COme to Understand

It Has come to my attention that all life is, is a series of disappointments and fulfillment of our desires is only a delusion founded on our hearts illusion of life. If I have not already lost you, good. What we do each day, go to Shcool, work, etc., we are just passing time, trying to learn as much as we can as we go along. Our sole purpose in life is to gain knowledge in all things to again unite with our creator. The creator has many names, and for me I use the name "Butterfly". For it was the butterflies throughout my life that has taught me most. To get back on track now. We are suppose to be alone. We must learn how to survive on our own, in order to become strong enough to make the journeys between lives. Even if your not alone, or so you think (your in a relationship, your family is there for you, etc..) You are at times in a position in which you must think for yourself. You only learn this way.

My life has taught me I survive better alone than with someone I love. As stated in my first sentence, my heart will make illusions of love and joy and happiness when in reality its but a side track to our true purpose. Why should I love only to hurt. Why should I again fall for the illusion. I don't want to, and hope I can be strong enough to learn from this.

I am strong when I am alone, and I still am madly in love with her, but can not afford to be hurt again by someone I am not sure if I can trust. Simplicity in life is an absince of emotions. If I do not love, I can not hurt. If I do not smile, I shall not cry.

This is just some perception on my life as it stands now. My beliefs inscribed in the lessons I face.

Blessed Be