Dear diary
I am here. Anita left me a thank you note with tips to where things were in case C needed them for his dialysis. She has reached Spain safely. I have started a UTI and feeling a bit wretched. Made myself tea and had oatmeal breakfast. Took Duchess for a short walk. I am in no mood to take the longer route. Hope the weather warms. Chaitanya left for work without any breakfast. I had a long talk with Samyukta. She is so miserable. I do hope she gets out of the pits. I sent her the book Anita got- Feeling Good by David Burns. It showed so many examples of behaviour similar to Samyukta's. I hope she really, really digs her feet into the ground and gets out of the dumps.
I remember, dear diary going through a slump after I got married. Only thing is I was never as ambitious as Samyukta is. However, she is still not sure what it is that really fills her with passion and excitement. What kind of work would keep her on a high. I wish she really really gets a grip on this. I think after my wedding, I was of course more closely in touch with my in-laws and the courting period had left a lot of toxins in the form of assumptions and inferences as to how different my family was from K's family. In my mind, I blew things out of proportion. And I did not know how to articulate my feelings to Krishna. He was battling his own monsters - about how he had missed the boat to go abroad, and how he failed to get the subject he wanted. He settled for Anatomy which was more paying but was career harakiri. Samyukta is going through a similar angst. Only God and her own self-confidence can help.
I am in Chicago. The non-stop flight was not bad, good weather. However, Chicago is cooler than Redding and the house is cool.
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