I want suicide.
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The doctor came in the morning
She held my hand
And asked "was it worth it?
Could it be worse than this?
Please recall
Give me a hint
Anything will do
If this was the last time now you should tell us what to do"
-I was afraid I guess
Now I can't think no more
I was so concentrated
On keeping things together
I've learned to focus on I didn't want to disappoint
Now where is everybody?
Is it still light outside?
[-the knife]
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[don't be dumb please. I most likely won't DQ, but I will ignore.]
I want to feel you leaving.
Floating...
*NOTE
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Upon request, I'm saying how I feel. So if you receive a less-than-desirable comment from me, don't take it personally-- you're not the only one. It's just...
you broke my only rule.
[[photo credit: via Deviant Art]]
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The doctor came in the morning
She held my hand
And asked "was it worth it?
Could it be worse than this?
Please recall
Give me a hint
Anything will do
If this was the last time now you should tell us what to do"
-I was afraid I guess
Now I can't think no more
I was so concentrated
On keeping things together
I've learned to focus on I didn't want to disappoint
Now where is everybody?
Is it still light outside?
[-the knife]
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[don't be dumb please. I most likely won't DQ, but I will ignore.]
I want to feel you leaving.
Floating...
*NOTE
:
Upon request, I'm saying how I feel. So if you receive a less-than-desirable comment from me, don't take it personally-- you're not the only one. It's just...
you broke my only rule.
[[photo credit: via Deviant Art]]
Contest is Over
- Contest was judged on August 15, 2007
- Rewards: Gold: 700, Silver: 500, Bronze: 300, Honorable mention: 12 people
- Final notes: Thank you each and everyone for entering (I mean that). There were so many heartfelt and painful pieces, and it was EXTREMELY hard to narrow it down.
I'm pleased with the results though:
1. Solstice -- full of sound and reality
2. Message in a Bottle-- like the weeping wind
3. Submerge-- extremely well-written
HMs-- you all were so close to trophies, and it's times like this when I want to kick AP for not being able to give out, say 5 of each gold, silver, bronze, etc.
4. Mandatory
5. Delirium
6. Exhale
7. Edge
8. angel on ||dizzy wires||
9. white fear.
10. Everything Unwritten
11. The Gravity of Freedom
12. Living with depression: A woman's journal page
13. Bye, o' Tex...... knowledge? Gee.
14. fallen sheets.
(I don't know where # 15 is... it says there are 15 pre-lims..
but okay.)
you each had your own unique spin on such a general and touchy topic
I encourage you all, "winners" or not, to read and re-read all the finalists. it's beautiful writing. and well worth the points.
Although I've hosted more personal contests,
this one spoke to me the most.
Contest Winners
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celtic legend –
walk druid into vanished time,by Macey Muse 58 lines, 14 comments, on Dec 20 5:26 PM 2006. In Personal, Society
Gold trophy winner
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by forbidden-colour 26 lines, 7 comments, on Jul 18 3:18 PM 2007. In Dirty pretty.
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“You know how they say once you've hit the lowest place to go there's nowhere left to go but up? That's a lie; sure you can't go down but yby Hell In Harmony 6 lines, 18 comments, on Jul 8 5:24 PM 2007. In Love, Other, Pain, Personal, Sad, Thoughts, Life, Angst Honorable mention
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by Blkwidow77 111 lines, 30 comments, on Feb 22 10:13 PM 2007. In Contemporary, Personal, Sad Honorable mention
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I’ve stood there for hours / On the edge of that cliff... / I go there every morning / And smell the air swift... / I close my eyes and fee• Commented on by judge.
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silly dragonfly... / thinking, she could do it again / with such a simple mind / too scared to stay anywhere / very long / too beaten down to / keep getting u• Commented on by judge.
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Kiss me softly and close your eyes / against the harsh realities of this dark night / for your butterfly wants to float away / Sleep and dream of ice-cream stripped sunsets / and colourful wings on warmby AngelsDemise 20 lines, 10 comments, on Jul 4 2:07 AM 2007. In Angst, Pain, Other, Nature, Dark, Sad, Thoughts• Commented on by judge.
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I finally set a task I could accomplish, / 2 grams of coke and a new box of razors,/Gasoline up the nose and steel on the veinsby Nobody Royale 24 lines, 30 comments, on Jun 13 1:12 PM 2007. In Death, My life, Depression, Anger, Suicide, Self, Contest, Hate, Drugs• Commented on by judge. Prewrite
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Rain hide my tears, my pain, my agonyby Kia Tenshi 49 lines, 6 comments, on Jul 15 10:49 PM 2007. In dark, emo, cuicide, sad, depression, deep in though, pain, love• Commented on by judge.
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So bad the pain. / Why bother with it? / Release into the sweet abyss. / Let go of dreams and hopes. / No one cares. Why bother / with the• Commented on by judge. Prewrite
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I can still hear their voices / [muffled] / and there are footstepsby cherche -d -ame 49 lines, 8 comments, on Jul 20 3:27 AM 2007. In Contest entry, Dark, Other, Sad, Society, Freewrite, Abstract, Suicide• Commented on by judge.
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Emotionless, upon that of a flood,
Anger crept through, as I see my own blood.
~moments, days later~I awaken~~by PassionsPromise 51 lines, 2 comments, on Jul 20 6:55 PM 2007. In suicide, hope, frustration, sadness, pain.....• Commented on by judge. -
Heavy breathing, crushing weight. / Sobs of despair, tears of hate. / Silent mourning, aching heart, / A pain too bearable, / The outcome too harsh. / “I knew she was hurting, why didn’t I try? / You can’t blby nonplus 42 lines, 1 comment, on Jul 20 9:35 PM 2007• Commented on by judge.
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Bleeding back again, / leaking life into this / dull emotionless existance. / Determined to find / enjoyment in select / moments of time /by Tamera 23 lines, 2 comments, on May 27 6:38 PM 2007• Commented on by judge. Prewrite
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A pen. / A piece of paper. / I have no idea what to write... / I think about all the things I'm feeling, / I begin to write, / I've got it...its perfect! / I read through it, / Every line, / Every word, / Isby xSweetDreamsx 43 lines, 3 comments, on Jul 30 12:00 PM 2007• Commented on by judge. Prewrite
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This world of our sucks, its slowly falling apart / Iam just a teenager, I didnt have a hope from the start / the drugs the pain the horror, its all part of life / How can we grow up normal, with all the wars we fightby trace3grls 15 lines, 3 comments, on Jul 11 1:52 AM 2007• Commented on by judge. Prewrite
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My love is the paraphernalia you threw at the wall.• Commented on by judge.
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Into my skin...but there's no painby Jai Guru Deva 19 lines, 12 comments, on Apr 11 3:41 PM 2007. In Love• Commented on by judge. Prewrite -
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The c.d. skips. and it was just getting to the best part.by Weetzie bat 33 lines, 2 comments, on Aug 6 6:53 PM 2007• Commented on by judge.
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Thoughts of quiet suicide, there I fall to Rote, bitter ritual, regurgitated crimesby Deacon Kane 10 lines, 1 comment, on Aug 7 12:53 AM 2007. In Thoughts• Commented on by judge.
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thought has crossed my mind recently ... and no, it isn't glamourous, I want help.
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same here.
its actually been crossing my mind a bit too much. i've gotten help plenty of times; but it never really stuck to me...
psych wards are usually just a way to fake it out of there b/c its so damn horrible in there.
ill see if i can enter something doll -
deffo going to enter.
had a little brush with it last week.
so it will provoke something.
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sounds like an interesting challenge -
I have alot, but they suck, alwell, it's not very glamoruse when you are actually experinceing it, or have tried it over twenty times, no it's not glmorus at all.
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Okay, I'm sure I'll enter this. Just gotta wait till my next breakdown to [hopefully] write something good. I love you Crash♥
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entering soon.
i got one paragraph for prose done..
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A Drag
I just don't want to leave a mess --
that is my main concern.
I'd paddle out to Eagle's Nest
and jump off of the stern
of someone's boat if someone else
did not have to retrieve it
and drag the lake for my dumb sake --
can someone just please leave it?
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yeah I know, I love it! I found it on google images... but it's originally from deviantart.com. Unfortunately I can't remember the person's username that posted it on deviantart.com and every time I try to find it again, it says I have to be logged in.
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This contest is beautiful. To find the serenity in the thoughts of suicide. To find it not as a butchery, but as secluded escape.
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I'm going to enter, but I have 1 question. You don't say not to, but what are your thoughts on multiple entries...I wouldn't post them all, but lol...but most of mine deal with suicide. Am I to narrow it down to one, or a few?
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I don't mind however many times you want to enter-- there's no written limit...... haha, just don't be ridiculous.
a few would be good. [now I'm excited!]
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Thank you so much for the silver! I loved the contest, it was beautiful.
lots of love
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