I would like you to write about the lessons that you've learned throughout your life. The hard knocks of realizing how when push comes to shove, you are all that you have to rely on.
It's a hard day when you realize that the people who surround you, whether it be family or friends, are only there when THEY need you. I have just recently lost my best friends, my niece and my best friend of 22 years... I am moving out of State and had invited my best friend of 22 years to come with me and my family... My niece and her have been hanging out lately, and come to find out, my niece persuaded her to stay behind because she told her how unreliable I was and put the ideas in her head that she couldn't depend on me to be there for her during this move. It's funny how my niece has always told me that I was the most dependable, reliable person in her life. When push comes to shove, I think my niece filled her head full of this shit because she (my niece) didn't want to loose her new friend (my best friend), and it was totally out of selfishness in which she spoke derrogatory about me. I have always been there for the both of them throughout the 22 years for my best friend, and the 27 years for my niece when they needed me the most. I have jumped through hoops and sacrificed a lot in my life for them, and this is the thanks that I get.
I guess, in essence, I want poetry regarding how to cope with the fact that everyone that I have trusted and loved in my life has ultimately either left me, shit on me, or just don't talk to me any longer. If any of you know me, and some of you do, you know that I am not the type of person who is rude or selfish. I am, at the least, a push over that constantly gets left behind. No matter what the relationship is, be it with men or women, I have never had ANYONE who has always had my back. I am feeling really alone and it's really looking grim on trusting anyone any time soon.
I am facing the dilema of explaining this to my 8 year old son, who is more like 15 in maturity (mentally)... How can I prepare him to not be a push over like me and not to trust in everyone? It's just such a sad day when you think that you are receiving unconditionality from an individual and then you find out that they're only in it for their best interest, not yours and theirs combined.
Moreover, how do I either:
1) Learn to live without the relationships that I long for?
or
2) Learn to take down the walls in which have been put up around my heart and learn to trust again... and if you pick this option to write about, tell me why I should tear down the walls.. (not, just because it's healthy, seriously... a reason that will make sense to an overthinker, analitical person like me
Thanks for your entries... Good luck to all of you...
P.S. Keep in mind that I am not a loner.. I long for companionship and friendship... I need a support system in my life, but at this rate, I am alone.
Rules:
1. No sticky caps or chat lingo please.. it bores me.
2. Please put the quote "A new leaf" in your author notes, just so I know that you read my rant.
3. If you write something that is way off the charts and I feel that it's not related to these issues, I will DQ you automatically (with explaination, of course
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4. I will comment on the poems in which I feel that best fit the issue at hand, the others that may relate in some vague way may not be commented on.
5. If you have questions, please message me.. even though this is an anonomous contest, I will not give any preferential treatment to anyone... I really need the best advice here regardless of if I know you, like you, or whatever.
6. I will extend this contest if I do not get what I am looking for...
Thanks again to all of you... I'm anxious to see what this conjures up
UPDATE: I've extended this contest to try and get some more entries I really would like everyone's opinion on this matter... So I guess I'll extend this one until I get 'em... Sorry to those of you that have entered already, and thank you for your entries, they've all been a good take on this issue... but I really need more entries Hang in there... Lots of luck and patience ... Thanks.
Update: 6/3/07... Open to prewrites now... need more entries... I know you guys have what it takes... give it to me
It's a hard day when you realize that the people who surround you, whether it be family or friends, are only there when THEY need you. I have just recently lost my best friends, my niece and my best friend of 22 years... I am moving out of State and had invited my best friend of 22 years to come with me and my family... My niece and her have been hanging out lately, and come to find out, my niece persuaded her to stay behind because she told her how unreliable I was and put the ideas in her head that she couldn't depend on me to be there for her during this move. It's funny how my niece has always told me that I was the most dependable, reliable person in her life. When push comes to shove, I think my niece filled her head full of this shit because she (my niece) didn't want to loose her new friend (my best friend), and it was totally out of selfishness in which she spoke derrogatory about me. I have always been there for the both of them throughout the 22 years for my best friend, and the 27 years for my niece when they needed me the most. I have jumped through hoops and sacrificed a lot in my life for them, and this is the thanks that I get.
I guess, in essence, I want poetry regarding how to cope with the fact that everyone that I have trusted and loved in my life has ultimately either left me, shit on me, or just don't talk to me any longer. If any of you know me, and some of you do, you know that I am not the type of person who is rude or selfish. I am, at the least, a push over that constantly gets left behind. No matter what the relationship is, be it with men or women, I have never had ANYONE who has always had my back. I am feeling really alone and it's really looking grim on trusting anyone any time soon.
I am facing the dilema of explaining this to my 8 year old son, who is more like 15 in maturity (mentally)... How can I prepare him to not be a push over like me and not to trust in everyone? It's just such a sad day when you think that you are receiving unconditionality from an individual and then you find out that they're only in it for their best interest, not yours and theirs combined.
Moreover, how do I either:
1) Learn to live without the relationships that I long for?
or
2) Learn to take down the walls in which have been put up around my heart and learn to trust again... and if you pick this option to write about, tell me why I should tear down the walls.. (not, just because it's healthy, seriously... a reason that will make sense to an overthinker, analitical person like me
Thanks for your entries... Good luck to all of you...
P.S. Keep in mind that I am not a loner.. I long for companionship and friendship... I need a support system in my life, but at this rate, I am alone.
Rules:
1. No sticky caps or chat lingo please.. it bores me.
2. Please put the quote "A new leaf" in your author notes, just so I know that you read my rant
.3. If you write something that is way off the charts and I feel that it's not related to these issues, I will DQ you automatically (with explaination, of course
.4. I will comment on the poems in which I feel that best fit the issue at hand, the others that may relate in some vague way may not be commented on.
5. If you have questions, please message me.. even though this is an anonomous contest, I will not give any preferential treatment to anyone... I really need the best advice here regardless of if I know you, like you, or whatever.
6. I will extend this contest if I do not get what I am looking for...
Thanks again to all of you... I'm anxious to see what this conjures up
UPDATE: I've extended this contest to try and get some more entries
I really would like everyone's opinion on this matter... So I guess I'll extend this one until I get 'em... Sorry to those of you that have entered already, and thank you for your entries, they've all been a good take on this issue... but I really need more entries Hang in there... Lots of luck and patience ... Thanks.Update: 6/3/07... Open to prewrites now... need more entries... I know you guys have what it takes... give it to me
Contest is Over
- Contest was judged on June 5, 2007
- Rewards: Gold: 300, Silver: 200, Bronze: 100
- Final notes: Thank you (all 8 of you for entering my contest. All entries were interesting and gave me a perspective other than my own to go from. This subject is a hard one for most to write about, because it's so close to home for everyone. Thanks again. Congrats to everyone!!! Good luck to all of you in everything that you do
Contest Winners
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So it comes down, / to summerrain, / for raindrops are like us. / They can't go back, / and oh so much, / is just not theirs to reach. / So it comes down, / to hail and storm, / and you without a house. /• Commented on by judge. [remove]
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In Life, / there are somethings / you need to experience for yourself. / There are certain mistakes / you have to make on your own. / It doesn't matter / about the things you've said and done. / What truby x meerz 21 lines, 5 comments, on May 22 6:36 PM 2007. In learn, personal, thoughts
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A display of isolation, / heartfelt but seemingly dead inside, / scared and somewhat hopeless / some will think / Possibilities of all kinds / can smash to the floor, / if underneath Cinderella shatters the glass• Commented on by judge.
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Hi Toyna
Let me think on this
I am sure their is a lessen here
Rick -
oh man, I have SOOOO much I could say on these issues, but I would never be able to put it into poetry! I hope you get lots of good poems for your contest!
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I don't know if I could come up with something in time for the contest. i think it's a cool idea though.
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This is a tough issue... I would love to write about it, but I cannot find the words. But I will tell you that, even though your neice was cruel and cold, doesn't mean she doesn't love you. Even though I know this seems hateful and just plan cruel, maybe she convinced your best friend not to go, hopeing you would leave... Sometimes kids do this. Not saying that she is young or anything, (not knowing her age) some are still young at heart. But don't give up, maybe call your best friend, try to tell her that what your neice said wasn't true, that you are truely reliable and trust worthy. If she is a true friend she will understand, if not, then she doesn't desurve you.
I hope this helps you... I almost lost friend over something like this... Its worth a try. Good luck with your contest.
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Oh and I love that pic you have on here, I totally love Pon & Zi, Jeff Tomas is awsome!
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A New Leaf
Everything happens for a reason, whether you want to call it fate or coincidence, there's always a reason.
Remind your friend of the times you were there for her, make her see that you two have been through so much together, through the bad and the good, and the least she could do is listen to you, and hear your plea. Remind her what you did for her, and tell her to ask herself: "Who do you think you can trust more? Me, or someone you've not known for NEARLY 22 years?"
You've been there for her, and her you, so just remember, if it's meant to be, she will come around, but if it is not, there is a reason she is staying behind, not just because your neice is being vindictive or scheming, maybe there is an underlying reason why she has decided not to go? Talk to her my friend, and I hope all goes well.
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