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Hello, and welcome to my author's page. Each of the images below express personally who I am in some way, as well as the background. I ask that you merely enjoy them and keep in mind that most of them were made for me, and no one else. Please respect that and do not take them without asking me first.
I have been writing since I was fourteen years old. Music speaks to my soul, as does art, poetry, and novels. I involve myself deeply in everything I love doing. I breathe it in and live it. My emotions control me; I react first and think later. I love so hard, and so loyally, it's hard to lose me as a friend unless you walk away yourself. I keep my promises unless there's absolutely no way I can do it. I keep my word unless something important comes up. If I say I'll be there, I will be, and I will do everything in my power to make it happen.
This tag and the one before it are both a representation of my persona and roleplaying character, Kira. She is the daughter of my first persona, and she is most like me at this present time. She holds more of my poitive qualities, and some of the bad due to the fact that we both follow our hearts and are led by our emotions. She is the person I have grown into being.
Symbolism is my love. Metaphor is my passion. I say things that often sound like they make no sense, and it always has a deeper meaning. I live in light, but I step into the dark. I live for others, and I breathe in for them. I'll do anything and everything for you, no matter where you are in this world.
If you can't count on anything else, count on that. I don't walk away. I don't let go. You can't get rid of me unless you yourself disappear. Don't worry. If I say I'm not going anywhere, I really mean it, and it means you mean everything to me.
Don't doubt me. Don't take advantage of me. Don't take me for granted.
I can be the best friend in the world if you treat me the way I want to be treated, which is the way I treat you. I treat everyone the way I wish to be treated back.
I will bleed, suffer, cry, scream, even die for someone I love, and everyone who knows me well knows this as a fact. I've been told that I am full of light.
The ocean is my passion. Rain is my love. I connect with it in ways I do not connect with anything else. This is my escape, my place of peace...my get away from the world. This is where my heart lays beating softly with the rhythm of the waves crashing against the shore. This is where I am most at home. It's just a shame that I am so far away from that place now.
My Past, My Present, My Future
-Came from a dysfucntional family, shaped like a broken family portrait that places blame every which way.
-The outcast in my hometown, friendless, and alone.
-An ex-cutter who still gets urges now and then.
-An anger that, if unleashed, could destroy people with fragile souls.
-Parents divorced, lived with my mother and nearly lost myself within her power high.
-A bisexual engaged to my first cousin; currently living together.
-Practically disowned for fighting for our right to be together.
-Closed, afraid, defensive, and miserable, I had to stumble through life to find my way.
-Upon my third year on AP, I found it, and the festering, hateful wounds are slowly starting to scab over and cease to be a blemish upon my heart.
-A believer in a Higher Power, delving into Wicca and finding my way.
-Against racism of any and all kinds, including homophobia.
-The black sheep of my family, and the "Bad Influence".
-Have taken the first step to healing, and am slowly walking down the right path for me to become who I want to be.
-Have become more open within the span of one year, than I have ever been in my entire life.
-Some things about myself are still kept private until I am given a reason to share.
-Still have trouble with letting things go and forgiving those who have hurt me in my lifetime, but that will change.
-Will grow an understanding of myself and of others, and I will do the same for them as others have done for me.
-Live to help others, but have to learn to do it in a way that doesn't wear me so thin, that it sucks my energy dry.
I have finally found my path. Nothing will turn me away from it now.
I dare you to judge me.
This is only part of what makes up who I am. There is so much more to me, and you will find it in my writing.
Every rose has it's thorns, and I have mine. I am not always soft and sweet. I can hurt, pinch, prick, and make you bleed on the inside. My words tear apart the soul, and there is passion in them, as the red of a rose stands for. I am all passion. Everything I do is based on that; how I feel, my emotions...what I know, think, see, and touch. Being an empath allows me to touch on things many others can't. It allows me to see almost every view, and feel, even know the reasons why such things would happen, even when everyone else doesn't understand. I am not good with words, but I am with feelings. Words only work in poetry for me.
I try to be very open-minded, loving, and accepting. I don't ever judge someone by their actions or looks. I try to be giving and sacrificing. If you are my friend, I would literally do almost anything for you. I have to admit though, strangers tend to turn me off. I am a personal person and I keep to myself until I am given a reason to be open. I am very passive and am easy to get along with as long as you respect me. I am very stubborn as well, and I live my life the way I see fit.
The beauty has surfaced beyond the thorns now and I wish to keep it that way. I never saw beauty when I first joined this site; only pain and hatred. I have learned so much since I've started to grow here. I couldn't have done it without the beautiful people I have met along the way, who found their way inside my heart to stay. They can be found [here].
If you touch me now, you won't get pricked unless you leave me with the wrong impression. I try to be careful with my words, and think about what I'm going to say. I try to take my anger elsewhere when I know it is not deserved. As long as you respect me, I will respect you. Remember that should you cross paths with me.
The following tags on my page, excluding the avatars right above this message and the sparkling rose above and below My Past, My Present, My Future, were all created for me, as well as the background. Please do not take any of the images credited below or the background without my permission.
Background made by Sensual Angel
First tag made by me
Second tag made by me
Third tag made by Scarlet Ambrosia
Fourth tag made by B Chandler
Fifth tag given by Iridessa Moonflower
Sixth tag made by Sensual Angel
Seventh tag made by Sensual Angel
Eighth tag made by JustADutchie
Ninth tag made by PhantomsAngel87
Tenth tag made by Sensual Angel
Eleventh tag made by Charmicious
Twelfth tag made by Sensual Angel
NOTE
Don't try to convert me to believe what you believe. Don't tell me I'm on the wrong path and I can find the right one. What is best for you is not what is best for me. Only I know what is best for me. Please give me the respect I deserve and let me choose that for myself. Don't try to tell me I'm wrong; I'll only tell you off and forget about you.
Please, don't read my erotica, and then assume you know anything about me. That makes you look and seem creepy, and I won't appreciate random comments telling me I'm great if the only work you have viewed is my erotica. It is not personal to me. You will learn nothing about me just by reading that, and I'm going to ignore you if you think you can identify with me just because you read those things. Put some actual effort in by reading things marked personal if you want to learn something about me.
Also, don't ask me to read something of yours, or enter your contests. Not only is that spamming, and against AP Policy, but I don't owe you anything unless you have made it a point to comment on my work first, or know me as a friend or an acquaintance. That sort of thing makes me less likely to look at anything of yours in the first place, because random spam annoys me. Only ask me if you are decently acquainted with me.
And finally, please don't randomly IM me with something stupid and try to make random conversation with me just because you are bored. Random IM's from people I am not familiar with turn me off, and I won't answer you if I don't know who you are or recognize your name.
I have been hurt one too many times in this lifetime...and I will not put myself at risk so easily again. I have always been a glutton for punishment...but the moment I realize I'm getting walked on...I will leave. Don't take those words lightly. If you give me even the slightest bad vibe, no more words will pass between us...I will simply cut you off.
Iridessa Moonflower had this made for me.
