A list, reason I may be leaving AP

a list, I'm not a silver member so I can't use the list feature......

1. no one reads my poems
2. they weren't good anyways
3. I don't write (much) anymore
4. I don't have much time to write
5. Some of my poems are personal and shouldn't be online so I'm going to delete them
6. this name doesn't fit me, its too morbid and not me
7. but thank you shell for giving it to me
8. I don't have problems to write about, so my stuff is no good
9. I'm getting tied up in other people's poems and drifting from reality
10. I worry too much, so when I read people's sad poems I start to worry
11. I started entering a contest, but I never finishedmy entry
12. I no longer write poems in the margins of my school papers
13. I'm tired of entering contests and not getting comments
14. I'm not an asset to this community, my comments on poems are not constructive they're "I really like this" and "<3"
15. number 14 annoys me because it is the only one thats more than one line long
16. As you can see I like making lists; reasons to leave lists, why he loves me lists, why he doesn't lists, to do lists, wish lists, possiblities lists, places I would like to go but probably won't lists, how to make money lists, how to spend money lists
17. Because of number 16 my desk is usually covered in a pile of lists, on college rule notebook paper
18. wide rule notebook paper bothers me
19. I make lists because my dad does, only he just makes to do lists, my lists are more complicated