My lover, my lady. My everything...
I am feeling terrible sick at the moment. I haven't gotten this sick in ages, it's the worst it's been in a long time. I'm missing you a lot. I wish you were here to keep my hair out of my face, rub my back and tell me it will be okay.
That's okay though... You're in my heart. Do you know that? You're always with me... Always. I don't know if you feel it, if you feel it at all. You're always here to me, though. Sortof like... My imaginary friend, but not really. My imaginary lover that's real, just away from me for the time being. I feel like I already know what your touch feels like, what your kiss feels like... I can always hear your voice ringing in my ears.
It's beautiful. Your voice. It's my favourite song. That perfect tone...
I hope you aren't losing faith in us. We need that right now, faith. We need hope, we need something. We need each other, but not constantly. I just need to know we're on the same page. We're still in this together. I don't want to keep running down this path if you aren't running with me... Are you with me, baby? Are we going the same pace? Am I running too fast for you, or am I way behind on all of this?
I love you so much. I want you to know that I'm fine when you're gone. I don't want to make you unhappy. I don't need you to be here 24/7 for me to be happy. I just lay and think about all we've gotten through. How happy you make me, how much you comfort me. How you say my name...
I love how you say my name. I love how you tell me you love me in the softest whisper sometimes... It makes me insides light and fluffy. You make me happier then I have ever been. This letter seems so fast paced - I wanted to make it last. Meaningful... I'm trying to make it meaningful.
You're beautiful. I'm sure I've told you all of these things over and over and over again. You're beautiful. You're radiant. You're stunning, you're magnificent. You have so much talent and potential... You're everything to me, and I love you.
I wonder how many times you've heard that escape my lips. Probably way too many times... That's okay though, right? Maybe I shouldn't say everything so much... I don't feel like I have to say it, because you know. You know all of these things... How much I love you and trust you and adore you. How much I want forever with you...
Saying it just makes me happy. I'm sure it makes you happy, too.
I hope you're doing well tonight, lover. I hope you're sleeping well... I hope you get a lot of work done tomorrow. Monday.
One week and three days until your birthday.
You're going to be an adult.
I feel so young.
We're going to be okay, right? We'll be fine. We can do this... This is just another bump in the road. Not even a bump, maybe just a tiny rock that our huge loveeee vaaannn can ride over without any problems.
You're amazing, Raven Stephanie Marie Braithwaite. Link. Peter Pan.
Be my wife?
Signed,
Lexi. Kirby. Wendybird. <3
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