~ Soledad's Analysis of Dark Years..

A Lesson For Myself...

A Lesson For Myself...
(brief analysis)
"Long is the way, and hard, that out of hell leads up to light..."  


It's just that when you are not around.. Or simply when lyf is not around.. You pretend that you have moved on.. But you are always there.. Ryt there closing your eyes to the facts... thats how the human mind works.. We lyk to stay in the dark.. All the tym even when we think we are facing the world with naked eyes.. It's not you that once lived the dreams that now seem to be so far away and lost.. But eventually we gather ourselves up in a new style, living on these nascent and fake hopes and soon we confront a totally different angle of lyf.. Thats the new version of you.. It all depends on how strong you are and how strong your faith is.. Once you lose your faith, you lose your religion, when you lose your religion, you lose your character... and when character is gone.. All is gone... Trust yourself and don't expect anyone to help you.. Help yourself! Be who you are there is no need to copy anyone else, you are best just the way you are! And others will respect you for that... Keep your dignity.. Your ego! Talkin about things that count in your lyf.. Ego is one of the most important thing! Stand tall..

So just hold on to one of those old ropes hanging from the tree of hope and hold on tyt to the one you think is the strongest! Who knows when the rain will come and wash away all those tyms that disturb you... The road you travel myt be dark and lonely but just know that it belongs to YOU only you.. I have for a long tym coped with this rope..You know... Shit happens ryt! Just the way love happens.. Infatuations and crushes.. It's all that shit that can't be helped... It has to happen! Just don't make yourself dependent on anything.. And keep yourself in those limits..When everything stops for a minute in your lyf..........

Love is always there.. It's just that the theories and ways of love have changed... People myt die.. Thats where faith counts again! Mere faith! Have faith that they are in a better place now.. and that they are not gone forever! (one of my dearest friend used to say that so I have to quote it here!) forever is nothing! and yet forever is everything! At the end we always find a way... You can always cherish the moments, the wonderful moments you shared with them and be glad that you are given a chance to live all those years that they didn't.. Be glad of what you have! Put that bit spice in your lyf... It's workin that way.. fuck it all! Jus' don't be an asshole.. Lets be brave bitches and bold dogs! Barking ain't gonna help lolz..

Desperation is a sin! and sins lead you to all those dark roads away from your religion and lyt.. Often we make excuse of our odd behaviour and social retirement.. and that excuse is I am still the same... People around me have changed.. It's you who is lagging behind.. Run off and catch that queue of people heading towards that far off beacon.. You are on the wrong way! Well most of the tym.. Maybe it was some blow that knocked that sane sense out of you and you could not keep yourself updated.. It's the mask you wear.. It's not that the people who once loved you have changed and don't love you anymore.. It's you who is taking the negative effect and not accepting the changes... Why not go on and let others know how you feel.. They myt even help you out! And you may find just another stronger rope hanging! Don't leave people who really care about you just because they remind you of some bad or shameful memories.. No one is really true to you unless you remain true yourself.. And no one is perfect.. Don't always  point out the bad habits of others...Because others myt be ignoring some of your habits that are unbearable! Everyone is lovable... And you have no ryt to ignore others.. never underestimat anyone! Pride hath a fall they say.. and its so true!

Truth is some people even though they myt love you the most and cry for you and care from all their heart myt be hiding that fact.. Some people just can't go out and let you know their feelings.. It's the effect of the atmosphere that has been created around them.. The kind of weathers they lived through... It myt be a storm! (put your foot in other persons shoe if it hurts you, it probably hurts that person too!) They always try to hide their feelings and keep trying to find some shelter away from the facts.. They will never let you know how they feel and you will often feel you are being neglected or ignored... But only ... only if you see them from a soft and wiser eye.. You will love them more than anything else.. Because these kind of people are often the most lovable and sincere.. Just another rope.. Look around yourself, you myt be hurting one of these kind of people! Everyone has a different way of loving and everyone is unique! Never leave the person you have shared your true feelings and past with... You won't often find someone who will listen to what you have to say with real pain and sincere heart in todays world! It's true old friends are gold.. No one else can know you better than them no matter if you are no more in touch with each other the way you used to be.. It's another sin to hurt someone! and you know where sin leads you.. It shouldn't be someone you used to love It has to be someone you shall always love.. Anyways you never know what is the importance of one person in the court of God...

Putting that inner-eye lyt on this world and so called lyf of ours... It depends on your concept of lyf.. what is it that we call lyf? The golden few years you spend trying to kill tym which at the end succeeds in killing you..? So why fyt for something you can never overcome? Why not give up the greed for lyf... Once you start living for the moment you will realize what lyf truely means.. Why not do something that when you are gone others myt remember you in good words... Even those whom you thought were your bitterest enemies.. It happens!

No need to drive in the left lane or ryt lane... The middle is the best.. Don't be so broad minded that you will fall apart into pieces and don't be so conservative that you will restrict your lyf to prison created by yourself.. Travel that longest and most reliable lane.. The middle one.. You will find peace.. Try cloaking yourself for the kind of company you are in... And the people around you will adore you.. It's that simple... What do we have to take from the world? People myt hurt you a thousand tyms.. But the thing that counts is how many tyms did you hurt them? Every action has a reaction.. How true.. Sometyms its not even lyk this, others myt be hurting you unintentionaly or maybe they don't have a clue that you are getting hurt.. they myt be thinking that you don't give them much importance.. Come on let others know how you truely feel! No need to fake feelings.. Often strongest relationships break solely because of misunderstandings... I have not yet found a cure for this disease... Help me out!
By the way; God never hurts you...

We have divided ourselves in classes.. Status counts everywhere... It's just another shit that can't be helped.. So live with it... There are somethings that we cannot entwine.. Parallel lyns never meet! Rich is getting richer and the poor is getting poorer.. Is it yet another world war or some sort of revolution we are heading towards?? The differences of religions.. casts.. Why not live the way we lyk and stop criticizing each other and let others live the way they think is ryt! Everyone has a different point of view.. Just don't mix up the status and religions.. Faith is faith.. There are no boundries of faith.. Religions have no classes.. Okay we are gettin nowhere.. so quit with it... There myt come a tym when all these classes and shit will end in this world.. and everyone will have the equal status and similar ryts.. And people will live with their own beliefs with peace.. But oh.. Thats called wishfull thinking.. and it will be a different story then...

At the end lemme wind up by saying this world is a temporary inn.. Ofcourse its all fake... The truth is God.. And God is lyt.. and lyt is lyf.. Lets just keep ourselves away from all those sins.. and near the highway of lyf.. Once you desert yourself from the world you become selfish and rude.. and your lyf becomes dry.. No need to hide.. No need to stay in the dark... Come out, the world is full of cheers and joy! Just go out and try everything! Learn to love and love will find a way!
God is love and love is the strongest of those ropes hanging from the tree of hope! Keep watering this tree and you will find that caravan of true bliss... Lets just fuck off the bad stuff from our brains and firmly hold on to our faith its all between you and your God.. It's just between you and those you love.. It's just about your passions... The dream in your eyes.. That far off sublime.. Your desires! Its ALL ABOUT YOU! (Lyk the old ufone motto... lolz) It's just the way you look at the world and how you treat others.. How people treat you, and how fate treats you is not what counts.. It's YOU that counts all the tym.. How you react.. Keep yourself sane to a limit! Too much sanity leads you astray.. Insanity myt help! Lyf is that simple!

If all of us will think this way.. And if only all of us will not only say these words but act upon them... World will be such a better and happy place to live in.. Reach out for that far off lyt and world will grab you towards itself.. When you start trusting your faith you start trusting yourself... And when you call your God, He answers back and one day when you wake up you realize that the winds have changed... and spring is in the air! All those dead ends will disappear and there will be opportunities everywhere! And there will be love all around! Loneliness is just another angle of looking at things.. And it's not bad! Besides you don't have any ryt to impose things on others.. You can't decide things for them, everyone has a ryt to live the way they lyk... The way they feel ryt.. And your tym will come one day.. Just keep the faith and keep working hard! Leave the rest on God..

Okay then.. Fuck that... fuck that all just for once and get over the godamned chickenshit.. It's not that complicated... You are the witness, you are the criminal and you are the judge... Try to search beyond the visible.. wrap it up then.. This is your court.. You can make your decisions, freedom is yours to choose, deem it all the way you lyk.. And freedom is your ryt! Jus' fly a bit higher... But don't be so seflish... It will lead you to that dark road again..! You know that you exist... and its a reality that cannot be altered or removed.. and there is no selfishness in that atleast! - lyf lyn - Now pick your luggage and get your ass outta here.. (Can't remain decent for long... lolz)
..you are not the last passenger.. and not the only one...
".. Dignity consists not in possessing honours, but in the consciousness that we deserve them..."  - Aristotle

"...Yehi unt ki shuruat hain
Yeh raat bhi kheirat hai
Teri uss janat ka hum tou
Janaza le challay..
Iss bar ke barsat mein
Tum apne unhi hathon se
Phir neya ikk jahan soch le..."
(Song: Shuruat, Artist: Shaan)

Peace..
- Soledad..
(04.07.06)
Just what I've learnt all these years.. It was a lecture I've given myself.. So its more of a personal write.. But comments are welcome..