Angel Eyes,
I sit here in our "office" and I am surrounded of pictures of you.
And I find that breath has escaped me for a moment or two, and a lump has grown in my throat.
I have been numb for two day's you would be proud. But tonight I am angry. Very much want to shake everyone until their teeth rattle.
Maybe it had something to do with the phone call that said you made it to Kuwait. And knowing that you still can't call me. Maybe it is that the kid's are spending the night at friends.
I dreamed that you came home last night. Never have I done that before. I woke up and felt like calling to you. And when I came down and poured my coffee I grabbed butter pecan instead of hazelnut. I stood there and I drank it. And my heart hurt.
I went to get clothes out of the dryer, and found two shirts and a pair of socks you left. I sat watching the tv holding them like a fool.
Is this what a coma feels like?
Hearing and touching, but nothing sinks in?
THAT IS ME... Life has gone on and damn it , it isn't supposed to.
I even cooked dinner and we said our prayers just the same til Victoria piped in oh and take care of Daddy and make sure he remembers to say Grace.
Here is that lump again.
You face God knows what, and our blonde, worries about you saying grace.
ha ha ha Now I am crying baby.
You would see the humor in that. I finished the pillow for the bench. It does look good. But I can't sit on it now.
Finished the wood drawings, but haven't painted them.
Oh and I saved the world today too. Think I am doing enough?
Shows the Wonder Woman bracelets...
I miss your shoulders at night. I can't sleep without laying on them. Funny how even after all this time, we still sleep in each other's skin. Watch out for my tiny butt okay? I like it just the way it is.
Nevaeh is okay, not great but okay only called out for you twice today. That isn't too bad right?
Well my eyes are fading my sweet man, and the tears are salty..
God I Love You so much.. Touches heart.. I hurt without you..
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