You know how people always say, "Oh heartbreak - it's the worst feeling in the world!"? Well, I finally understand that. We're not speaking of heartbreak in a metaphoric sense - nooo, we're speaking of that moment when your breath catches in your throat and all the sudden it's become a painful chore to try and take one fresh gulp in. Your chest feels immensely heavy and you contemplate calling 911 for a heart attack. Then in one sudden powerful reality hit you realize the unbelievable; your heart is breaking. 'But it's supposed to be metaphoric..?' you think to yourself, but you know deep down it's not. I keep feeling this day after day when I think of my ex-fiancee. Funny thing is, I don't think everyones had heartbreak. I think it's saved for those "special people" who truly lose a loved one. It can be to death, breakup, kidnap - anything, but it results from love - unconditional love. I'm not talking kiddy stuff anymore, and true I may only be 18. But, in the past few weeks I've had innumerable amounts of adults coming to me (why now, I have no idea) and saying, "What you and Nick had was real. I've been married 20 years and my husband has never looked at me the way Nick looked at you" and "I've never seen two people love eachother so completely." Some people run around giving eachother oogly eyes, holding hands, being "so in love" but ours ran deeper, much deeper. I loved him for his complete compassion and love of people. We had one major thing in common, compassion for human kind - and eachother.
I know for 3 1/2 years I had something adults DREAM of having - and I wish SO badly I could prove that to you. I know you think, "Oh, shes a dumb child" but I'm TELLING you..I had it. I KNOW some of you have been married many years and I can tell you with no doubt, we loved each other more then you'll ever experience.
And still my hearts breaking...
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Love many say is a fleeting emotion... or everyone's in love with the idea of love and even Love's a verb not a feeling. Not true... I agree with you about heartbreak seemingly for just that one person who you love more then life itself and BAM... everything you tried, spent so much time on was what seems like nothing... your efforts taken so easily away because everything happens for there unknown reasons... Some people see love as affections, but really it's something born deep side the soul of our "shells" (bodies) It's what I like to call the soul loving another's soul... I hear you and I can say, my heartbreaks everyday with reminders everywhere I go... It's this deep pitted feeling of aching that words can never express... it's something felt and it doesn't always go away with time as others say. I think when you're ready for the aching to be done and you can face the day and say I'm okay then you can breathe, live and try life.
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it's funny how death is not a scary thing to me, until it was the one i loved...
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Ouch, Heartbrake sucks, THats why I'm staying single for a wile. I've been through some realy messed up relationships and they screwed up the whole trust thing with me.
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who's to say that it is over.it may have been too powerful for the moment and there is always hope.for if it is true love you always have a chance of it returning.cherish the fact that you have experience such a strong love.many people go a lifetime and never feel such.
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Love is for everyone and it doesn't care about age. I know Romeo and Juliet was only a play, but those two individuals had unconditional love as teenagers. I think everyone is capable of finding that lump in the throat, butterflies in the stomach type love. I know a heart can break so much when it's over! There's like no getting over it. Time can help unless you run out of it. Good column about love/heartbreak.
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