Well it was time I faced myself in the mirror so to speak.
And let me tell you what I saw had me cringing in horror and shrill screams pierced the night.
I am fat.
No other way to say it but yep boys and girls Momma needs a new body.
Which of course if you are a woman you know this led to severe depression and only made me crawl back into bed.
Not good.
It sorta literally came out of nowhere, hmm these pants must have shrunk, or this shirt gee was it always tight across my breasts? These were questions and excuses I found myself giving.
And the reasons I let myself become this way?
Plain ole simple laziness. Yep Javier got shot and can't do a lot so hey I can't run off and leave him, I told myself this.
This gist of this strange bit is I am going to begin working out daily, and no I don't mean lifting my arm to shove food in my mouth.
Starting small with gym, if I drink a soda I will in turn drink a glass of water. Been doing great with that, I hate water it is so plain and no amount of lemon is gonna fix that. But I know the value of drinking it, so I will bare it.
I also have decided to stay away from white flour, which if you know me is going to be a true crime. I love bread, I like battered dipped stuff. I can tell you how to do things with flour you never thought possible.
Potatoes... Let me count the ways on how I have loved you.. But I bid a fond farewell to you now.
I figured if I made a public statement resolving what I was gonna do maybe I stand half a chance.
So hey no one is perfect, now you know I am flawed.
But I am honest, and mostly I have to do it for my kids.
And for the fact that damn it no fashion designers are not just making things smaller, I am just getting bigger.
So no more feeling sorry for myself, no more excuses,
and no more putting off what I know I have to do.
The worst thing I could say to myself and have, is I will do it tomorrow.
So here is to new beginnings,
Loving you all,
The Fat Woman...
*\Well it was time I faced myself in the mirror so to speak.
And let me tell you what I
And let me tell you what I
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im a good size if i was about a half foot to a foot taller. my friends that are taller than me, same weight and all are a tish smaller. gotta love the 5 foot fuckall height! I find if i just do stuff that doesnt involve sitting or laying- most of the time i revert back to the size i once was- a 7. but i'm fitting in 9's again and some 11 depending on the make, which rounds out to standard clothes sizes as 32 waist (cuz that starts at 27 if you're going by the other size system.) baffling i know! saying it out loud is one thing, having a resolution written is completely harder to ignore. make a giant poster and slap it above the bed so when you look up you're reminding yourself. written goals are harder to ignore
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urghhhh my sweet Freckles...I am sure that you are not fat. But it sounds as if you have been brainwashed by what is portrayed in media and fashion as the way to be. Please do not mis-understand. I am not condoning outright obesity as is really noticable when setting foot outside
. However I do not think that thin as a rail is necessarily good either-----and so you have put on a few pounds...look at pics and paintings and call yourself a renaissance woman
I also do not believe in eliminating our favorite things from our diets...only to eat them in moderation (for deprivation leads to over-indulging at some time). Please do not consider this tooting my own horn , but I have never been on a diet and I yo-yo with about ten pounds back and forth with my weight consistent of 20 years ago. I pay it no heed at all.....it evens out every few months ...I eat potatoes and chocolate and all that good stuff And you should do the same....you deserve to treat yourself as long as you do not comfort-eatYes , this is my lecture
with love
xoxoxo
reenie
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What mirror are you looking in? You are not fat!
I wish you good luck in your venture!!! I hope it is well recieved
Criss -
You're not fat...you're just not tall! I can't believe you are gonna try to improve on perfection,but I wish you good luck if you feel you must.
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Aunt Deena
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