The New Year Blue Print

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I've been off my anti-depressants for a few weeks now. And you know what? If I were in Ohio, my wrists would be RAW. But I'm not. I've come to realize how horrible my surroundings were. My mother constantly disillusioning me and dealing with my hoodlum brother -- it tore at my resilience until I had none.

School is freaking great. I never thought I would believe this. Ever! I look forward to going to school each day and I love the school I go to. I can compare it to Olentangy and see how diverse it is with its 2400 people.

Living in a hotel is fun, as well. I get to see Missy. Hehe!!! Well, there's more than that. I like walking into a restaurant and any waiter/waitress being able to order my drink for me. And I even talk to Missy and Lisa C. about my relationship problems. It's just really funny and convenient. I was kind of uneasy about living in one room with my dad -- but we've grown really close and when we visited Ohio over break, I could definitely feel the difference between my mom and dad. It's so much better not having her around. I'd rather be around Tristan.

Michael. Hmm...I know what I need to do and I'm going to do it.

I am determined not tie myself into knots here. Mark (Jenkins) said something to me that I thought about for awhile (and still do). Anti-depressants are mind control...and I'm going to control myself. I don't need pills. I'm also going to try to listen to my close friends and what they've been telling me to stay away from.

This is going to work. Hellllllo new year!

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