Ok people here goes;
As some of you may have noticed I have been pretty much absent from AP for some time. I've neglected people who really shouldn't be neglected and now I feel I should give some sort of reason for all this ..
basically I am just tired, so very tired .. I've had the same blank page open on my comupter for ages, there isn't anything there in my mind to write. I'm spiraling down into depression again .. but this time it feels very strange almost like I know I won't come round from it, nothing really matters to me anymore.
Usually when I'm down I write better, not now .. I'm burnt out and don't think I will ever write anything decent again.
I'll complete my comitments with rounds contest I am currently in (though I doubt that will take very long) and then I may just fade away.
I'm sorry to all who have come to know me and who I have left stranded .. its not you .. its me.
so i'll end with a simple sorry.
Time to explain myself to all my friends here on AP
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About Coming Clean
Wow, Cool stuff Fugz,.. I have been away for who knows how long. But I'm here again surprisingly. Truth is my mother didn't believe me that I have lots of peoms online. I guess her disbelief has kept me away. Who knows. But I am hoping to pen again. Glad to see you back, and I'll try to stay as well.
Marianne -
fugz,
i dont think i have to tell you again. i started writing because of you and the lovely words you came out with.
even thinking that you would not write again makes me real sad and i am at a loss for words.
just take some time out and i am sure you will back within no time.
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With the prowess your quill is prone to taking flight upon, I am sure the words will come back to you. Whether it be here or elsewhere, never completely abandon for feel abandoned from the Muse. Take care and I hope you win your bout with depression soon. It can be one abominable monster. Write on poet. Ride on.
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BEEN THERE - DONE THAT!
Hey - I know exactly how you feel - I know what depression feels like in a very real sense of the word. It's hard, but I'm so glad that you're reaching out to us. Please don't quit writing - write about not being able to write - if that's all you can write about. Please don't fade away - please. Hang in there, man. I think it's something that's inbred in some of us - you know? It's like diabetes runs in families - or cancer - depression is a very real disease. Trust me - I know from experience. I was adopted as a baby - later I searched for my parents and found out that my natural mother and my natural brother had both committed suicide - so then I thought: "Aha" now I know why I feel this way. It helped a little bit - a least I know the "why". We sure would miss you around here. Please don't fade away. You're not the only one - there is help out there, and we're your friends. -
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thank you ... I will probably stay around, but writing is another thing. No two words on the page look right to me.
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Bro......
You know how much I care about you ....
You have my e-mail address...Please don't fade away
I would miss you so much...I knew something was wrong but I am not one to pry or force an answer, but know that I am here for you and whether you are on AP or not please do not fade away from those who love you
Your Sis Always
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I would be sorry to see you go. We all to through times like that - I just hope you know we are here for you.
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You don't have to fade away. This website is not only for writing.
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its not just the writing thats fading .. its me.
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well then, stop it
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trying .. but this pit seems bottomless
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All pits are. But there are ways to get out.
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