to anyone who reads me.
i might not be around very much anymore. i've realized my current poetry is completely destroying me and has no positive effect on my life. i don't want to be like this anymore. i've honestly become so depressed to the point of questioning my life and i don't want to focus on it anymore. i miss who i used to be. this could possibly mean nothing, i'm sure i'll still write. they probably just won't be depressing things that make people cry and all that. because i'm sick of that. i'm sick of making people be sad and cry and pity me because i'm sick of pitying myself. writing is unquestionably a part of who i am, i just don't want to be this sad anymore.
plus my life has been extremely wonderful and busy lately and i seem to only be able to write well when i'm in a completely horrid state of trauma. and sure i have a knack for whatever it is that i do but it's not worth sacrificing my emotional stability for.
i put so much into everything i write and i don't want it to have that effect on me any longer.
just letting everyone who reads me know.
i'm working on changing a lot of things about who i am, making self realizations, the biggest of which is i'm not who i want to be. and i plan to change that.
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change is a good thing
you definately have a talent
maybe you should do some upbeat freeform and see what comes of it?
just think of all the positives and write anything
then look back and take what you can from it
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thank you very much, i really appreciate it
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you're welcome
i'd like to see some positive stuff from you
but i like the hard stuff too
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Makes sense to me. People say writing can be used as an output for our strong emotions -- that doesn't necessarily mean including those strong emotions specifically in the piece. Maybe writing about something else is exactly the output you need. I agree with girl shaman, do it if it will help and if it will make you happy.
I wouldn't change who "you are". Accept yourself, and don't go looking to change things you cannot. But if there are things you do, think or feel that you want to change, that's different. I'd say, at least.
Good luck.
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Thanks Ryan.
Yeah, I don't plan to lose myself in any of the changes I'm making, just working on improving the cards I've been dealt, so to speak.
thanks so much.
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No problem. Haha, now that wording makes me feel a little more at ease. MSN me whenever, alright?
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Don't worry, my life is awesome right now and I just don't want to focus on what my writing was bringing out in me.
Will do.
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Good to hear.
Alright. I would be doing better if I hadn't just bombed a part-time job interview to an embarrassing level. Haha. Oh well, it was my first one ever, and I will learn from it.
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hahaha what happened?!
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Haha. Everything I said just came out as an orchestra of stammers and verbal-farts.
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hahaha awww.
I'm sorry.
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It's alright.
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you do whatever makes you happy hun im behind you on that all the way <3
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thank you so much audri, you're wonderful.<3
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no prob hun i'm really proud that you can become this strong and assert yourself against the depression and what not, it's a big step. keep walking! <3
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yus, girl!
hold on to the beauty, babes.
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agreed
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I support ya - you go girl!
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thank you.
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Know the feeling. Good luck, dear. Have a cookie.
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thank you!
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I remember doing this :|
Anyways, you got this!! Stay strong.
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thank you so much
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kudos to you for having the strength to do this. your writing will always be amazing, it doesn't have to be sad or depressing to be amazing. so thats okay. good luck.
I wish you luck, love
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thank you so much jordan, you're wonderful. <3
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best wishes to you, dearest. muah
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thank you dear.
i've missed talking to you!
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aw, ang i understand. lately i've been feeling like i love writing so much, but it's taking away from time that i could be with family and friends and not on the internet. it's good to slow down.
i hope you can write some happy poems
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thanks so much emma! you're amazing.
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you can still make people feel in a different way with your writing. it's easier to pour out how shitty you feel onto a page, and while it takes real talent to make it poetic, it's still the easiest muse. and trust me, i spent six months writing about how much i hated myself.
and it was good poetry. relatively at least, not as good as yours, but still.
and then i got happier. and ohhh, it got hard to write. what did i write about now? but i feel like i've improved since then. i still write sad things, hard things to read. but it's a different sort of sad. elements of my life maybe, but not all about me.
and i feel like you're at that stage of change.
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thank you so much izzi, but honestly you are so much better than me. xD you should know this. i think you're right, it's just a change in my life and my writing will hopefully follow.
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phases...life is a cycle; this will resonate with many, including me. there are times when we need to express and release and there are other times when doing just that has detrimental effects. learn to love you & your writing will learn to lift itself from where it's at...enriching you internally will enrich your output.
life is for living...go live it.
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thank you so much laura! <3
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good on you.
you are a brilliant person. whatever you do you'll always be brilliant.
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thank you so much caitlin. <3
you're so amazing.
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i agree with this. i've stopped writing, though i enjoy it and though i love to see the results i can't just keep pulling at myself.
hope things are going well for you
i'll still comment on any new stuff, even if it's not sad
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yeah, i've needed to do this for a long time. it takes so much out of me.
thank you, you too.
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i guess i'm on the same boat , it's just that i can't express it in words , that's all . out of whatever nonsence i've written so far not one of my so called poems are in the HAPPY category . i try to write happy poems , but somehow can't . guess you need to be happy to write happy
and now your life is been wonderful lately ,that's good and i'm happy for you .
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thank you so much i appreciate your comments and everything so much
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Dont worry Ive had to do the same before.
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thank you so much
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