I'm not sure what I have anymore. I'm pretty sure it's nothing, pretty sure my life is over dead and empty. I can't breathe at all, I can't see tomorrow and if I do it's a disappointment,
I don't want all your sympathy because imo I don't deserve it...I don't seem to be deserving of anything but hurt, pain and misery. I'm at the end, I don't know what to do, I'm avoiding doing the one thing that will make all this disappear, it's something I never want to do.
I'd hurt people and even though they are killing me, I'm not going to let them win. I'm still empty, lost and alone, no lover, backstabbing friends, people who can't make their minds up about whether they love me or not, and people who won't listen any more, call me a whining ***** call me an emo I don't F***ing care anymore I'm just not sure how to keep living.....I'm not sure if I'm even alive I'm broken beyond repair, and too exhausted to cry anymore, I'm wasted on misery and I can't do this anymore, I just can't go on like this.
It's killing me...
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Heh. Sometimes life sucks, and for long periods of time it just doesn't get better. And if you do seek help then people will tell you crap about "changing your attitude" or "your point of view" in order to make things seem less. These options in my opinion are a fucking cop out, and they only say this crap to try and make your life as miserable as their's is. Sorry, I digress. See I'm in a spot where I trudge through the crap and the muck that life puts up around me, and then the crap that everyone else puts up there to go along with it. It is trying to say the least, I'm in college and have never had a significant other. My recently acquired friends are great but we all have jobs, school, and don't get together enough for us to keep the bond that we started with. And my family has always been less than supportive, alot more along the lines of we dislike you and every thing that you stand for. But meh. It sucks, no one seems to stand with you and your goals are unreachable. Nothing that I do helps, and by doing what makes me happy I just end up screwing up the situation worse than before. I have to lie to people that I don't want to lie to. They use me without thought of what they are doing and what I might feel. And of course load me down with responsibility without ever giving me any freedom. I feel stuck in a never ending cycle of pain, anger, and frustration. Umm, but back to the main point. I know how you feel. I'm sure that your situation isn't the same but I hope it at least helps you knowing that you aren't alone in your feelings. If not just keeping trudging on. If you do then you'll either get out of the particularly low spot that your life is in, or you will eventually die and the other alternative will be filled. The people that posted before me seem to care for you very much however, so you might be able to draw strength from them. I hope it gets better for us both.
Sincerely Lonley and Waiting for Better, -
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you can talk to me if you need anything.
I am sure things will get better soon. 
because if it not a happy ending, it is not the end yet.
love,
transit
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I know what you mean, I'm in that stage at the moment, I'm just stuck and I can't pull myself out, talking doesn't really help but I don't know maybe this is just something you have to go through in order to get a better life; one that you deserve.
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I hope I get through it...
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You have me
Please don't leave me
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I won't leave you sweetheart have a marshmallow for me xx
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you have friends and you no i loves you too. I have my phone Ill text you hun. you know Im always here for you
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