to me a whole fucking lot, but she used me too. I guess it must not be hard for people to pretend to be head-over-heels for their best friends to get what they want. *sigh* I've felt like shit ever since, and my poetry has reflected the darkness. If you wanna talk, I'll pipe in too. I always listen. Good luck with him.
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Damn I just pushed enter to enter my poem ... but someone got to it before I did ... oh well .. I'm sure you've read my ramblings many times before lol ... good luck judging this my lady
Love ya
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OMG!!!! Thanks for the gold!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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