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how can any normal person make the same mistake twice ?
i ask myself constantly...still,running around the pot is what i do best...constantly...and yeah i ask too many questions but that's not the point right now...what i think is the point right now,well,i don't really know or maybe i do but i don't admit it...not right away just give a second...
if i get to think about this clearly i would say i have lust problems...how the hell,after all I've been through,am i not able to manage all those vivid feelings ? the fire burning inside me...is it too strong ? am out of control ? i think not...not for now anyways...
but i have this morbid feeling of blowing up eventually...
there's a rolling stones' song (bet everybody knows it) it goes by can't get no satisfaction blablablabla
well i can't !! nothing !@!! at all.....
when did i get so cynical ?
answer me !!!
how did all this happen ?!(yeah always the same question)
i just know one thing...innocence is long gone and i suddenly find myself missing it...a lot...
what am i doing wrong ? am i too needy ?
suddenly i donno much,just have this suffocating feeling of claustrophobia,can't seem to shake it :S
bohemian...yeah I've been that...since for ever...since i know how to speak...since i learned how to think...can you eternally live unsatisfied ?
ANSWER ME !!!!!!!!!
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CALM DOWN!
I know exactly how you feel.. I have around 10 pages similar to the one here, just filled with words of rage and anger, wondering what the hell is going on, do I really belong here, what went wrong and why didn't things go my way.. But then I turn and see that if things weren't headed this way, nothing would've turned out the way it is now..
Breathe.. Let the beauty of the world shine from your eyes..
Nour -
"keep on craving life like a dazed lunatic"
you just defined what i probably do best
this feels like the tinkles of a little bit of inspiration !
i'll get bask to you shortly about that
thanks again for all the comments
would it be too much if asked you to check out the rest of my work ?plz
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My answer is yes and hell yes! Or else what will drive you to go on living? What will make you keep getting out of bed every single day and working your ass off? Would you want an existance where you have nothing to look forward to? I shrink from such a dreadful prospect!
And everything takes patience and time. Even God did not create the world in one day, so why should you resolve all your issues in such a short time? Everything worthwhile takes so much time which makes us enjoy it all the more.
So keep on craving life like a dazed lunatic. It's a hell more interesting and exciting! -
i can hide that side pretty well u know but it's never been dangerous before so if i'm not afraid of it you shouldn't be
anyways
"simple pleasure"...how can i forget ?
"special needs" remember this one ?
but all in all it's just the paradoxe that defines my life...
MMMMMMMMMWWWWWWWWAH !! -
wow... i've never seen this side of u before and...well...it scares me! :s
innocence...yeah it's long gone...missing it?? well i guess there are some stuff u can miss, not everything though.
honestly? i think that u're asking too much..i'ts not that u're not satisfied, it's that the things that u want to be satisfied are somehow too far from anyone's reach...utopias i'd say. remember, "simple pleasure"... that's what it's all about
rana
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